Stuck On You.

kyaaa~ i has broadband! i can has broadband! ngeee~

tapi lembap sia. =w= i got the fastest plan there is, but still lembap. but i think it's the line punya pasal la. honestly, sini x de celcom coverage sangat kot. the most is three bars. total bullshit la all this since i thought subang is a what? a celcom territory? =w=

whatever.

so, a post to to tell world how lame i am. i got myself some more stuff when i went back home for the weekend. i got myself a fold-able study table, mirrors, baskets, nggh. stuffs. ouh, and more food! of course, my dad pays for all the expenses. haha. seriously, i think my dad had spent too much monayh on me. should i feel guilty? =w= but i've read somewhere that parents are actually glad to spend money for their children's sake. LOL. it sounds so arrogant and ignorant coming from me. so after getting the broadband, asked my dad,

"nanti bulan2 nak kena potong berapa pa?"
"potong ape?"
"nak bayar balik kat papa berape? =w= seratus ka?"
"broadband tu tiap2 bulan 98.. tapi kalau ya nak pakai untuk study, x de la papa mintak ya suruh bayar.. janji pakai untuk study.. jangan nak tengok kartun aje!"
*pouts* =3=

ehehe. i said thanks and gave my dad a huggu. no comments la pasal the no kartun thing. alas, he said, "jangan leka2!" so i'm guessing that i can watch animes and all, but not so much la kowt. haha. =w= what a sly daughter u have here, papa.

hihi. my roommate just got back. i actually enjoy talking to her. and because i think i can talk to her in english on daily basis, i can definitely improve on my english. chewah! i feel like i'm using my room mates pulak. but i dun think she minds. so i dun mind as well la. haha. =w=

ouh. my dad drove me back to subang tadi. and during the drive, my mom said something about looking at the pictures when i was small. she said i looked so cute and so tembam back then. she said i was so manja with my brother and all. "tapi sekarang, mama dah x tau, dah x boleh baca dah ape yg ada dalam kepala budak ni.." and i actually cried. LOL. tapi control la.

mom, i didn't changed at all. i'm still that cute and manja girl. but things changed so much that i can no longer be that sweet little girl. =w= i never grew up. and i never will.

a Week's Worth.

hikhik. so i'm supposed to write stuff about my life in Lakeside, deshou?

to be honest, i wrote lotsa entry, but never did i published them. why? no internet loh~ xD but i'll try to write one entry to sum all of it in. (not the best idea but whaddaheck.)

okies, so, my mom and dad drop me of at My Place Apartment on Monday, and after the payment have been settled, i was left alone to unpack my stuff. i'm so happy to see the large wardrobe, since i won't have to go through the pain of folding my clothes before i put them in - i can just hang them inside. haha. and owh the joy of having hot shower every morning after waking up in the cold air-conditioned air. and the microwave. and the washing machine. and the fridge. and the TV. owh wait. i've never turn on the TV even once, so i'm not sure if astro is included. (not that i'm gonna watch it, really.)

i'm living in the apartment with another 5 people. i have two roomates, and if u racists out there must know, yes, they're chinese. and so is the other two of my housemate. one is an indian. i'm perfectly fine living with them, as they don't have a problem living with me. the feelings are mutual. haha. but of course, i'm using the living room to pray, since the room is too crowded with (my) stuff. xD my roomies are doing A-level in main campus, and so is the other housemate. the other two seems to be doing their second year in Lakeside. one of them is kinda nice to me, but sadly, i've never talked to the other. she's staying in the single room, and she's such a leng lui, that some inferiority complex struck me, leaving me acting kinda snobbish when i bumped in to her. tehee. but it doesn't seem like she care, so i don't care as well. haha.

so, i woke up around 5:45 am very morning, just because i like to enjoy my long, hot shower. my roommates usually wakes up somewhere around 7:00 am to get to their 8:00 am class, since they don't have to talk a bus or anything. =w= (best gile jadi diorg) so after i'm positively 100% sure that i'm set to go, it'll be around 6:45 am. i couldn't have my breakfast because i didn't bring any plates, mugs, fork and spoon, etc. so i'll walk half asleep to the mac center, got myself a can of nescafe mocha and walk slowly to TBS while snickering at my juniors who's walking towards main campus. after i reached TBS, i'll take out my headphone and pretend to listen to songs when i'm not just to avoid unnecessary conversations. =w= the bus would be there in another 15 minutes. the second bus will come 5 minutes later.

