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YES YES. I SHALL UPDATE MY BLOG FOR REAL NAO. i think.

so here's a new layout. i didn't customize it or anything, i just pick one out of the billionz of layout out there - ask google and u shall be given. so just then, i said something about not having anything to write about. i lied. lots of things happened, i just didn't get the chance to write about them. by the time i find myself a decent time to ramble about it, the feelings are no longer there, and i can't convey my thoughts onto the screen properly without them. sad.

so what do i wanna write about?

quite a few events had happened since my last update on B2ST showcase. and that was like, 2 months ago? and i did got myself into MTV Worldstage - i got to see the Wonder Girls up close. and then there was this holiday i think? but i sat at home doing nothing in particular, but reading Eyeshield21, One Piece and some other epic mangas. and too bad Onemanga died. and there's also this GAMP thing that i went with Wheen and Freya. good ramen is awesome. and OMG Annie is so cute >////< i can't possibly write about how much i have spazzed for every korean music update that i got. SHINee - Lucifer. album of the year, period. and how GDE has epicly crushed the hopes and dreams of 3000+ of Malaysian SHAWOL? yeah that was mean. and those weekends where i went out with my friends, well, the usual friends, Paah and co. because it's nice to go out when you want to, where people are willing to keep you company. owh and my birthday? yeahh. my birthday was on the 25th of August. lots of wishes, but no cake. keke xD i don't really mind it since i didn't got myself a cake last year too. besides, it's the thought that is supposed to count. SUPPOSED. but i did went out with my facebook mom and sister and a step sister. we ate good food, shared good stories and had an awesome sleepover. ahh and then there was this Asaban Fest aka TAF which i didn't go to. funny story. aihhh. it's Ramadhan now and my diet is going haywire. 3 days of McD marathon and 4 days of non-stop pizza galore? i gained 6 kg. no joke. (eventhough i really wanted to starve myself to death this month so that i could save up enough money to go to various KPOP related events.) ZE:A is coming to Malaysia for a fanmeeting, and there's this awesome KPOP NIGHT going on in Singapore, in October. SHINee, FT Island, SNSD, Big Bang, Infinite and Dae Guk Nam Ah. my bias(es) are coming! D: but since it's in Singapore, i'm having quite a predicament. ticket price, passport, accommodations - MONEY. i'll try and save up, but i need my brother to top-up some-some. hey, this is a once in a life time thing. it keeps me motivated. it makes me want to wake up in the morning and face the world. if i die now, i'd be a ghost, filled with regret, doomed to wander aimlessly on Earth, till eternity. hey wait. being a ghost would mean that i don't have to pay the ticket fee. hoho. sometimes my optimism is harmful to myself.

life aside, studies. yes. college. hell yes. i mean, no. college sucks. i hate studying. they make me feel like such a failure. it's a good thing i'm a narcissist. i could convince myself that i wasn't trying hard enough, and that's why i suck at studying. i suck because i chose to be. at least that is what i'm trying to tell myself. eventhough i came to every single class and not miss out on any lecture, i still find myself lost among the over-priced printed lecture notes. ah come one, 4 subjects aren't that hard to handle compared to 10. but i still find myself struggling. when will i ever get to feel, smart? =__= guhhh i still caught myself thinking, why the hell did i got myself into all of this mess? i should flunked my SPM and be a stewardess instead, like some people. i'll make my mother proud, the easy way.

i can't spend too much time blogging now. i'll try and write some stuff about the events that i went to/through. but not all i think since i've forgotten most of them already. ahh good thing that i have some sort of memory bank out there of FB. pictures. lots of pictures. xD i miss writing posts about my wacky dreams ;__; i'm gonna sleep now i get some writing materials. thanks for reading. (if there's any xD)