Keep me Me.

crazy things that keep me sane.
sick things that keep me well.

what have i done?

i skipped a full day of class. yeah for no reason at all. i was supposed to come and submit my assignment in the evening but i decided that rm15 for a taxi fare is waaaaaaay expensive than the intuition fee that MARA paid so yeah i skipped my practical session too.

LIKE WHAT THE HELL. only now that i realised that i'm not supposed to be skipping the pracs >_<

owh i shall commit seppuku in front of miss Den tomorrow D:

yeah i'm supposed to be studying now but NOOOOOOOOOOOO. i just had to go shopping. online shopping lagi haih. spent another 200. babai 200. i'm hoping that next weee.....

WAIT NEXT WEEK?

yeah my brother is gonna come home! after 2 years i'll finally get to meet my nii-chan. i miss him a lot. ;_; shhh don't tell anyone. i don't show him i miss him because his wife will always be around. yes i have a brother complex. HAHA. yeah -_-" he promised me that he'll buy me a new sneakers. weee~ <3 i just heart my brother so much. not JUST for his money okay? why do we have to grow up? it feels like he's no longer mine to call my brother. like seriously. this is fucked up. i still want him to treat me as a baby sister. is that so wrong? is that too much to ask? ;_; i wan't him to carry me around behind his back. i want him to buy me cute stuffed animals. i want him to buy me sweets and cookies. i want him to bring me to theme park and stuff. i just need someone who can treat me as a little kid. and i can't think of anyone else but my brother. and now that he can't treat me that way, i just.. died.

moving on!

oer. my room mate just fought with one another. wait. actually, the fight was rather one sided. let's give them names, shall we?

Roomie A  :  evil, fat, single and kleptomiac.
Roomie B  :  kind, skinny, not single and a neatfreak.
Hommie C and Hommie D are extras.

Roomie A has a some "issues." she likes to take stuff (mainly food) from others without any guilt. awesome yeah? NOT AWESOME. she took my 3 in 1 hot chocolate drinks ;_; and she ate my nutella. i threw the nutella straight away eventho there's still some left. GOD KNOWS WHAT SHE COULD HAVE DONE WITH THE REST OF THE NUTELLA. so yeah. and i'm not the only one who suffers though. the rest of the household knows about this, and they tried their best to hide their food from her haha yeah wtf -_-"

but other than that, she's one hell of a hard working student. she stays up late to study, almost everyday. she eats in front of her books, she does everything in front of her books. yeah she seriously studies, not like someone u know >_>;;

however, due to her extreme style of studying, Roomie B is not happy :/ because Roomie A stays up waaay late, the room is never dark. meaning, we don't even bother to turn off the lights. Roomie A wears specs so i guess sleeping with the lights on is not good for her eyes. i think. (but yeah i read somewhere that sleeping with the lights on can help u sleep better but whatever)

so Roomie B went to file a complaint to the management.

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i was happily NOT studying when Roomie A got up from her nap due to the excessively corny song that she has set for her ring tone. yeah her phone rang &#@Y((* then she started yelling stuff that i don't understand like @(*#&$*(UI@)#EI)IDCIBAI)!(*E&^#UHR&$ like yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. -________-" i turned up my WMP volume cuz i got scared. i never turned my head and looked at her. it turns out that she was actually yelling to Roomie B, who happens to be in bed, studying also. but Roomie B stayed quiet. after a few stuff throwing and bashing scene, Roomie A left the room. i continued being indifferent. then Roomie B tapped me on the shoulder and said "i'm sorry." i took off my headphone and i was like why? (obviously because i didn't know what was going on) and so she explained la. i nodded obediently and joins her bad mouthing Roomie A HAHAHAHA ouh and then we got out of the room and Hommie C and D joins kutuking her. :P

so yeah that's what happened.

and now Roomie A is talking and laughing with me like nothing happened. we're talking about keropok lekor if ur curious.


GET ME OUT OF THIS MAD HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!

Questions?

at least i can honestly say that i did it ._. maybe he's a little freaked out when i said i stalked his myspace. he'll freak even moar if i say i used a fake account to stalk him. and of course, he'll freak even even, even, moar knowing all the things that i've done that can get me arrested x3 (LOL this makes him sounds like an inanimate object rather than a human being. well he is an object. the object of my happiness xD) GOSH I SOUND SO ScaRY -______-" why can't i be a little bit normal whatever that means =_="

sorry sorry sorry sorry >_<

maybe i shouldn't have said anything at all D:

well, i guess my stalking days of him is over. (really?) it left me with a little bit of bittersweet feeling in my mouth, but it'll come to past. just wait until i drool all over Zhoumi haha sure all the taste will hilang ._. and yeah i'm trying to cheer myself out. i don't wanna pull my emo blanket out but it's unnatural if i don't feel a little bit down. geez this must be the psychiatry in me talking. T^T i'm sorry if i made it sound like i'm using you or anything. maybe i am. or maybe it's nothing like that. maybe it's similar, but maybe, just maybe it's a bit different. maybe it's not out of selfishness, or maybe i'm just planting all this ideas in my head just to make me feel better. i don't know. pick and choose.


next time. maybe next time.

but thanks neyh.:P

gosh wtf intan u promised me u won't be so emo.