on the first day, i phailez to catch the first bus. i was the second one in line when the driver decided that the bus was too full. (which was not =w=) i barely made it in the second bus. i was seriously leaning on the dashboard! but thanks to a very nice gentleman, i got a more secure spot somewhere beside the bus door. TwT terharu sungguh. AAAANYWAY. i reached Lakeside somewhere around 8:15 am, and regrouped with the other biotech mates. then, we enter the super cold MPH to listen to the very warm blahs of welcome, intro and instructions. well, we're supposed to listen, but chose to look around for guys. haha. (budak2 hospitality is hawt! xD) and yeah, there's this ball in the head incident, but there's no use describing it here since u have to see it to believe it. O_O

fast forwarding. the MARA people came around 12:30 pm to collect the agreement papers. i handed in my and after all the kinks have been smoothed out, i looked at my watch and said, "Wow. there's at least 3 hours before the next blah session." magically, a text from Paah came and said, "aku kat Sunway! :D" and the rest is history. i made myself contact lenses, bought takoyaki and had a nice long catch up chat with Paah, Ili, and (i'm not sure what's her name). she's doing biotech in monash too. i said goodbye to those trio around 3:45 pm and caught myself another cab to Lakeside. unfortunately, the cab driver heard me wrong and made a stop near main campus. =w= i paid him the friggin rm 8 he swindled from me and walked home. and that is how my first day ended. :D

the second day, we're separated based on school. and since i'm under the school of biomed, i got to meet all of the biomeds geekos in one lecture theater. xD so, the first friend i made was Carmen, the Angeline, Stella, Rita, Gita and (i can't remember her chinese name =w=). Carmen is so nice to me~ ♥ (owh, she was the one who invited me to seat with her T_T *terharu*) we did a lot of team building activities and i got to know more people. :D AAAAAANYWAY. the third day was wasted in front of the computer. and the moment i got my username activated, i went down to Onemanga and finished those manga which i haven't finished before. and and and this classmate of my, he looked at me and he was like O_O but i continued reading anyway until i heard he whispered to a friend of his, "what is the title eh? i can't see the the title.." i was like, STRIKE. an otaku in the class. actually, i can guess that he's some sort of otaku judging from his hairstyle. very anime-ish. which anime, i'm not so sure. i was gonna say Ulquiorra, but nah. Ulquiorra's hair is too perfect to immitate. xD i would love to get to know him better. X3

and right after the online course with Ms Lesley Lluka, i grabbed my bag and headed for the shuttle bus. i know that the shuttle bus stops at all Taylor's Residence, and i wanted to get off at E-Tiara since i can walk to the KTM station from there. but that fateful bus didn't stop at E-Tiara or any Subang stops. ergh, i actually feel bad for the girl who sat beside me. she asked me wheter the bus is going to Main Campus, but i should've told her that i wasn't so sure instead of a 'YES.' (-_-") she got off the bus near Sunway Pyramid. since i wasn't in any hurry, i told the driver that i'm gonna get off at Lakeside (again). then, i took the right bus to E-Tiara with some new knowledge. 1) there's only 4 buses going to and from Lakeside to the Taylor's Residence and 2) not all bus stops at all residence and 3) there's a bus that can stop in front of Sunway Pyramid. :D

and here i am abusing the internet in my house in Melaka after the 2 hour ordeal of being stuck in a crowded train. seriously, it was absolutely my worst train riding experience of all times. i didn't even get to sit down for all the from subang to seremban. TwT it was seriously a sardin. tin sardin. ergh.

haha. i'm just so happy to be able to update my blog to my heart's content.

and i'll be updating more frequently since my papa said it's ok to get a broadband as long as i agree to pay for it. =w=

// owh. plan saya x boleh dilaksanakan sebab x banyak contact dengan subjek. (-_-")

KONBINI.

KONBINI is the short form for Convenience Store in Japanese.

this is one of the way i wish i would fell in LOVE.

comel gila ok?



and this the song after i'm done with LOVE.



and this is another version of it. haha.

There can't be a Title.

uh-uh. i'm staring the laptop screen again, which is not a good sign since i usually have something to do. uh-uh.

so here i am. writing. typing. stuff. -_-"

i haven't officially packed anything yet even though I'm supposed to move out of the house this coming Monday. yes, college is starting. i can't believe that I've once wished for college to start like, ASAP. now i just wish for the world to end so i don't have to go through all this. LOL.

