Traumatized.

*inhales*

*holds*









*exhales*

speechless. angry. sad. disgusted. horrified.
curiosity kills the cat..?
no. but a pair of stiletto did.
a small, helpless kitten.
so innocencent, so delicate.
i could hear its desperate calls.
the painful shrieks.

it was too much to bear.




i'm scared.

Traumatized.

*inhales*

*holds*









*exhales*

speechless. angry. sad. disgusted. horrified.
curiosity kills the cat..?
no. but a pair of stiletto did.
a small, helpless kitten.
so innocencent, so delicate.
i could hear its desperate calls.
the painful shrieks.

it was too much to bear.




i'm scared.

happy baking day! ^^

i'm so happy! i get to bake to my heart's content today! heee.. earlier today, my housemate and I went to Mydin! at first i didn't really want to make the cake since my wallet was dangerously thin, but after a quick consultation with my otherself, i headed to the ATM and withdraw me some money for the baking supplies!

the first batch was kinda weird. the mug that i used was rather small, and the cake mixture even overflowed inside the microwave! the that cake was supposed to be INSIDE the mug is now covering all over it! it was rather tasteless. eventhough i added more cocoa than what was suggested, i can't really say that the mug cake was chocolatey enough. or maybe i'm just too big of a chocoholic to taste it! but my housemates said that it was ok, and rather tasty, so i decided to go out and have everyone to taste!

but, there was not enough to go around.. i went back to my unit. then, Dell showed up. she had just arrived here at casa from her house, so she didn't get the chance to have a taste. so, i decided to whip up another batch for her! ^^ this time i put less flour and more cocoa, and it tastes better. to prevent the mixture from overflowing, i did the mixture in a different mug, then transfered half of it into the clay mug and bake for 2:45 minutes. the result : a better looking cake with a better taste! dell brought the cake to her unit and shared it with her housemate, until there was no more. lol.

then i realised it! Gkah's unit haven't had a taste yet! using the left over from the 2nd batch, i decided to bake another one using a bowl instead of a mug for 2 minutes. but it turned out kinda dry and hard, due to over baking. haiz. and so, i did another batch! it was good, and i get to share it with everyone!

i went home. haha. it turns out that Ain who is my own housemate still haven't got a taste. so i baked the remaining from the third batch inside the mug for 2:15 minutes. but unfortunately, it got burned. ==" i guess i was having a hard time estimating the baking time for the leftovers. you could actually see smoke coming out from a hole in the center of the cake. lolZ.

and so, i did the 4th batch of the day! everyone ate it, and they lived happily ever after.... (=^_________^=)

*the mug cake must be eaten right after it is baked, since it tends to get hard and crispy and crusty. so, x leh la bawak pegi kolej.. heee..

*no pictures were taken since the cake was err.. 'volatile'. it disappears into thin air like dry ice left out under the sun. lolZ.

happy baking day! ^^

i'm so happy! i get to bake to my heart's content today! heee.. earlier today, my housemate and I went to Mydin! at first i didn't really want to make the cake since my wallet was dangerously thin, but after a quick consultation with my otherself, i headed to the ATM and withdraw me some money for the baking supplies!

the first batch was kinda weird. the mug that i used was rather small, and the cake mixture even overflowed inside the microwave! the that cake was supposed to be INSIDE the mug is now covering all over it! it was rather tasteless. eventhough i added more cocoa than what was suggested, i can't really say that the mug cake was chocolatey enough. or maybe i'm just too big of a chocoholic to taste it! but my housemates said that it was ok, and rather tasty, so i decided to go out and have everyone to taste!

but, there was not enough to go around.. i went back to my unit. then, Dell showed up. she had just arrived here at casa from her house, so she didn't get the chance to have a taste. so, i decided to whip up another batch for her! ^^ this time i put less flour and more cocoa, and it tastes better. to prevent the mixture from overflowing, i did the mixture in a different mug, then transfered half of it into the clay mug and bake for 2:45 minutes. the result : a better looking cake with a better taste! dell brought the cake to her unit and shared it with her housemate, until there was no more. lol.