*continues to roll in bed*

oh yeah i have the perfect song for this. but songs are corny so might as well drop the idea.

no Joke man no Joke.

ngyahahahahah! ( i don't care if he's reading :P)

yes i am awesome. (=w=)v

// edited on 1st September because Blogger ate all my old pictures D:
// yeah i scrolled a year's worth of wallposts. Problem?

Now now.

hey hey hey \(^_^)/

today should be one hell of a productive day for me. yeah i skipped class, so what? actually last night my paranoid side told me that i should skip class and catch up on things. so that's exactly what i did. i hope i didn't missed too much out of today's lecture ;_; gosh maybe i'm relying too much on UQ's lectopia OTL

i slept around 7 am this morning and woke up at 12 pm. i feel like such a messed up human being ;_; i stayed inbed for the whole day, (because my bed is my study table OTL) i didn't even ate lunch and dinner today. i munched on my Bin Bin leftover's and ate a few slices of chocolate raisin bread with a mug of overly concentrated milo mocha. if my mom knows about this i'll get lectured for sure T^T i slept around 11 pm and woke up at 2 am and here i am now. blogging instead of studying. i was woken up by paah at exactly 12:02 am asking whether i'll be up for a wall climbing session tomorrow. a stranger texted me at 1:51 am with "Nite..". =_=" seriously. if u wanna wish me good night, do it properly. at the proper time. i didn't reply back.

i got 5 lectures down for CHEM1030 and 2 lectures for BIOL1020. and guess what? i finished my BIOL1030 shitty report ^^ (technically haha xD) i wrote everything down and did the discussion part based on what i think. tomorrow i hafta find some resource from UQ's library to back me up. or else, my report will be totally shitty. i'm aiming to get 5/5 for this report. TT^TT why do i get the feeling that college doesn't suck much at all compared to  SAM? seriously, things are waaaaaaaay easier now.

now i only get to worry about my video assignment. i'm hoping for this interview to work out. please oh please we need this badly. my group aren't cooperating as much. we want things to be done. we talk about it briefly and then silence. nothing. i know i suck at working as a team, but it like we're not even trying. hafta change asap neyh. not much time left >_<

and i did something today. something awesome. :P

and the world didn't end.
happy birthday aie.

Possessive Much?

i swear i like this song for all my heart. i like it so much that i don't even wanna share it with anyone else. it's really a messed up feeling since the song is not even mine in the first place. in fact anyone could have heard it since it came from a well-known band. but i guess this song got buried under by another song from the same album that was overly commercialized for some movie. *hint hint*

anyways i always have a soft spot for songs like this. u know the band but u've never expect them to come up with something totally different *_* for example, plain white T's. yeah they are ridiculously famous for Hey There Delilah. the first time i heard the song, i was immediately hooked. and so did the rest of the world =w= the night when i first heard it, it was played at least 5 times on the radio due to requests. but have u ever listened to the rest of plain white T's songs? damn different weyh. -_-" Hey There Delilah macam lagu sesat dalam album to in my opinion. xD another example? 3OH!3 - techno techno haha. xD u'd probably heard of Starstruckk and Don't Trust Me. but try and look up 'Still Around'. u won't even recognize them. >_>

well, actually, the thing i wanna point out here is that, ur gonna miss a lot of good things in life if u stick to what the majority thinks. life is too short neyh. go out and explore things. so.


PAAH. BILA KITA NAK PERGI WALL CLIMBING?

Just So.

i write like i talk. did u realized that? xD

i use a hell lot of emoticons. they help me to express myself better so i won't get misunderstood :P i tried writing without these fancy emoticons once, but my sentences would be too bland and monotonous, as if i'm actually mad at something >_> it would be too emo. and it actually makes me sound 'deep'. xD yeah. i like to tease people with this ridiculous emoticons. i put ^^ even when i'm not smiling. they are the best sarcasm ever when u don't wanna think of a real good sarcastic sentence. it works for me wonderfully :P

emoticons makes me shallow ._.

i like to use the 'f' word. FUCK. ~_~ it's short. it's versatile. it's expressive. it's gives more impact, and it gets the message across without fail, with proper usage. it is awesome-er when used together with  (￣□￣*)凸 seriously, i know what the word means. it annoys when people use it with out knowing the meaning. (yeah i'm referring to school kids >_>) they just use it because they think it's catchy. well it is catchy? but u shouldn't use a word without knowing the proper meaning -  just like the world 'cornucopia' HAHAHAHA


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a short advertisement.

i think you are making a fool of yourself. get ur self straighten out neyh~ you'll regret stuff later. i like u better when u don't really hafta pretend. ur making urself miserable by putting up an image to flaunt to peeps which u can't really follow. it's saddening. it's sickening to watch. i hope you'll come to ur senses soon :3