-_-" not funny. *goosebumps*

i had a great day with mom and my little bro today. we were laughing an awful lot during the drive to Kampung. we were laughing when we reached Kampung too. (atuk dengan nenek saya bila bergaduh2 manja sangat comel. xD) i wish i can turn back time and return to my kampung days. back to the days when internet wasn't so important. the days when i actually looked forward to go to school to meet my friends. (HAHA that is such a lie. i hate school because the teachers all garang nak mampus.) i actually spend my early years (12 years?) in my kampung where my grandparents took care of me. i only get to see my parents on weekdays. (go figure)

i've spent 6 years + a year of preschool in a small, rural school. the school was so small that there's only one class for each grade. imagine, going to school, seeing the same faces of ur never changing group of friends, for seven fringgin' years. LIKE SERIOUSLY. O_O there were like 11 girls in my class, and 17 boys. i am somewhat thankful for being such an innocent person back and not a drama queen of any kind, because if i'm hated once for something i did, i have to live with it for 7 years. haha. but i guess we all are innocent back then. ;P

i can't believe i survived life back then. i used to be a simple person with such a low maintenance. i don't complain about not having enough privacy, about not having a decent internet connection, about having to wake up early and take a super cold bath (air perigi, ok?), about having to walk to school, about having to walk home from school, about not having fancy things to wear.. it seems like i was an entirely different person back then. and somehow, it made me feel like i'm such a bad person today. T.T the passing of time affects the level of evilness in a person. wtf. see? i hardly never used words like BABI back in primary.. wait. i didn't even curse during my highschool days. =w=

like what exactly happened la wei? (puberty ka? -____-")

did i.. switched bodies or something along the years? uh. i don't know. wakaranai.

peer pressure? uhhh.. i'm not easily influenced with people.

what is it. what is it.

EVOLUTION.

i changed myself for me to better adapt with the environment. the world is harsh, so i have to be stronger and ruthless. i don't believe in kindness anymore. nothing is pure in this world, so why should i be. i let myself fall. i'm aware. i'm aware.

BZZZZZZZZZZZT.

someone once told me i have innocent eyes.
someone once told me muka saya bawa rezeki.
ergh.

superficial.

BZZZZZZZZZZZT.

i dreamed of someone last night. ecece macam twilight pulak. but seriously, it was the first time i have ever dreamed of him. and this person bukannya like my crush(es). he's just a normal, regular dude. it was awkward. it was out of place. but it was sweet. :D

i need someone real to chain me to this world.

i'm such a train wreck. xD

PIcture Post!

oh lookie here.

conclusion nyew: kitorang memang sengal. ahaha.

in case ur wondering, we're actually arguing about which one of us are gonna marry a guy with at least 180 cm in height. ehehe.  thanks to super stereotypical korean drama and band hotties, 180 is the only number that comes to mind. and need i remind u, 180 is only the minimum requirement. we're not gonna accept anything less than that. ( -_-") ( paah accept 178 cm jugak.)

actually, the 180 cm argument can dwell deeper. it all started with a weird FB ad that i saw.

here are the comments posted between the three manusia yg obsessed.

yes. we're so picky that sometimes i wonder how my future hubby will actually turn out to be. scary. sangat scary. damn u foreign influences. why must u be so damn beautiful. a fan girl like me can't help but to fall for those superficial characteristic that i can no longer judge people past their skin. seriously.

mama je la pilih. haha.

Prejudice.

aku manusia perjudice. xD

i stalked (accidentally) this one guy on facebook (who obviously didn't put his profile to private setting) and fell instantaneously in love - with his photograph. i thought that they're were really pretty, and the perspective that he chose to view each and every scene was admirable. he did a bit of editing to his pictures, but i don't care! they're pretty and i love them!

so i wanted to know moar about the guy behind the lens. and it turns out that

he's a girl.

so i stopped admiring her works. (-_-")

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nah, i lied. i still like those photographs, i just got less interested with them, that's all. xD

i don't know whether i should write about them here, but i just want to. xD i had a few share of false crushes. there were times were i added people who i think were cute boys, who ended up to be girls. dissapointed nye ya amat. sorry, but i'm not that dumb to confuse pengkids with boys. pengkids have a very 'obvious' style that i can easily tell them apart. these girls who i mentioned earlier are not pengkids. they are just not, ok? xD (gawd i wish i can just post a picture here but i can't since i respect them a hell lot. xD)

but i'm not a fan of shoujo ai, ok? haha. i still hearts kakkoi bishies and jjangs. king-kahs. oppa. salty dogs? haha. i'm out of terms. xP

yup. saya masih manusia prejudice. (-___-")

Harry Mason, The Loving Father.

finally. i finished playing Silent Hill: Shattered Memories before college starts. T_T now i don't have THAT much of regret. haha. but seriously, i was a bit disappointed because the game is kinda short. i mean, i finished the whole thing in less than 12 hours! haha. that is like seconds compared to GTA San Andreas. (which too me like a year? and still counting. haiz)

it's not that scary. -_____-" at least not to me. i was a bit paranoid in the first few minutes of playing, like i would check every door before opening it, and i would open it slowly, expecting for things to come out and jump at me. but then, i was like, what a waste of time! let's get this over with! xD i was running around, solving puzzles, and acting like such a experienced burglar. the puzzles are fun! i just wish there were more of them. ~_~

and i actually cried at the ending since i find it sad. sobs.