then i realised it! Gkah's unit haven't had a taste yet! using the left over from the 2nd batch, i decided to bake another one using a bowl instead of a mug for 2 minutes. but it turned out kinda dry and hard, due to over baking. haiz. and so, i did another batch! it was good, and i get to share it with everyone!

i went home. haha. it turns out that Ain who is my own housemate still haven't got a taste. so i baked the remaining from the third batch inside the mug for 2:15 minutes. but unfortunately, it got burned. ==" i guess i was having a hard time estimating the baking time for the leftovers. you could actually see smoke coming out from a hole in the center of the cake. lolZ.

and so, i did the 4th batch of the day! everyone ate it, and they lived happily ever after.... (=^_________^=)

*the mug cake must be eaten right after it is baked, since it tends to get hard and crispy and crusty. so, x leh la bawak pegi kolej.. heee..

*no pictures were taken since the cake was err.. 'volatile'. it disappears into thin air like dry ice left out under the sun. lolZ.

Confusing.

have u ever met that someone? that special someone who sends chills down your spine. someone that is so significant in your life, that you think everyhing that happens to u have something to do with the guy, even when it's really not. you would look forward to college, and calculate the slightest chance that you and him would meet 'coincidentally'. you would do an anagram of your name and his, and make out any stupid correlatian with both of your birthdays. you even name daily objects after him. u would think of him any time of the day, at total randomness. the thought of him made u jumpy, ur heart races and u felt the sudden urge to 'guling2 on the floor'. not to mention the high-pitched sound you make; well, usually "Kyaa!!!~"

that is not love. that is just Moeru. total fangirlness.

have u ever met that someone? that someone who u r afraid of. u felt insecure everytime he's nearby. but with him, you would feel that everything is gonna be alright. a slight inferiority complex? maybe. someone whom u respect. u r afraid of him, but sometimes, u want to get close to him. u won't even dare to look directly in his eyes. you hate him. you like him. ur confused. u would start to analyze him, but that would just make u more and more confused. you give up. in your eyes, he's somewhat cold. but in your heart, u see something totally different. a day comes by, and at a glimpse, u saw a smile. was it for you? was it really a smile? or was it just a smirk? well, to sum up, you find the guy very, very confusing. and amusing. heh.

is that love? rase macam nk sepak je pun ade. heeee...

Confusing.

have u ever met that someone? that special someone who sends chills down your spine. someone that is so significant in your life, that you think everyhing that happens to u have something to do with the guy, even when it's really not. you would look forward to college, and calculate the slightest chance that you and him would meet 'coincidentally'. you would do an anagram of your name and his, and make out any stupid correlatian with both of your birthdays. you even name daily objects after him. u would think of him any time of the day, at total randomness. the thought of him made u jumpy, ur heart races and u felt the sudden urge to 'guling2 on the floor'. not to mention the high-pitched sound you make; well, usually "Kyaa!!!~"

that is not love. that is just Moeru. total fangirlness.

have u ever met that someone? that someone who u r afraid of. u felt insecure everytime he's nearby. but with him, you would feel that everything is gonna be alright. a slight inferiority complex? maybe. someone whom u respect. u r afraid of him, but sometimes, u want to get close to him. u won't even dare to look directly in his eyes. you hate him. you like him. ur confused. u would start to analyze him, but that would just make u more and more confused. you give up. in your eyes, he's somewhat cold. but in your heart, u see something totally different. a day comes by, and at a glimpse, u saw a smile. was it for you? was it really a smile? or was it just a smirk? well, to sum up, you find the guy very, very confusing. and amusing. heh.

is that love? rase macam nk sepak je pun ade. heeee...

plushie wants rocky. badly.

