Semak.

"jangan pertaruhkan diri anda untuk sesuatu yg x pasti,"

wow. the meeting with MARA people last Monday sure is disturbing. i was so down that i didn't even want to blog about it. but wth, what she (Missus Zakiah) said was true. i wonder how the seniors got so good. it's like they were so good that it is incomprehensible for us juniors. owh why owh why did u guys set the bar so high?

maybe the competition this year is just a tad tough-er.

anyways, i'm not taking meds. i'm taking biotech. but i want to take up meds. initially. but now, i guess i'm just not cut out for it. tension dowh. i feel sorry for you guys. ahh~ i'm terrible at consoling people.. so i'm not gonna say anything.

owh ya, the last post was written BEFORE the MARA meeting, so please don't misunderstood or anything. ganbarimassu, minna!

yup!! finished bio and physics test this week. bio was =_=" and physics was oso =_=" with extra ". next up, chemistry! let's hope it won't be like +_+ next week would be filled with deadlines for the never-ending assignments~ (actually, i think those are really pur last ones.) presentation included.

owh, and yes, i have been kinda sick for the last few days. my mom (who is in charge of H1N1 cases in MGH) is currently down with fever. bro is also down with flu, and his school just got quarantined today until next week.

i'm losing my voice. again. sigh.

i don't think the events are inter-connected. do you?

mama x kasi pegi crowded places. so no outings this week. which means, jangan nk mengade2 pegi the curve cari tiket MTV. sorry ya zubet.

let's pray yg topup RM 30 ko beli esok tu agak bertuah. ^^

Long Story.

maka, tersebut lah sebuah alkisah...


ignore. ignore. ignore.

ignoring all my fangirlish desires. need to stop. stop like now. exhales.

while everyone is busy going to interviews, i'm busy NOT going to interviews. because i didn't get any interviews. apparently, i'm not taking meds. and the interviews that i mentioned just now is for ppl who's taking meds. which also means, that at this time next year, i would be going through the same thing. for my course. i hope. but for now, i need to focus on the present. which leads me - here.

let's see. i'm (partially) sitting in front of my laptop. where's my Crierie? it's in my room. somewhere. the TV is on. Animax is really making a big fuss about this 'Shakugan No Shana' series. it annoys me so much because i don't have any clue about the anime at all. but through some reading, i would say that it's just a cross between Bleach, Blood+ and Shonen Omniyoji. maybe.

hehe. i just thought of something. is it true that i've been using manga/anime to escape from reality? and if i am, why would i want to escape in the first place? nah~ the world is such a wonderful place. why would anyone try to run from it?

the uncertainty.

some people go to sleep at night, hoping that tomorrow would be a better day for them. but what if it gets worse? even if it does, i suppose they would go to sleep, just as always, wishing for a better tomorrow. ah, wonderful. is it hope? or is it just ignorance? ignorance is bliss, as someone had told me before.

some people face the world with a smile. others don't. why does it matter if you smile or not? wear a mask people. H1N1 is spreading fast.

conclusion nye.

i'm just lazy to write. gotta finish le cririe~

Bon Odori 2009.

might as well blog about last night. =P

18/7/2009, Saturday, Stadium Sukan Shah Alam


hehe. i went to The Bon Odori. in a Yukata nonetheless. do not ask me where / how i got them. weee~ sangat best. i get to eat takoyaki, dorayaki, chicken katsu sandwich, RM2 chocolate strawberry, etc. beratur 15 minutes tau for the takoyaki. sedap! anyway, i didn't get to dance much sebab yukata dh loose. wahaha~ XD

Dai-Con 2009.

dh berhabuk dh blog nie.. bz3~

11/7/2009, Saturday, MMU Cyberjaya




i went to Dai-Con. my first anime/manga/etc. convention. ngyahahahaha! i was overwhelmed. there was so many cool things to see, and so many cool people to look at. XD

Nick, Gee and I left Casa at 9.15 am, caught a bus in front of Summit and headed to Pasar Seni. There, we took a bus to Putrajaya Central. we decided that kitorg dh larat nk naik bas lagi, so we took a taxi to MMU Cyberjaya. hoho3~

upon reaching there, the first thing Gee did was ask the people at the counter where the changing room is. of course, there aren't any for us, so we went to the toilet. Nick transformed to a Gothlolita, Gee transformed into a Yaoi character, while yours truly? entah. i wasn't cosplaying or anything. =P

the first thing that caught my eye was a very kakkoi vampire. lol. but then, i realised that he was actually a she, so nahh~ i moved on. there was a cosplaying competition going on stage, but due to my shortsightedness, i can't see anything. wahaha~ so Nikki and I stopped by the stalls there to check out anything worth buying..

it was destiny. we stopped at a stall selling hundreds of cool t-shirts, mugs, and other merchandises. i was quickly taken in by a 'Ghost in the Shell' t-shirt. it was so cool because there was the 'Laughing Man' logo printed on it. "Must Buy!!!!" i only had around RM 30 to spend that day and i estimated that the shirt would cost me around RM15, maybe RM25 at most. i took a closer look, and saw '14'. a streak of hope.

another closer look, and i saw 'RM114'.

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Sorry la my not-so-lil-bro. x dapek den nk nolong. i don't have much time to blog nowadays, so for more information and pics, feel free to click~

Kusakabemisao & Dai-Con

Slip of the Tongue.

excuse me for my bad language.
but this is just one of those things that will eat u up inside if it is not let out.

(=^___^=)


F**K-LAH
'CONFIDENT'
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey u.

hey. aren't you supposed to be an adult?

i have just found out recently (a week ago) that my blog is kinda popular. lolz. serious. so let me ramble a few stuff at random to clear things a bit. firstly, blogging is not such a big deal. it's one of my way to vent out MY FRUSTRATION, MY DEPRESSION, and ANYTHING or EVERYTHING that i don't like. and i have to state here, that after i've written all of those nasty things out for the world to read, i would feel slightly better about things. in fact, most of my friends are doing the same thing. they experience the same thing as I do, and what do they do? THEY BLOG. we read, we comment, we share, we feel better. WE MOVE ON.

in addition, i do not blog for sympathy. DO NOT SYMPATHIZE me. sheesh~ it's already frustrating enough to go through shit at college and hostel, so when i got home, please don't ramble shit to me. i'm trying to forget my problems, and you are simply reminding me of it. give me a break, people! thanks for the sympathy, but i don't need it. so don't come hanging around my blog if you think that ur helping. UR NOT.

when i blog about some shit that has been going on yesterday, i usually don't feel like what i did then, today. why? because i MOVED ON. i don't dwell on the past. i will try forget them. i know my few last posts were about me having a hard time in college, but that doesn't necessary mean that i'm like that NOW. i'm trying hard to cope, i may suck at it but at least i'm trying, damn it. i am not a 24/7 emo. i MOVE ON. and i suggest you people to do the same. u people are dragging me down. WTF.

this is my space, and i can do whatever i want here. if ur getting freaked by reading MY BLOG, i can show you a few of my friends' that will make your eyes bleed. lols. serious. be grateful that the me that u've known before is not far away, because i can't say the same for my other not-so-unfortunate friends.

so there. i said what i want. i don't hate you or anything, and if you want to continue reading this pathetic blog of mine, then go ahead. burn ur eyeballs, cornea, retina, wth. i don't care. tapi x payah la canang satu kampung. if you really wanna help, why not send me money. i need 2 pairs of jeans. 20 euro sebulan pun cukup.


hey. aren't you supposed to be an adult?

so act like one.

gawd, i am mean.