you'll be playing a father, named Harry Mason, who had a car crash. upon waking up, u realized that ur 7 year old daughter named Cheryl is missing for the car seat, and search out tirelessly for her. since a lot of roads are blocked due to some bad ass snow storm, u are required to find new routes to get to the pre-determined check points. after some check points, u'll find ur self sitting in a chair, going thru a counseling session. then, u go back to the 'real world'. haha.

and apart from the regular running around in the neighborhood, there are these "Nightmares." basically, u are required to run to a destination while these freakishly scary monsters jumps out at ya! WHOA. and the only thing u can do is run. i don't really have a problem with running away from monsters, i just have a hard time running towards the check point since, come on! i can't use my phone GPS while running like a mad dog! so i just resort to my natural gaming instinct and OWNZ! hahaha!

owh, i might as well spoil the ending for ya. actually, Harry Mason died in that car crash when Cheryl is 7 years old. it turns out that Harry Mason had a fight with his wife before the car crash (the wife was hitting Harry and calls him a loser since he's only a writer who can't provide much for the family?), and Cheryl has never stop blaming her mom for his father's death. from the opening trailer, u can see how much Cheryl loves her father. and owh. the one who sits at the counseling session is actually the 25 year old Cheryl (a complete mess), who still haven't accepted the fact that her father died. well, that is according to my profile. there are different endings for everyone, if i'm not mistaken.

//off to San Andreas. haiz.

Not Good For the Heart.

i bought another shoujo comic today, titled "Benarkan Aku Jadi Pelayanmu" by Toma Rei. three extremely kakkoi bishies on the front page. the dude at the counter read the title and just snicker at me. giggling. grinning. ( -__-")

i bet he had never heard of BL before. ultimate bliss. tehee.

WARNING: this is post is written by a mild Fujoshi.

ahh~ i remember the first time i was exposed to BL. owh wait, it was actually just a mild case of shonen ai at the time. this friend of mine, (which of course, after countless of controversies, i had him removed from my friends list), introduced me to LOVELESS. for an unexpecting reader like me, i was like, "wow, cute guys~" and "erm, cat ears?' and ""err, what is this really about, actually..?" and then, that fateful page. and that fateful speech bubble.

O_O OMG WTF GAHHH!!!!

i know. this post may not make much sense for my non-otaku readers. sorry. T_T

i can feel my lungs squeezing themselves, followed by a high-pitched screeching. i have never experience a nosebleed before, so no comment about a nosebleed there. xD

i've read a few shonen ai afterwards, but i can't recall the titiles. but if ur interested, just drop by to mangafox, click advance search, tick the 'shonen ai' category (and a few genre of ur choice) and walau-weyh. get some tissue ready in case of nosebleeds. ahaha~

and if u think ur ready for some action, move on to Junjou Romantica. like seriously, i haven't really watched Junjou Romatica 2, but the first season is. erm. *blush*

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like, seriously. just shoot me.

All Out.

would u go all out for me?

hehe. i tend to think about complicated unnecessary stuff when i have the time. (lol no. i'm supposed to complete those MARA agreement forms but i chose to run away. ahaha.) remember when i used to rant about my parents don't go all out to help me to find a place to stay? well, yeah. i still think so. but if they're will to pay more than a half a thousand every month just to ensure that i have a secure and comfortable place to stay, then maybe their version of 'going all out' is different. all out financially. haha. mara is certainly not going all out. and Puan Leela only goes all out to help us to find a place to stay when my dad went all out explaining our situation to her. haha.

(ouh. i did i mentioned that i'm so proud of my dad for pointing out the fact that RM700 a month is not enough to support a life in Subang? xD)

going all out. exhausting all of the resources available just to achieve a per-determined goal. how often do u do that for the sake of others?

this is actually an overdue post i owe a perfect stranger for going all out for me.

last Tuesday, i went to college to get my SACE cert.  i took a bus to Seremban and then took a train to Subang. but being a noob at travelling alone by public transport, i was kinda shocked that i when i got off the bus, i was actually in a terminal waaaay different from the one i used to be in when i went back to melaka. haha. so. being me, i started to menggelabah. tapi nak tahan cool punya pasal, i went inside the terminal, and look around. i actually followed this dude since he looks so cool and x menggelabah. but when he headed outside and stop a cab, i know i shouldn't be following him anymore. haha. so i took a perfect 180 degree turn and went inside the terminal. again. i ask the makcik cleaner, she said i better asked the counter upstairs. i went up the escalator, ask the auntie how to get to the other terminal, she said i was supposed to wait downstairs. i ask the kakak downstairs and she pointed inside the building where i was originally from. so i relunctantly travelled back there. dah menggelabah dah ni.