today, ili, pa'ah and me went to the biotech convention in KLCC. lol. i was hoping for a talk on career options in biotechnology, but what i got was a snooze fest. boring worrr~~~ budak2 sekolah jer ade as far as i can see. truth be told, i actually felt like a nerd in there. heh. but we did had 'fun'. to summarize, biotech is actually a super general course. which means, there's a long way to go before any of us can actually get into the career field that we're interested in. according to the kakak at the con, forensic (for an example) requires the student to take up several fields, and some of them maybe engineering related. i don't know why, but i often get the impression that biotechnology is stuck between biology and physics. actually, it's more like physics + biology = biotechnology. ah! am i just pointing out the obvious?! whatever. the thing is, i'm super freaked out thinking about what major i want to take. these are some of the thing that i want to do in the future:

1. create a new type of orange - oranges that are not orange, meaning that they would come in purple, pink, fuschia, cyan, white, and any assortment of colours. why stop there? next maybe i could do patterns, and maybe, just maybe, produce oranges with cute emoticon faces. just like this cute onigiri here!
2. create a new breed of cat - i want to design the cutest, fluffy-est, cuddly-est and colourful-est cats ever! yup! i want a set of seven rainbow coloured scottish folds; red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet! owh, with and additional traditional black and white scottish fold. why a scottish fold? because their mutated folded ears are just too cute to resist!



3. genetically engineer a new type of orchid with fragnance! - apparently, this research is already under way. maybe i could create an orchid that requires less attention. a granny who is a neighbour of mine actually collapsed while attending her orchids. darn attention seekers. i guess if the orchid would actually have a fragrance, then it would be worth the while la kan?

4. other than those biotech related dreams, i would like to become a pastry chef or a famous cheese cake baker and open up a world renown bakery! or maybe i could do a franchise. haha. owh. i would also like to open a vet clinic.

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hoho. i've totally sesat from my actually blogging objective. what i wanted to post is about after the biocon. dah dekat, so we decided to go sightseeing. dalam KLCC. haha. and i scored this bebeh! it's pink, soft and full with tengkorak patterns! heeee~~~

plushie wants Rocky. lol~

what're u looking at?

owh. this one is a gift from my sister. hehee~ she said she bought it super cheap cuz it's actually one of the rejected plushie. heck. even i can't figure out what's wrong with it. but some of my friends said that it's too cute, it's creepy. lol~

i've decided! i wanna be a plushie collector!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kyaa!!~~~~~~~~

owh. go ahead and guess the name that i've given to the plushie. agaga~

* tak penat ke 'kyaa!' sane, 'kyaa!' sini tiap2 hari? *

plushie wants rocky. badly.

today, ili, pa'ah and me went to the biotech convention in KLCC. lol. i was hoping for a talk on career options in biotechnology, but what i got was a snooze fest. boring worrr~~~ budak2 sekolah jer ade as far as i can see. truth be told, i actually felt like a nerd in there. heh. but we did had 'fun'. to summarize, biotech is actually a super general course. which means, there's a long way to go before any of us can actually get into the career field that we're interested in. according to the kakak at the con, forensic (for an example) requires the student to take up several fields, and some of them maybe engineering related. i don't know why, but i often get the impression that biotechnology is stuck between biology and physics. actually, it's more like physics + biology = biotechnology. ah! am i just pointing out the obvious?! whatever. the thing is, i'm super freaked out thinking about what major i want to take. these are some of the thing that i want to do in the future:

1. create a new type of orange - oranges that are not orange, meaning that they would come in purple, pink, fuschia, cyan, white, and any assortment of colours. why stop there? next maybe i could do patterns, and maybe, just maybe, produce oranges with cute emoticon faces. just like this cute onigiri here!
2. create a new breed of cat - i want to design the cutest, fluffy-est, cuddly-est and colourful-est cats ever! yup! i want a set of seven rainbow coloured scottish folds; red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet! owh, with and additional traditional black and white scottish fold. why a scottish fold? because their mutated folded ears are just too cute to resist!



3. genetically engineer a new type of orchid with fragnance! - apparently, this research is already under way. maybe i could create an orchid that requires less attention. a granny who is a neighbour of mine actually collapsed while attending her orchids. darn attention seekers. i guess if the orchid would actually have a fragrance, then it would be worth the while la kan?