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so let's talk about what i actually do today! :D i downloaded all the lectopias that i've been missing out on, as well as Bleach and Durara!! and guess what? i watched all the animes but listened to none of the lectopias xD today (wait. i mean yesterday?) i had an awesome dinner with my peeps in lagoon perdana. we had this awesome tom yam kung surprise steamboat with mee hoon xD paah and ili we're supposed to be the one who cooks it, but somehow ain took over the kitchen =_=" i can't comment much cuz i didn't help at all. i was just the taste taster x3 (we'll u should be grateful that i wasn't in the kitchen. god knows what might happen xD) but but but the tom yam actually tasted like tom yam plus kicap hahaha but i guess the food tasted better with good company so we ended finishing the whole thing >3< too bad rose wasn't there. sorry la we started dinner quite late ^^;; thanks for the beer though! haha root beer ._.


i had a good time lepak-ing here. i guess i had to have a good and frequent change of scene so i won't get bored of seeing how i act around people >_> people get bored with me easily too x3 come on intan! it's suunday morning and u haven't progressed at all! =3=

Listening to Techno.

i have been such a good person for all these years that when the time comes for me to be viciously bitchy, the world would surely end.

and again, i'm haunted by the fear of losing myself. i know who i am, i know what defines me but there's no way i can describe them to you. or you. and you. that is why i like to be told certain things. by certain people x3 if i'm told of such things, it'll make it easier for me to make other people understand. if i am the person as what i am perceived, then it must mean that i'm not living a lie ^^ and it also means that i'm one hell of an actor xD

i took a cab to sunway last friday night. the uncle was so kind and friendly. at the end of the journey he said "thank you ur so sweet.." geh haha xD *blushblushblush* yes i am sweet. ^^ but hafta be careful neyh~ sweet kills. literally. when i feel like i'm being taken advantage of someone else, i would snap. i would be the evilest bitch u've ever met. i won't throw things at you. i won't even tell you that i'm actually pissed off by u. because i am a coward D': i don't like you but i don't wanna be hated by u. it's not quite a complicated relationship. it's rather simple actually ^^ i find it hard to hate anyone but if i have the right reasons then i surely will. hating is bad for my karma OTL

usually i like to be told that i'm cute. HAHAHA who doesn't? =_=" i said 'usually' because the sad part is, i was told that i'm cute by people who i don't wanna hear that from. ergh it's depressing. not to mention creepy. TT^TT but but but i don't wanna get complimented on stuff like studying cuz it would just give me pressure : / i'm not very good at being consistent and i hate to let people down so i'll just try not to get people's hopes up. but it's hard to maintain a one-sided relationship with the world. you'll get affected by them somehow. and that is exactly what i'm afraid of ^^;; so someone, please kidnap me and leave me stranded on a deserted island of some sort. i'm not good at socializing so might as well isolate me from other people before i make a fool of myself. but don't forget to leave me some luxury ;_; (coke and choco are a must).

i admit that i talk behind people. i know it's rather bitchy of me ._. and there's no excuse i can give to justify what i did. but things will get more complicated if i choose to stand before you and bash u face to face. it'll be ugleh. you can say that i'm some sort of a kind hypocrite. i'll say what i think bad of u ONCE, but i'll never get tired of saying stuff that relates to how awesome you are. so please, be AWESOME. i'll always try to carry myself in a way that u will find me acceptable, but if i offended u in anyway at all, u don't really have to tell me cuz i can sense it and change myself again just for u. just think of me as a customizable web page LOL wtf xD

It's hard to live as one persona for the rest of your life. that is why i like to change ^^

Sick Minds.

Ili Iryani showed me a few uncensored videos - of people committing suicides and stuff. apparently she got them from her brother =_="

i am always a fan of blood and gore. but recently, i get offended easily with people posting insensitive materials on facebook. yeah i was kinda upset when a friend of mine got tagged in a picture of a cut-opened cadaver, revealing the guts and livers and all those icky things. turns out that her friend; the guy who took the picture and the one who post it up on facebook is a medical student (yeah) who had his first encounter with a dead body. i guess he got too excited, deshou? =w= and it irks me the most that he was using his full (authority?) as a medical student that he had the right to post pictures like that since, well, yeah he's a medical student lol wtf. he said ouh this is a common thing to do when ur a medical student, it's for learning purposes, owh yeah dead bodies are FTW. it's a damn right fascinating and scientific shit right there! (owh dalia pun ada post gambar cadaver dia kat facebook. panas jugak hati mase tu. so saya bagi penyepak kat dia dan untagged diri saya dari gambar tu.) i don't hold grudges against my doctor-to-be friends neyh ^^;; please don't get me wrong.

to me, it feels like you are trying to convince others that you are superior in a way since you can actually stomach those brutal stuff. it's the same thing when you laugh at people who says that they can't stand the sight of blood. when they say they can't stand blood, they can't stand it la. it's not like they're cowards or anything. not being afraid of blood is the freakish side of the story. if you can see blood, it means bad news dude since blood are meant to stay INSIDE your body, not outside. exemption to blood donation of course. so why, why why are u so proud of being able to see a half cracked human skull oozing with blood and not actually faint or even bother to look away? you should! it's not normal duhh! its the same scenario when u see an accident on the road. most of the passerby will pull over, get out of the car and NOT HELP. they STARE. they stare at people screaming in pain. =_=" whaddaheck.