out of desperation, i ask this old uncle, sitting like he's waiting for something. or maybe he was taking care of some sort of counter? i'm not sure. but being a chinese living in seremban, u should very well know the accent that he has. sangat la kenegerian. LOL. he said he's not really sure, and went inside and ask a team of police men there. (lol tadi x de abang police gatal ni. -_-") only then the policeman explained that there is a free shuttle bus to the other terminal on platform berape ntah. so i went outside and looked. so there IS a bus waiting. LOL. the uncle escorted me to the bus and made sure that i took the right bus. after saying thanks to him, he left. walau weyh.

i may be a public transport noob. i may be over-reacting. but i think i owe that pakcik my life. haha.

there is a well defined difference between showing  the way and guiding along the way. :D

// you can call me malas. but i sure like to be guided.

Walau 3.

complete this sentence.

"you know ur spending valentines day alone when...."

haha. valentines. every year it's the same old story.

"you know ur spending valentines day alone when u suddenly curious about how ur ex(es) are doing." - this is true for my case. it's lame but yeah. it's true. but i'm here not to talk about my lameness. i wanna talk about other's lameness. xD

"u know valentines are coming when a friend from ur past called u up and talks mushy stuff with u, text u and asked u, whether ur still single and asks u to be his valentine" -_-" yes. what the fuck.

haiz. this is a story about my past. about my overly-complicated polygons of love. xD Guy A, the one who calls me up is not my ex. he is one of my best friend's (Girl A) ex(es.) i was sitting inside the car, on my way back to melaka after college registration was settled, and an unknown number called. i tend to pick up unknown number these days since it might be an important call related to my well-being in college. so.

"er, ni intan ******** ke?"

"ye saye. who's this?"

"kau x kenal aku ke?"

"kalau aku kenal x de la aku tanya. sape ni?"

(at this point i know this is one of those unimportant call)

" Guy A  la. lame gile x dengar citer pasal kau. kau buat ape sekarang?"

"study ah. kat Taylor's."

"owh, MARA tanggungkan? hebat gile kau. fuh~"

(-____________-")

"er, aku dalam kereta nie."

"ouh, ye ke? aku saje je call. lame x dengar khabar."

"okies. baiklah. babai."

a few minutes later, i received a text.

"ko balik cuti ke?"

(at this point, i was feeling kinda guilty about how cold i was talking to him like that. so i said to myself, maybe keeping in touch with those from your past may not be a bad thing, so)

"erm, aku settlekan college registration aku harini. nak masuk sem baru. kau study kat mane?"

"aku study kat Pritec. (God knows where.) tanye cket... Girl A pe citer ek?"

remembered when i said Guy A and Girl A were ex(es)? well, they were kinda ex(es)² or maybe ex(es)³. meaning, they broke up and make up countless of times. -_-" i'm so sorry if this sounds like i'm bashing one of my good friends, but that is one of the traits that i don't really like in her. she gets distracted easily, and  although it pains me to say it, she does not have the capability of staying single. but when she's in a relationship, she would complain about how hard it is, yadayadablablabla. and yeah, all of these things do affect her studies. so being a good friend that i am, (cuz i know she had herself a new boifren already) i told Guy A everything so he won't get in touch with her in anyway possible. otherwise it'll just be a total mess.

"ouh yeke? aku saje je tanya. aku pun dah lama lost contact dengan dia au."

"lagi bagus kowt die lost contact ngan kau. kurang satu masalah dia. hahaha."


(yes, i really wrote that.)

"emm.. ko cm ne? ngan sape?"

"huh? aku x tau pulak aku kena cari balak. -_-""

"kau solo lagi la ni. bukan dengan Guy B ker?"

(side note, Guy B is an earlier version of FS. the one with the unrequited love for me. xD)

"kau nak mati? :D kalau aku nak cari balak pun aku nak mamat korea. at least 180cm in height.anyway, Guy B buat apes skang?"

"ntah. form 6 kowt. mknanye aq leh la.. Tinggi.."

"-_-" kau korea ke? Guy C buat ape pulak?"


(Guy C is my good ex. my bad ex (Guy E) is on facebook.)

"Guy C? lagi la aku x tau. A'ah.. aq like korea.. Tp islam.."

(sumpah. i was gonna barf.)