4. other than those biotech related dreams, i would like to become a pastry chef or a famous cheese cake baker and open up a world renown bakery! or maybe i could do a franchise. haha. owh. i would also like to open a vet clinic.

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hoho. i've totally sesat from my actually blogging objective. what i wanted to post is about after the biocon. dah dekat, so we decided to go sightseeing. dalam KLCC. haha. and i scored this bebeh! it's pink, soft and full with tengkorak patterns! heeee~~~

plushie wants Rocky. lol~

what're u looking at?

owh. this one is a gift from my sister. hehee~ she said she bought it super cheap cuz it's actually one of the rejected plushie. heck. even i can't figure out what's wrong with it. but some of my friends said that it's too cute, it's creepy. lol~

i've decided! i wanna be a plushie collector!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kyaa!!~~~~~~~~

owh. go ahead and guess the name that i've given to the plushie. agaga~

* tak penat ke 'kyaa!' sane, 'kyaa!' sini tiap2 hari? *

Dangerous Mug Cake. (join me)

looks tempting isn't it????????? i found this by chance while googling for random things. well, i was googling for onigiri plushie tutorial. and this mug cake is just so easy to make!!!

Ingredients :

• 4 tbsp Flour
• 4 tbsp Sugar
• 2 tbsp Cocoa
• 1 Egg(s)
• 3 tbsp Milk
• 3 tbsp Vegetable Oil
• 3 tbsp Chocolate Chips (optional)
• a small splash of Vanilla
• the biggest Mug you can find!!!!!!

Instructions :

1. Add all the dry ingredients to the mug,and mix well.
2. Add the egg and mix thoroughly.
3. Pour in the milk and oil and mix well.
4. Add the chocolate chips (if using) and vanilla extract. Mix again.
5. Put your mug in the microwave and cook for 3 minutes at 1000 wats on high.
6. The cake will rise way over the top of the mug, but don't be alarmed! It'll go back down in a little bit.
7. Allow it to cool a bit, and tip it out onto a plate if you want.
8. And why is this the most dangerous cake recipe in the world? Because now we are only 5 minutes away from chocolate cake at any time of the day or night! XD

easy right? and the best part is, instead of an oven, this recipe requires a microwave! yay! esok nak pergi Mydin! ngeee~

owh. here's the link for the real site from where i plagiarised this.

i love chocolates! \(^0^)/

Dangerous Mug Cake. (join me)

looks tempting isn't it????????? i found this by chance while googling for random things. well, i was googling for onigiri plushie tutorial. and this mug cake is just so easy to make!!!

Ingredients :

• 4 tbsp Flour
• 4 tbsp Sugar
• 2 tbsp Cocoa
• 1 Egg(s)
• 3 tbsp Milk
• 3 tbsp Vegetable Oil
• 3 tbsp Chocolate Chips (optional)
• a small splash of Vanilla
• the biggest Mug you can find!!!!!!

Instructions :

1. Add all the dry ingredients to the mug,and mix well.
2. Add the egg and mix thoroughly.
3. Pour in the milk and oil and mix well.
4. Add the chocolate chips (if using) and vanilla extract. Mix again.
5. Put your mug in the microwave and cook for 3 minutes at 1000 wats on high.
6. The cake will rise way over the top of the mug, but don't be alarmed! It'll go back down in a little bit.
7. Allow it to cool a bit, and tip it out onto a plate if you want.
8. And why is this the most dangerous cake recipe in the world? Because now we are only 5 minutes away from chocolate cake at any time of the day or night! XD

easy right? and the best part is, instead of an oven, this recipe requires a microwave! yay! esok nak pergi Mydin! ngeee~

owh. here's the link for the real site from where i plagiarised this.

i love chocolates! \(^0^)/

Be the judge.

astro boy? punk? mutation?

be the judge.

for whatever it is, it still makes a good cup of juice.

Be the judge.

astro boy? punk? mutation?

be the judge.

for whatever it is, it still makes a good cup of juice.

Muted. 3 days.