i feel the same way when my friends got tagged in the video showing the accident that the late Abdillah Murad Md Shari (Achik Spin)  was involved in. like, WHY. what's the point. remember Steve Irwin? yeahhhh.. the video got leaked too. remember Nurin Jazlin? somehow i think the pictures of her autopsy is waaaaaaaay more than the picture/cctv video of the guy on the bike suspected to be the fucker. sheeesh. i'm sure there's more examples out there. the main thing i wanna point out here: we're lacking sensitivity. it's offensive, and it's rude.

hey but i'm not the one to talk here since i cursed so much x3

i like blood and gore (in movies and animes). but you won't finding me streaming uncensored videos of people getting brutally killed by a chainsaw and stuff. that is just sick.

Stagger. Sway.

let's face it. i'm just a common loser. i procrastinate a lot. i sleep in class. i don't socialize much. i just suck at communicating. no self esteem. and i can't swim either. well it might not be relevant but whatever. =_=" what do i have in life? just the other day it came to me, why would a virus which is not really a living thing tries so hard to live on and reproduce? what is their intention. what do they plan on achieving. we don't acknowledge them as "alive" but they are living, in a way. everything that is alive dies. so for a virus, not living means dead. and so if they want to "live", it means that they have to find a way to die twice.

with that, i conclude that viruses are emo.

life and death. one cannot exist without the other. those who seeks death actually seeks life. i think. for once, i cut myself on my thighs just cause i wanna know what it feels like. this may sound like i'm a masochist or something but i like to play with cats until they scratches and bites meh. xD i'd never get angry with them because i think biting and scratching is a way for cats to say hi in a very friendly manner, like how we used to play roughly with our siblings. yeah i bit my cats on the ear once too >_>;:

hrmm hrmm i'm not suicidal. i think.i'm just sick of learning biology.

Is Not.

this is. the third weekend i'm spending in Lagoon Perdana. courtesy of Farhahnadiah and Ili Iryani.

hehee.

no i don't wanna go back to Melaka. not now. there's too many things at hand. i know that i would totally forget about assignments and studies when i'm in melaka. i'll just sleep like there's no tomorrow. haha. and the worst part of going to melaka is the travel itself. i don't wanna get squished inside the stupid KTM anymore. and the stupid bus in seremban is just stupid. i like the idea of using public transport (global warming awareness what the fuck xD) but yeah. maybe not in malaysia. public transport SUCKS.

ergh there's so much to do but i'm still procrastinating. i'm actually using my blog as an excuse to NOT do them. i know i'm gonna regret this later. haha. but at least i got my bio report all sorted out. it's not quite done but it's not looking too bad either. haha i can't believe that i've actually sat down and did it properly, waaaaaaaaaay before the deadline. which is on Thursday i think? haha. oer please isolate the procrastinator gene from my genome. and use it to infect others so i would be the only loser in this world cuz i procrastinate too much OTL

so i got 2 exam done in the past two weeks. and yeah i didn't do my best in any of them. i hardly study OTL BIOL1030 was okay, except for the reptilian egg question. (haha i just realized that i didn't even bother to look for the right answer xD) but BIOL1020. haha that is like the epic-est thing i have ever done. eh. didn't i wrote something ady about it? and last week i've submitted a 800 words philosophy assignment. i like philosophy but i only like my OWN philosophy. who cares about what people think. i can't believe that we're actually learning on how to learn stuff according to what people think learning is. i think people waaaay back then are too paranoid and obsessed with all of this. yeah it's a circle. it's a circle cuz we want it to be a circle. it's fine if u wanna say that the circle has 4 edges. it may be wrong but who can prove that your wrong? haha i like this. i usually think of stuff like this but i never done them like in a super serious manner. if it's not according to my logic that it's illogical. simple. living life is sweet.

owh i'm hungry nao so let's masak air and makan megi dalam cup.

thank you for reading.

Sad the World is Sad.

please click to enlarge thank you ^^

Coward.

what? am i not being nice enough here?

i'll judge u however i like since you're treating me this way. i don't have anything against you then but now i do. if you're gonna grovel and dwell in some stupid trivial matter than fine. whatever. stop whining. maybe u did something wrong but i don't think it's entirely your fault. i mean, it's not like u set up some obvious separation between the two world didn't u? just forget about her. she's just a scared, confused, emo, sad little kid who needs to be told who she is and stuff. ain't that just pathetic? i mean seriouslyyyyyyy u've been living with yourself long enough for goodness sake. can't tell what's good and what's bad for u? LIKE GROW UP. u dwell on stuff like being sad and emo all the time for what? u expect someone to come tell u that's everything's gonna be alright? u don't have to be told such things. u are much awesome-er. (well not as awesome as me but yeah u get my point.) please. don't destroy the image i have of you.

now go out there and spread some happiness!!!!!!!!! ♥♥♥

Baby Please Kill Me.

shoot shoot shoot must push that ugly post down. what the hell was i thinking. all right. some proper update. just in case i decided to go unconscious and lose my memory haha HAHA haha.

the heat must be getting to my head.