"haha. lemau ar kau. aku nak kau cari tau pasal Guy C then report kat aku. Guy D weyh? nak eja nama dia pun aku x igt dah. ouh. aku x nak kat kau. kau nie desperate ke nak bercinta? aku tau la valentines nak dekat and all tapi agak-agak ah. -_-""


(Guy D is a dude who i spent most of my recess with during highschool.)

"banyak la ko.. banyak lagi keje aq nak wat.. Guy D aku x pasti die kat ne..  npa kau x nk kat aku? hik3"

"tolong la diri kau dulu. ( -_-")"

"ye lar. kau nak owg yang pandai jew.. emm.."

"haha. kau ingat Guy C yang merempit tu pandai sgt ah? aku x kira, kau cari apa dia buat sekarang. aku nak tau dia kerja mana, nama awek baru dia apa, no plate moto dia pun aku nak. :D"

"Guy C tu mmg pandai ape? lagi kau nk suruh aku buat apa?"

then he kept asking me whether i'm on holiday.

"kenapa? kau jual tiket bas ke?"

"ke situ pulak dia. jom ah keluar jalan2."

"x kuasa la aku nak melayan kau yg bermasalah ni."

"eleh."

the next day, he text me again. and he kept using my second name, which annoys the hell out of me. i have no choice but to tell him straight up that i'm not interested. and now, i can only hope that he'll find peace and happiness on valentines. haiz~


// saya sangat gembira that i get to spend one more year with u~<3

Walau 2.

eh? weird. the date for the post before this one should be on the 14th (since i'm typing at 3 am in the morning -_-") but hey, i'm used to abnormalities anyway, so.

i woke up pretty late today. (or is is yesterday now?) yes. very late indeed. i was woken up by a loud bang on my door, followed by a series of nags from my mom that did not stop for 30 minutes. haha. hey, hey. wanna know something interesting? my mom would never, ever nag when my dad is around. she won't nag if there's a person who's not related by blood is inside the house too. so, those (sometimes hurtful) nagging makes me feel so much at home. haha.

anyway, she wanted me to come with her and shop for lingerie in Fajar - you can't believe how seriously cheap those bras are during CNY sales. -_-" so there i was, shopping for bras and panties, on the eve of CNY and valentines, with mom. (because she's paying. duh?) owh, sangat romantic. but somehow, the store is still crowded with those who are supposed to be home celebrating CNY, but i guess the family dinner x start lagi kowt. haha. my mom was like, "diorang nie x raya ke?" xD but seriously, everyone is the same. i don't know about your family, but my family's raya routine is pretty much the same. wake up early, went to the mosque for raya prayer, the dramatic asking for forgiveness (padahal next year buat masalah lagi) slot, eat rendang and ketupat for breakfast, balik kampung, lepak-ing with cousins, then went straight home to watch TV. and yeah, say goodbye to nasi la for a week. so when my mom was saying stuff macam tu, i just laugh it off. xD

whoah. my mom bought 2 pairs of jeans today. especially for the Belgium trip. haha. my mom said wearing jeans makes her feel young again. xD terbaik. i saw a long sleeves shirt, gave it a try and decided to buy it since it's ony rm20 leyh. lol. when i'm out shopping by myself, i usually but clothes that are rm80 and such. hypocrite sungguh. my mom said, "x de kaler hitam ke? u usually like black kan?" ( i don't actually prefer black, but most of my clothes are black. so does it mean that i like black? xD ) the promoter nee-chan handed me a black shirt, but in a different design. i tried it on and showed it to my mom and said. "mama, tengok ni, singkat!" and mom said "baju tu x salah, badan kau je yang panjang." -_-"

apparently, it was so damn funny (which is not)that the promoter there laughed. cet.

2 pairs of jeans = RM 139.00
1 long-sleeved shirt = RM 20.00
assortment of lingerie = RM 199.00
time spent with mom = priceless.

Chewah! xD

Walau 1.

O hai. i'm tired and sick of looking at those MARA agreement papers that is needed to be completed urgently. i've read them over and over but i still don't have the courage to get a pen and actually fill those boxes. i might have phobia of writing in small, constricting boxes. ergh. whatever.

so now that i've finally gotten through all the registration procedures, i am an official student of Taylor's Lakeside Campus. (yang panas dan banyak cermin tu. pulau haba, hello?) pretty. pretty hot. i was actually excited when i saw that there's a Sister Crispy Popiah corner there in lakeside. and i was devastated when i learned that a plate of nasi lemak ayam costs me rm5.50. kyahaha. i never went to see the cafe, so no comment about the prices there.

and a piece of info to those who are stalking:
i'm staying under Taylor's accomodation.

all those time i wasted on freaking out and stressing myself. ergh. but it's cool now that everything's settled. i told u before, what i felt way back then don't mean anything now. so.

to all those 180 bishies. matte ne kudasai. ur fan girl will be there shortly. :D

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conversations made me remember things. remember that raep case in the place where we used to stay? i'm recalling a certain someone who i don't seem to be seeing anymore halfway through sam. not from my class la.

and i still haven't got a clue who's the mysterious "frenky frenzy" is. =_="

Excuse.

i swear i have a lot to say.

but silent hills x habis lagi. :D

Pasrah.

i don't understand my parents, and i don't think i wanna understand them anymore.