SICK!!!!!!!
*snort*

ahh.. rimas-nyer..

this is by-far the worst flu i had this year. i've completely lost my voice in just a day of flu. usually, my voice will fade away in a few days after flu, but somehow 'something or someone' is acting as my flu catalyst. ceh. and usually, i would have taken a day off from class. but i changed my mind seeing how critical my wallet content is. going back home ain't cheap, especially when those pesky taxi drivers are all 'cekik darah' one.

why do i feel like i haven't updated my blog for centuries? hekZ. there's a lot to say. dunno where to start.

since my last post, i think i'm doing okay. i think la. but there are signs that all of that is going to change soon. haiz. i'm hearing voices now. and it comes with visuals too.

with reference to the block A rape incident, i would like to advice my friends here. DO NOT ride an elevator alone with a N*****, especially when it's late. what would u do if the n***** stops on P1, P2, P3 and drags u out? worst, his friends could be waiting too. so, elakkan diri dari jadi lauk.

i love J2s. Muah!

Muted. 3 days.

SICK!!!!!!!
*snort*

ahh.. rimas-nyer..

this is by-far the worst flu i had this year. i've completely lost my voice in just a day of flu. usually, my voice will fade away in a few days after flu, but somehow 'something or someone' is acting as my flu catalyst. ceh. and usually, i would have taken a day off from class. but i changed my mind seeing how critical my wallet content is. going back home ain't cheap, especially when those pesky taxi drivers are all 'cekik darah' one.

why do i feel like i haven't updated my blog for centuries? hekZ. there's a lot to say. dunno where to start.

since my last post, i think i'm doing okay. i think la. but there are signs that all of that is going to change soon. haiz. i'm hearing voices now. and it comes with visuals too.

with reference to the block A rape incident, i would like to advice my friends here. DO NOT ride an elevator alone with a N*****, especially when it's late. what would u do if the n***** stops on P1, P2, P3 and drags u out? worst, his friends could be waiting too. so, elakkan diri dari jadi lauk.

i love J2s. Muah!

mouse + microwave = ?

okay. last night's dream was just plain weird.
first, i dreamed that i pet a dog. and the dog was like so manja with me.
then i thought to myself, "eh, aku x leh pegang anjing kn?"

fast forward.
i bought something somewhere.
i was suppose to heat it in the microwave.
i set the time for like 1:00.
10 second later, i could see a fat white mouse jumping frantically inside the oven, begging to be let out. i couldn't do anything, and the mouse exploded.
the head literally separated from the body. not a pretty sight.
far worse, i need to clean the mess up. but magically, the microwave is all cleaned up, and all the mess is put inside a black box. all i had to do was throw it away.
but then, i messed up. i threw the box somewhere that i'm not suppose to. i made someone really, really, angry.

oh. the nightmare is still not over. i thought it was, but it wasn't.
pergh. lame guiler x nampak die. =="

mouse + microwave = ?

okay. last night's dream was just plain weird.
first, i dreamed that i pet a dog. and the dog was like so manja with me.
then i thought to myself, "eh, aku x leh pegang anjing kn?"

fast forward.
i bought something somewhere.
i was suppose to heat it in the microwave.
i set the time for like 1:00.
10 second later, i could see a fat white mouse jumping frantically inside the oven, begging to be let out. i couldn't do anything, and the mouse exploded.
the head literally separated from the body. not a pretty sight.
far worse, i need to clean the mess up. but magically, the microwave is all cleaned up, and all the mess is put inside a black box. all i had to do was throw it away.
but then, i messed up. i threw the box somewhere that i'm not suppose to. i made someone really, really, angry.

oh. the nightmare is still not over. i thought it was, but it wasn't.
pergh. lame guiler x nampak die. =="

fork and spoon.

OMG. is she really complaining? huh~ she had it easy. she doesn't even deserve all that. and now she's friggin complaining? i mean, those are her responsibility, right? God, she makes me feel so darn annoyed. and she's like a thousand miles away too, but she still manages to get me sick. i wonder how i got by the years before.