i did something EXTREMELY suicidal today. ngh. it was just plain stupid. i stepped into an exam hall with nothing. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING in my head. i ridiculously had been convinced for the whole weekend that the BIOL1020 midterm exam would be on this Thursday. so i had written a perfect plan to make sure i had revised everything and calmly take the exam on Thursday. i was planning to stay back after college with Afiqah today and just revise and do whatever i can schematically haha what the hell. so like, i showed up to class 7:45 am so i decided to get myself a chocolate blueberry waffle :9 then i got into the class and it was like half empty. "hrmm? i thought we're gonna have a pass session today.." so i sat down and munch on my waffle and rant happily with Choty while the rest of the class was doing some deep reading. i swear the must be like fucked up annoyed with me for laughing so happily early in the morning xD (but ngh Shirley was laughing too so i guess it wasn't such a big deal pun kan?) so i got tired of talking and finally sat down i did some proper reading on stuff.

yeah i was listening to lecture 5 lectopia when France sat next to me. she said, "x nak masuk exam hall ke?" i pull out my headphone and stare. "what?" "exam pukul 9 kan?" "Huh?"

i looked at my watch and it was like 10 minutes to 9:00 am. walao.

"i thought the exam is on Thursday."

and then dengan menggelabahnya saya selak nota2 saya yg x complete tu. i don't know what exactly was i searching for but ngggh i hope i'll find it quick since the others are starting to move on to the exam hall. alas, i was convinced that i have totally screwed myself good this time, closed my notes, stuff them into the bag and schelped pathetically onto one of the desk. (schelp is a word i made up.)

ah. and my good luck charm was not there to comfort me.


why are u so cold to me nowadays?

I Shall Destroy You.

A tag entry. ( not really i just made this up).

Post ur UGLIEST webcam pic and tag others. doesn't matter how many u tag. haha.

repost as "I Shall Destroy You." ^^

here goes.

I SHALL DESTROY YOU!!!!

Monochrome.

Hey there. thanks for reminding me. : )

You may be an unstable, cynical bitch but i still love u. in fact, that maybe the only reason why i am so in love with you. i will never, ever leave you. thanks to you, i am still here. although we've been living in a completely different world for the past 20 years, you are always there when i needed u. you are the one who keeps me sane when things get too fucked up around me. u would always have the right words to say to me no matter what the situation is. your harsh and sarcastic advises would always bring me back to my feet. when ever i feel like giving up, ur merciless ridicule of how pathetic i am at that time is the only thing i would wanna hear in this world. not once have u ever failed me. i know i can always count on you. i am never alone in this world. i am never lost nor am i confused with myself. i am never weak, and it's all thanks to u. (yeah, i may be a random klutz, but never would i be weak. not in their eyes.) i trust u more than i trust myself.

ur the ultimate sadist. and i am the obedient masochist.

you are just too awesome.

Klang.

look what i found here.

Oishii Kankei 7 page 04

random much? xD

Drama.

USO DA.
USO DA.
USO DA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i don't wanna go back to Subang. i don't. i don't. ergh. i don't wanna live anymoarrrrrrrrrrrr!!!! (this is the part where ur supposed to LOL) i can't stay home for too long (cuz my family will hate me orz), but i hate staying by myself in Subang. so where the hell am i supposed to go? i don't wanna study. i don't wanna do anything. i just wanna be by myself. sometimes i feel like going somewhere far away, like, a journey to discover myself wth ._.

i need a boifren. I NEED ONE NOW.

Emergency.

unya unya~

nope i didn't study. HUARGH intan ur making the same mistake again. ~_~ yesterday i went back to my granny's house for a quick visit. then i got a bit too sentimental that i decided to stay there over night cuz i haven't visited them for so long. so there. sumpah. the only thing i did there was stay inside the house, watched avatar (yes saye baru tengok) then a little dose of anime. okay maybe not so little. ._. i re-watched honey and clover season one from episode 1 until 10.

COME ON INTAN PLEASE. HELP ME TO HELP YOU.

someone. if ur reading this. call me up and scold me.

A Typical Night.

hey! hey! do u know that facebook nowadays can make ordinary peeps like u and me famous? Tasyrif Tajuddin? Rafiqin Darwisy? ring any bells? haha. seriously, facebooks screenshots scares the hell out of me nowadays. but nah, i'm not gonna post something so fucked up serious on my cute little blog here. ^^

HAHAHAHAHA! it's like i've gathered an army of Fujoshis! xD (i know i like Yaoi but i dun really know about the other two. haha. EDIT: okay, aimi pun fujoshi jugak LOL) so like, that is a very common comments exchange between the three of us. bongok gila en? FYI we're discussing about korean boys, specifically from Super Junior. if u don't know who Super Junior is, please shoot urself with a gun hahaha. (SuJu is like the awesome-est reverse harem there is out there)

owh owh i loike this one

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

// weyh. betul er kite nak jadi biotechnologist niyh? OTL

Rosewell.