"asal ada tempat, ok je la buat masa nie"

what is that suppose to mean?

"papa x tercapai nak tolongkan. buat la keputusan sendiri, cari la tempat sendiri."

but

"jangan mahal sangat."

then

"sempit rumah tu, boleh ke masuk ramai2?"

they're planting two contradicting ideas in my head. ( -_-") why owh why do i have such complicated parents. i'm done. i'm staying with u guys. dah settle dah. see u guys friday.

papa. ur words hurt me.

Be Prepared.

owh liar. liar. pants on fire.

there's actually three things that i personally consider when searching for a place to stay. Broadband. a Roof on top of me. and. p r i v a c y.

yes. i'm a selfish bitch.

i told my parents about staying with the other 6 biotech first degree refugees. and they were like, =w= sardin. tin sardin. i told them about the condition of the house, and again, x de yg fully furnished ke? nak menyusahkan diri kenape? =w= mutter. mutter. bukan nak tolong aku cari rumah. aaaanyway, a part of me kinda agrees with them. as impossible it may seem, i chose privacy over broadband. woah. but i don't have a choice, do i? =w=

for reviews of me as a roomie, please consult ili. she's been staying with me for the past 1 and a half year so she should know better. T_T

so be prepared. be prepared for the worst. ( -_______-")

Encik Penyu.

dear Encik Penyu.

i am desperately in need of ur attention. where have u been all day? can't u see that ur my last hope of survival?

geh.

side note:
Encik Penyu is the dude i'm searching high and low for, to settle my accommodation problem.

he's so shady, that i thought his ad was a prank or a scam of some sort. ye la. most of the ad i saw will definitely have some contact number, for contacting purposes, obviously. if ur trying to rent out an apartment, desperately, why won't u include ur contact details? (-_-") but after doing some inspection, i think he can be trusted. orz. (i think la.) i'm desperate enough to put him as my last hope! >_< (well not really, there's a few apartment still needs to be inspected.) so yeah, i'm currently waiting for him to reply my PM.

what about Suriamas? ouh. we had some complication with the agreement. at first i was kinda cool with it, (since we're so desperate and all) but later, weyh. i can't let that selfish uncaring person mooch RM 6300 from us (the poor college students under scholarship ;P)! WHERE'S THE LOVE!!!???

and with that, the plan to cramp 9 people in a single apartment crumbled. so, i guess i'm on my own, until i can get myself housemates. urgh. where are u mr penyu? i'm looking for another 4 people, or maybe 5. but urgh, i need to get the apartment sorted out first! T_T

as the saying goes, "never count ur chickens before they hatched."
and as Quia said, "don't kill me with hopes."

geh. whatever it is, wifi is a must. (-_-")

but as the saying goes, "beggars can't be choosers"

but if u look at it this way, choosers must not be beggars? nvm.

i have privacy issues.

ergh. owh. i should be kinda emo today. i think la.

because when my mom, my bro and i went out to bowl, my ex was seriously lovey-dovey with this minah (which i assume is his gf) dekat lane sebelah. at least i think that's him. urm. if it isn't him pun, why did i think that's him.

i miss him. (-_-") no way.

he's not 180 cm ++ pun, so why should i care. :D

Expression.

*head desk*

*face palm*

*scratches wall*

*flips desk*

*bangs head*

*flips chair*

RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

( -________-")

and that is how i chose to express myself today.

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BLAME.

i absolutely can't stand taking the blame when i am not at fault.

fuck u mara. fuck u taylors.

i seriously considered killing myself today in between the shouts of my parents. erm. maybe i am over-reacting. but i truly did feel that way. but none of it matters since i'm still here.

i was happy to have received the long awaited 2-page letter from Taylors. read the first page: hafta pay RM 900 something. read the second page: mara and taylors are not responsible for our (biotech & engineering scholars) accomodations. bullshit. if ur not gonna help us, at least give us some heads up. this is seriously fucked up.