BIO presentation. done and done. PLP? x decide on what topic lagi. i have a few lingering, but come on. i have so many things to improve on, and appparently, i'm not comfortable of presenting any of them. because most of YOU mmg dh already know my weaknesses, and i'm afraid that choosing like one weakness to present will suggest thoughts like "eh, tolong lah.."

i'm not paranoid. i can read minds.
i suck at maths. i suck at chem. i suck at physics.
HE is getting on my last nerve.
i'm happy.
i'm frustrated.
i'm homesick.
i missed.
i'm eating minimally.
i feel like killing HIM.
owh. u should've told me earlier, dear.
i feel like making a MOE shrine for 'him'.
i did something that i'm not suppose to do.
now i everytime i think about it, i feel like i wanna guling2 on the floor.
promise ya?

xkjandeijzneiundieufyrhfodaz.

my dreams are getting wackier by the days. a few nights back, i dreamt of dating this guy who is my junior. i was walking somewhere, and he saw me. i was hiding from him, but he tegur me jugak. owh. die mmg tinggi for a chinese. he was the only dude who can call me 'short', and makes me feel like 'short'. LOLz. i did get a crush on him dulu. we went somewhere, but i can't recall where.

the other night, i dreamt of receiving two important text messages. one, a guy sent it. "lain gile ko kat kolej.." and that text made me feel guilty. uhh.. sorry. tw0, i honestly can't remember. but it was supposed to be important for a reason.

i dreamt of fork and spoon. being 'me', i googled it up.

Fork

• To dream of a fork, denotes that enemies are working for your displacement. For a woman, this dream denotes unhappy domestic relations, and separation for lovers.

Source: 10 000 Dream Interpretations, by Gustavus Hindman Miller

Spoon

• To see a spoon in your dream, indicates that you may need to give/receive nourishment. It may also mean that you feel you or someone is being given special treatment.

Source: http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary

yeah. fork and spoon.

fork and spoon.

OMG. is she really complaining? huh~ she had it easy. she doesn't even deserve all that. and now she's friggin complaining? i mean, those are her responsibility, right? God, she makes me feel so darn annoyed. and she's like a thousand miles away too, but she still manages to get me sick. i wonder how i got by the years before.

BIO presentation. done and done. PLP? x decide on what topic lagi. i have a few lingering, but come on. i have so many things to improve on, and appparently, i'm not comfortable of presenting any of them. because most of YOU mmg dh already know my weaknesses, and i'm afraid that choosing like one weakness to present will suggest thoughts like "eh, tolong lah.."

i'm not paranoid. i can read minds.
i suck at maths. i suck at chem. i suck at physics.
HE is getting on my last nerve.
i'm happy.
i'm frustrated.
i'm homesick.
i missed.
i'm eating minimally.
i feel like killing HIM.
owh. u should've told me earlier, dear.
i feel like making a MOE shrine for 'him'.
i did something that i'm not suppose to do.
now i everytime i think about it, i feel like i wanna guling2 on the floor.
promise ya?

xkjandeijzneiundieufyrhfodaz.

my dreams are getting wackier by the days. a few nights back, i dreamt of dating this guy who is my junior. i was walking somewhere, and he saw me. i was hiding from him, but he tegur me jugak. owh. die mmg tinggi for a chinese. he was the only dude who can call me 'short', and makes me feel like 'short'. LOLz. i did get a crush on him dulu. we went somewhere, but i can't recall where.

the other night, i dreamt of receiving two important text messages. one, a guy sent it. "lain gile ko kat kolej.." and that text made me feel guilty. uhh.. sorry. tw0, i honestly can't remember. but it was supposed to be important for a reason.

i dreamt of fork and spoon. being 'me', i googled it up.

Fork

• To dream of a fork, denotes that enemies are working for your displacement. For a woman, this dream denotes unhappy domestic relations, and separation for lovers.

Source: 10 000 Dream Interpretations, by Gustavus Hindman Miller

Spoon

• To see a spoon in your dream, indicates that you may need to give/receive nourishment. It may also mean that you feel you or someone is being given special treatment.

Source: http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary

yeah. fork and spoon.