"O hai, i am here to make your life interesting. :D"

i would kill for someone to come and say THAT to me. ( -_-") yeah. i know i'm different. i know i'm amusing. i know i'm interesting. despite of knowing, i would still like to be told certain things. haha. u should know by now that some of my close friends would call me a 'freak'. am i proud of being called as such? maybe. i tried to live my life in a way that others would find unusual to them. the reason? it's not to entertain u guys. it is to entertain myself. i find it amusing to see how people react to something that is out of the norm. call me sick. call me crazy. whatever it is, hey, i'm living here! and no one can tell me how i'm supposed to live! xD

i have already accepted the fact that i'll always be a bit different from others. and i couldn't careless of what people would think of me (i don't care how or what they think of me as long as they treat me nicely :3) but when someone shows up in your life saying stuff like "LOL intan u made my day xD" - certainly made it easier for me to wake up in the morning. TT^TT thank you. i don't care how perverted u are but that was the nicest thing anyone has EVER said to my face so casually LOL.

ya know, somehow, something that a friend of mine once said to me still haunts me until this day. "agaknye laki kau pun freak macam kau.." (-___-") ergh. maybe. logically, the one who would fall for me would have a very weird taste in girls. hahaha. but i thought soulmates should be completely different from each other - so that they would complement each other, deshou? hurm. i guess some normality would do great to my life. i'm so used to do things the 'wrong' way that maybe doing things the 'right' way would be 'refreshing'. haha. whatever it is, i need something or someone to chain me down so i won't be too lost in my own cloud of false happiness erk? did i just admit something along that line? hahahaha! xD


"O hey. i am here to make your life boring. =w="

// silalah huru harakan hidup aku.

The Happy Fujoshi.

i'm not the type of girl who likes to post random korean guy pictures on her blog. with that being said, these pictures of a korean guy that i'm posting is not just any random korean guy. these are some pictures of a very hot korean guy. yeah it does make a difference. A BIG DIFFERENCE SO BACK OFF. HUAHUAHUA

Name: Lee Jong Hyun (이종현)
Japanese Name: イ・ジョンヒョン
Birthdate: 1990.05.15
Position: Guitar and Vocal
Height: 180cm
Blood Type: O

// i think his birthdate is cute. the way he's holding an acoustic guitar is also cute. alolololo the dimples on his face. don't forget the magic number : 180 . hohoho. *nosebleed*

It's Madness.

I have removed the link(s). but don't worry, i'm still keeping my reading list, i've just decided that i wanna make things a little bit private. :P "owh why would i wanna do that?" because i'm actually considering of letting my classmates know about the existence of this blog - discretely of course. hurm hurm. i know that some of my friends are hiding their blogs from those preying eyes of our classmates (because of very good reason i might add xD) so i'll try not to spoil the fun for them. ^^

Ergh. D: it's already Wednesday. and i'm too lazy to study. why intan? why? your future depends on this! hahaha. i know. but i'm planning to live for only another 2 years. (2012 effect LOL) nah. i don't know. maybe i'm joking, maybe i'm not. i've downloaded all the lectopias that i've missed. and there's a lot. one lecture would cost me an hour to catch up (maybe moar since i like to pause and replay) so for me to catch up on all the lectures, would need a miracle. (no intan, the only thing that u actually need to accomplish that is the will to do so - of which u are seriously lacking off.) hahaha.

i have at least 5 episodes of Bleach that i haven't watched. T^T they're sitting nicely on the desktop, but i just dun wanna watched em cuz i dun feel like it OTL. i need my hikkikomori mode to really enjoy animes nao. i'm a hikki. i'm a hikki. =A=" i'm in the mood to watch Durarara! but my broadband download quota is reaching it's limit so downloading any more animes would mean slow internet is slow. =w= get the picture?

so like any other holidays, i'm stuck inside this house, alone. T_T my friends are mostly not here. (actually i do have some friends here in Melaka but ya know, there's this thing called 'preference' and sometimes i just don't like hanging out with them - there i said it :P) yes bitch i'm referring to u. lalalalala~

i'm supposed to be heading to my kampung right nao but the sky looks dark as if it's gonna rain so imma cancel on it. maybe tomorrow la nenek. i shall come and eat the contents of ur fridge hahahaha! saye rindu nenek saye TTwTT with that being said, i should really, really start studying. like now. grr.

// cross my heart, hope to die, poke a needle in my eye.

Exclusively Yours.

this post is exclusively for farhahnadiah and aimi syazana.
i'm bored so here.

this is the SNSD-ish shirt that my mom bought for me. isn't it SNSD-ish? hahaha. orz my body is abnormally long  so i think this shirts makes my abnormally longish body super extra longish. OTL

// yeah u guessed it. a post just cuz i had too much time on my hand.

Introduction.

i knew it. the cuteness of my blog does influence me to write in in. hahaha.

HENSHIN! HYPER BLOGGER! xD

so i have introduced at least 4 of my classmates in the previous entries, and i felt like introducing more of them! :D let's start by my BIOL1030 video group. there's Tiffany aka Tiffy, Kuantai aka KT, Afiqah and me! \(^O^)/

u might be wondering, "what the hell is BIOL1030 and what's a video gotta to with it? ( -_-")well, BIOL1030 is one of the biology subject that i'm taking, basically relates to Biodiversity and stuff. another biology subject that i'm taking is BIOL1020, that revolves more around Genetics. there. so, BIOLOGY + DIVERSITY = VIDEO DIRECTING? yup. that's basically it. we have been given a task to do a 5 minute video documentary, that features an ecosystem related problem. greaaaaat. we did a couple of videos during SAM, so a 5 minute videos won't be much of a problem, right?