i called my dad up and my dad said i'm responsible for searching my own place to stay. i have to decide on everything and he'll come up with the cash. what the fuck was that? i thought they're my parents? aren't they supposed to help me or something? and when did i became such an efficient real state agent? seriously, when did i start to have these responsibilities? they don't even trust me enough to let me spend a night at a friends house, and now they're shoving all this shit up to my face? who was more than willing to find a hotel room just cause they're too worried to allow me to travel back to melaka at night after i spend the whole day with my friends in KL? seriously they spoiled me too much. maybe i'm the one who is weak and can't handle such a simple task, but still, what the hell?

i swear, i seriously don't know what they'd do to me if i didn't pass the exam.

it's like, what ever i do is a bother to them. pass salah, x pass salah. "kalau susah sangat x payah la study macam ni!" is what i wanted to say to them. seriously, i don't even know where Taylor's Lakeside Campus is. i can google u the address, but i cannot fucking describe the location to u. dekat dengan sunway pyramid is all i can say. but my mom and dad was really choking me with all type of questions, like they want me to name every fucking vacant house that is available dekat subang tu. I DON'T FUCKING KNOW. when i answered 'i don't know', they ask me again, WHY DON'T I KNOW? and u can imagine how the questions sound like when it falls to the ear. it was not a discussion. it was an interrogation. it's like they were questioning why oh why is my daughter this useless. my dad were yelling, and my mom joins in too. i told them that i called taylors accomodation already, and that only Mentari Court is available. i showed them the price, and they complain about the price pulak. MEMANG LA. when they start to complain about money, lagi la i feel like wanted to quit study. this is so fucked up unworthy. but seriously, i don't remember my family being so fucked up poor. owh, what's that? my dad reserved 3 plane tickets to Brussels? OH WOW! where the heck did that money come from? fine, they wanted to visit their grandchild, and my brother, and my sister in law. but for the sake of visiting, can't they use the money and buy tickets for them to come home to malaysia instead? semua dapat jumpa. even my atuk and nenek. and myself. CAKAP JE LA NK BERJALAN! what? am i just an extra in this family? am i not important at all?

i was crying blood explaining my situation to my dad. but he should understand it better. he was the one who called up the MARA peeps when they said they'll let Taylors handle our accomodation! and now his saying stuff like "why didn't u inform me earlier? this is exactly what i was worried about!" THE LETTER CAME IN TODAY! WHY ARE U BLAMING ME??! when i told him Ridzuan (the cheapest apartmnent) is fully booked, he asked me, "why is that apartment full?" "how come they know about this before you?" (BECAUSE THEY'RE IN DIFFERENT FUCKED UP COURSES!!! WHY ARE U ASKING ME ALL OF THESE FUCKING QUESTIONS???? THEY'RE NOT RELEVANT IF U REALLY WANNA HELP ME FIND A PLACE TO LIVE!) i cried so hard that my head was aching. he said that crying won't help solve the problem. (OF COURSE IT WON'T! I AM JUST FUCKING FRUSTRATED THAT U WON'T LISTEN TO A THING I SAY AND INSTEAD, BLAMING ME FOR EVERY FUCKING THING!)

with my throat clogged up from crying, i told him about the Mutiara Perdana Apartment. which i won't know unless Lina told me by Facebook. but i don't have any contact number at the time, and i seriously don't know where to get it. i don;t know where the apartment is, too. but i know it's close to Lakeside. i told him that this apartment is not under Taylor's Accomodation, and he was saying stuff like it doesn't really matter, but why aren't Taylors helping u to get a place to stay there? - yeah, i know, the question is really off. i was crying, and i was analyzing what is the relevance of him asking that. then, he asked one of his friends if they have a place to stay. (owh, so he does know someone who knows the place.) but his friends doesn't really know where lakeside is, so he turn to me. like i said, i only know it's near Sunway Pyramid. THAT'S ALL. and again, he gave me the 'owh i'm so frustrated why is my daughter soo damn useless' look. OH EXCUSE ME? DIDN'T I TOLD U ABOUT LAKESIDE BEFORE? AND WAS OR WASN'T I THE ONE WHO SUGGESTED TO GAVE LAKESIDE A VISIT THE LAST TIME WHEN WE WERE IN SUBANG??! he just didn't care. OH MAI GOD MY DAD DIDN'T CARE A SHIT ABOUT ME!! if u were really worried about me, he could have asked the friend of his to look up a place to stay for me earlier, just in case. he could. but he didn't.

now i have 6 people to contact about a place to stay. but i can't do so now, since they're asleep. :D i am more willing to go to look the place up myself tomorrow. but there's no more bus ticket left. sobs

this is the reason that i'm so fucked up.

i love u mom, i love u dad. regardless.

my feelings today won't mean a shit tomorrow.

Bleep.

i should really, really put my thoughts in order.

but i won't.

:D

my head hurts.