WRONG. fussy. BIOL1030 is fussy. copyrights issues are not awesome D: so we're not supposed to google and put stuff inside the video without proper citation yadayadayada. proper credits are to be stated at the end of the video. which is sooo not cool since the previous year students didn't have to do it so WHY MEHHH??? TTATT

owh well. the world is always awesomely cruel to me. so, what should i do for the video? and so, the brainstorming started. hek. on MSN, obviously. i was okay talking to Tiffany at that time, but since i don't have much opportunity to talk to KT, i felt a bit awkward. (and seriously, for some reason, i couldn't read his mind at all =w= i mean, i was scared if i did something that may caused him to dislike me in anyway, LOL I AM PARANOID but hmmph. i can't really tell if he's annoyed at me or if he's happy or etc ) but then the online conference got a little bit lighter and there were lols here and there so it was alright. we discussed about the ugliness of a chihuahua. it turns out that both of them hates cats cuz they say cats are cute but deceiving. (then they must have hated me too nyaaa~ ♥) eerk. Afiqah didn't joined the conference cuz she can't go online T_T

so the next day, we went to see Ms Den to discuss about our topic. the topic we chose were too vague, as in there's no real ecosystem issue in it. (just as I suspected) but we're in a group so it's not nice la for me to keep saying NO! to every idea that they came up with. then, then, then KT brought up a topic about an exotic monkey in Sabah. Ms Den was like, 'Okay~ but you should have discussed it with your group members first..' haha. well, i think KT was just trying to make a point by bringing up that topic. "so, we don't have to go to Sabah for the sake of getting a footage of the monkey?" - no KT. we don't. we can't. 'I' can't. OTL

so we got out of the room, and we continued discussing about what the hell are we gonna do for the video. as i mentioned earlier, I had never had a proper conversation with KT before. he came to me and ask me, "u know about the monkey right? they have this long nose and a long penis.." OTL. i'm sorry KT but now all the memories i will have of you would be spoiled by a very disturbing image of an exotic monkey penis. ( -____________-")

what story would i have about Tiffany? hurm. i casually exchanged comments on FB, but the first time i really talked to her is during the first briefing about the video. we were given a camcorder, just to familiarize ourselves with the equipment and all. so Tiffy and me decided to make a short yaoi movie. the cast: GT and Wheen. ( note: GT is not KT and i'm not sure how to spell Wheen's name OTL ) so like, we recorded the two guys, standing on the balcony, talking casually, then did a little voice over. hahaha. IT WAS WIN. when we got back to class, we actually edited everything by MAC and the short movie became a hit among our classmates. but then they forgotten the fact that it was who took the footage in the first place but yeah, i don't mind. REAALLY.

basically you should know by now that Brian aka BB and Wai aka Klein are pervs with a capital 'H' so i won't elaborate more on them. actually, the fact that they are pervs are all that u need to know, really. :P

*looks to the right and left*

well, i'm not sure that i'm supposed to be writing about him here, but he is so WHOA that i can't help myself. now. i'm gonna write about the GOD himself. you read it right. no typo there. the person that i'm writing about is Jonathan aka 'the God of Rock'. hahaha. read first read first. the first time i saw him, i was totally reminded of Wawa. serious! @_@ he was tall, and his hair was even a little bit like Wawa. he always sat at the back of the class, quiet, and only speak when there is a need to. when he speaks, the whole classroom would listen to his voice. like WHOA kan? haha. maybe i'm exaggerating a bit, but that's basically him! @_@ once, we had a live video conference with the university of Queensland aka UQ about a lecture that we had. it was about philosophy. YEAH. PHILOSOPHY. i can be found soundly asleep in the lecture room every time there's a philosophy lecture. (then again, it's not really a lecture when we're listening to a recording of a UQ lecture and all that can recall from it is a very catchy phrase of the lecturer - "What's wrong with this picture?") so i don't think anyone understood the lecture - EXCEPT THE GOD HIMSELF. he was chosen to be the class representative for that particular video conference, and he was asking the UQ lecturer all sorts of things and answering every single thing that the lecturer asked while the rest of the class was all very blur-blur. it was like the conference were made for him and the UQ lecturer, and the rest of the class was just some insignificant flies~ ahaha. there was nothing we can do but to witness the God in action - we were in awe. like @A@. and not just in Philosophy okay? be it CHEM1030, BIOL1020 or BIOL1030, he owns them all. there was this one time that the lecturer asked us to do a group work, and Jonathan's group was supposed to do a question on some bad as isomerism. he walks up to the board and starts drawing stuff. "Silence. the God is writing.." said Brian. ROFL. everytime i saw him, i would feel like giving him a salute or something just cuz he's so DAMN COOL. @A@

so why the title "God of Rock"? apparently, he likes Metal. ORZ.

so there, a few first impressions that i had on my new classmates. haha. interesting, deshou? ^^ well, they are interesting through my eyes. my optimistic eyes that is. haha. gosh there's a lot more to write about them!

Simple.

saya sayang zhoumi.







paham x?

UPDATE. BIG TIME.

grrr. i am angry. i have failed to place an extremely cute footer under this blog. wth. okies. update. update.

hye! hye! ^^

it's been since i've abandoned this blog. i know i have been using the same "i hate my blog layout so i don't wanna update it" excuse every time someone asks me about my blog (well it's the truth!), but another reason for my tardiness would be - I JUST CAN'T FIND THE TIME TO DO SO TTATT

so now that i'm sitting comfortably at home, with a decent internet connection that does not die out on me for every 5 miserable minutes, without anyone criticizing me for looking at the laptop for too long~ yes. i will ramble. let me pour my guts out. BLUEK~

first off.

GIANT. NUTELLAS ARE GIANT.

THEY'RE AS BIG AS MY HEAD ORZ!!!

825 g FTW. haha. dad bought them in Belgium. i guess the grass IS greener on the other side. mom bought me a few SNSD-ish outfits. BLARGH. they're nice. but but but they looked macam baju nak masuk kelab je to me. agagagagaga! (cepat ah paah! kate nk g kelabing! xD)

so what does the giant nutella photo have to do with my life? haha. nothing. -_-" i just felt like showing them off.

what do u wanna know about my life in college? ^^ IT IS AWESOME. studying sucks but everything else are good. as weird as it may sound, it feels like i'm in highschool again. i got to know more otakus of my class, the degree of otaku-ness varies from one to another. the first one i met was Kai. (nikki u can stalk him on facebook if u want. ^^) orz i could tell that he's an otaku just by looking at his hair OTL then there's the 'little bit perverted' Siew Wai aka Klein Pang with his trusty side-kick Brian. i'll write something about an incident which has left me so much regret and despair until today involving these two pervs. -_-" and then there's Tiffany and Carmen. Tiffany likes the 'accidental misunderstood shonen ai setting which is not shonen ai at all' setting in a manga or anime, while Carmen just reads manga for the sake of reading ie not addicted at all. ah~ such innocent creatures. HAHAHAHAHA.

pretty, ain't it? i forgot the botanical term for it. ergh. "shy-something." please google it if u have the time. last saturday i went to play with the lintah and leeches in a jungle not too far from petaling jaya. it's a compulsory field trip for all who enrolled in my course la. kalau x pergi kena write a 2000 something words essay. tsk. yeah, i was practically brainwashed by the guide. i seriously felt like hugging every single trees i saw there. haha. but yeah, we were there for assessment purposes so i can't afford to wander around exploring nature's beauty yadayadayada. we were to complete this annoying works sheets based on what the guide's explanation and took pictures that is related to the notes. sounds interesting? nyeh. after a tiring day walking around in the jungle, we were give 2 hours to complete all the worksheets. badan penat, sekarang otak pun mesti penat jugak. i ended up rambling whatever i feel like writing in those papers.

there was this one question that annoys the hell out of me.

"if the rafflesias were extinct, how would it affect the ecosystem?"

=w=

i know for a fact that rafflesias are parasites. they suck the life out of other plants. if they die, it won't mean anything. even the flies that helps pollinate them don't really gain anything from them. bukannye ade nectar pun. so if they die, the ecosystem will only lose one species. yes, it'll affect it's diversity. but ecosystem-wise? hurgh. so i asked the guide to gimmeh more explanation, and he said, maybe i could just write down the word 'maybe' before proceeding with my answer. i was like. o. okeh. -_-"

why am i learning things that are not even certain!!! TTATT (wait, i shall elaborate on this moar.)

so after all the writings are submitted, i had some time to fool around. i heard a group of of people discussing something about animes (LOL actually they said something about 'ecchi'). i turned around and there they was. Siew Wai, Brian, and Mizi. so i got up and sat with them. Siew Wai looked at me and he was like, "we're.. discussing about animes." i nodded. "i know." he said "ecchi animes." i replied "So?" hahaha. Somewhere along the way Mizi left the group. so the anime discussion continues. 

"So what animes do u watch?"

"Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni."
"You watch violent animes? -_-""

 Hahaha. obviously. I AM A YANDERE DAMN IT. XD

then, they start discussing about something hentai-ish. then they turn to me and asked, "do u know 'Futanari?'" i can't lie so i just replied '..eeewe.' and that is when i realised i did something teribble OTL. they were asking me, "HOW THE HELL DO YOU KNOW THAT WORD? WHAT EXACTLY DO YOU READ????" O_O

i can't help it! i know i picked up the word somewhere and i just googled it and i just happen to know! xD hahahaha! (wait, i know. i picked that up from a forum somewhere. honestly. =w=)

then they asked me about a certain 'B' word and i had to pretend that i don't know what it is. -_-"

yeah. and now. somehow. i accidentally joined their allegiance of H. wth. OTL

i guess i messed up this post so much nao that i'm satisfied. ^^