she. her. me.

i can't feel anything anymore. i hate this feeling.
how can you hate when u can't feel a thing?
i.. don't really know..
you're weird. =_="

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that is what happens when i consult the inner me. frustrating? agak ar. i kinda had an argument with my mom just now (i don't know whether it counts as an argument, but she was really upset, she was practically scolding me, but i didn't say a word). she was not happy with me being 'me'. we were inside the car. she kept going on and on about my past mistakes - and i really can't stand it when she does just that. it makes me feel like jumping out of the car and into the busy street. i was really upset. i wanted to cry. i was so frustrated that i shut down. my mind was elsewhere. i know that i'm still in the car, but i was safe, secluded from the world. i was in a safe place. it was dark, but at the same time cozy. i felt at ease, but not happy. she was waiting for me. the other me.

"Hi, the other me!", she said to me.

i didn't respond. eventhough she seems cheerful, i know my other self better than anyone else. she is one sarcastic, cynical bitch. while she's bitching around, she persuaded me to figure it out. figure out life. figure out people. she handed me a special kind of glasses, and told me to put them on. the glasses are special because, i can view anything i want, through any prespective that i want. she told me to look at things in a different way. so i did.

"what do you think is the real reason that mom is so upset with you?", she asked.

and i saw it. the possibilities are endless. the main reason? my mom is still upset about losing her phone. she must had a hard time at job today because of that. maybe she had to go through a lot; she couldn't call her boss when she wanted to, she was late for a meeting coz nobody could reach her on the phone, etc. maybe she is annoyed with the bangla at the cafeteria that she thinks is the culprit of her phone disappearance? and she was still annoyed because she had left tons of message on the phone; begging for who ever that took it to kindly return it back o her office - which i thought ('we' both thought useless). maybe she was feeling down because mak ngah had just received her 2nd grandson, while she still have one? maybe. or maybe she is sad because she only knew about Kak Ani's delivery after she reached home. maybe something happened on the road? someone cut the queue in front of her in the traffic? or maybe it's the weather. it's so damn hot that it pisses everyone off.

"there're tons of other reasons for her to get mad. you're just unlucky to be here. bear with it. no. don't bear with it. don't make any effort at all. continue. continue to float in this world of ours. we are safe in this hollow, empty space. let's sing. let's dance. let time pass. let it all go. take a deep breath. can you smell that lonely air?"

"that's not loneliness. that's Glade - lavender,"

"......."

"whatever."

i returned the glasses to her. i can see that she is annoyed. but strangely enough, i felt better. from the depth of this empty, hollow space, i found new strength. it maybe temporary, but it's enough for now. i closed my eyes. when i opened them, i'm here. stuck in this life. i wanted to sigh. but the other me yells out "there's no point of doing that! u can't gain anything! move on!", and she's right. thanks to her, i don't dwell on the past. (that is why i don't support for History to be taught in schools) move on. move on. move on. that is why i can call myself an optimist. for when life is too hard, i can always crawl back into that empty hole.



the question now is, for how long can i stay inside this dark, empty world of mine?

i want to be a hikikomori.

Today, my mom..

my mom lost her phone. =_="

apparently, she left it in the hospital cafe when she was taking her evening break. yes, i feel sorry for her. i know that she keeps a lot of her grandson's picture in there. i get it. wakatta.

here comes the fun part.

my brother and I (who is trying to enjoy of what is left of her holiday) was sitting at home playing games on PS. my dad came home with this uneasy expression, lands himself on the sofa and took out his phone. he calls the celcom people - to bar my mom's number so that nobody could make any out-going call. fyi, my mom's number as well as mom's is registered under my dad's name. yup, he pays for the bills too. we even have our special number tau! hehe~ ^^

my dad found out that there are not only two numbers registered under him, but six. yup, six. ntah sape2 ntah. i dunno what happen after.

then, my mom came home. as expected, i can feel this uneasy, eerie, tense, atmosphere all around the house. talk about negative energy. rasenye this is more scary than Zaraki's reiatsu. =P murderous intend? maybe. my mom is like that. when she is not happy, other people won't be happy too. eee.. actually, tadi rase takut sangat sampai tetibe rase macam nak bawak kete - nk pergi DP tengok wayang. ahaha~

penah bace cerita tergantung?

why do boys like to put a picture of a car for their profile image in social networking websites?

Today, my mom..

my mom lost her phone. =_="

apparently, she left it in the hospital cafe when she was taking her evening break. yes, i feel sorry for her. i know that she keeps a lot of her grandson's picture in there. i get it. wakatta.

here comes the fun part.

my brother and I (who is trying to enjoy of what is left of her holiday) was sitting at home playing games on PS. my dad came home with this uneasy expression, lands himself on the sofa and took out his phone. he calls the celcom people - to bar my mom's number so that nobody could make any out-going call. fyi, my mom's number as well as mom's is registered under my dad's name. yup, he pays for the bills too. we even have our special number tau! hehe~ ^^

my dad found out that there are not only two numbers registered under him, but six. yup, six. ntah sape2 ntah. i dunno what happen after.

then, my mom came home. as expected, i can feel this uneasy, eerie, tense, atmosphere all around the house. talk about negative energy. rasenye this is more scary than Zaraki's reiatsu. =P murderous intend? maybe. my mom is like that. when she is not happy, other people won't be happy too. eee.. actually, tadi rase takut sangat sampai tetibe rase macam nak bawak kete - nk pergi DP tengok wayang. ahaha~

penah bace cerita tergantung?

why do boys like to put a picture of a car for their profile image in social networking websites?

Happyness.

it's the fifth day peeps!!!

huh~ i'm tired playing the 'fangirl'. really. it's bad for the heart, and bad for the throat. nonetheless, it is undeniable that it is good for the soul. =P but seriously, being a fan girl memang penat. one would need a lot of times imagining stuff - usually the scenario of when meeting the 'object of affection'. this includes details such as what will you do, what will u say (or not), what maybe his reaction, will he notice u, etc. all and all, haiz.. it's not easy being a fangirl.

but when i'm not acting all fangirlish, people tend to call me emo. lol. just call me an 'exhausted fangirl' then.

today, after the long wait, i went for my dental appointment. fyi, i'd oredy registered my name in the long long long list of people who wanna get braces, 3 years ago. i went to the clinic in Peringgit, but they told me that they have shifted my appointment to the clinic in Pengkalan Rama. adeyh. they really could have save me the trouble. hallo~~~ x reti calling2 ka? nk gune YM? shessh. gov.

reaching the other clinic, all was well. there wasn't much people there, and i got inside the dentist office pretty quick. seriously, i can't recall the name of the doctor. but i think i'm gonna call him Dr Fong (Sai Yuk) because damn! he looks a lot like him! XD - tinggal die x de tocang, just botak. =P

but... i'm really, really disappointed. after my long (timeless) anticipation, it looks like i'm not getting my teeth braced. uhh.. and i've waited so long too.. T__T why? i don't think i have much time.. i mean, well, kalo ade rezki nanti nk fly kan? doctor tu kate braces takes at least 3 years, and seeing where i'm studying now, susah jugak nak balik melake selalu. plus, most of the appointment will be on weekdays, which means i'm gonna have to miss some of my classes (not that i've never done that before). haiz. i hate this. hate it. hate it. sape kate aku nk gi aussie? omg i didn't just typed that. ahaha. aku nk g aussie, nk nk nk nk. warghh~~~~~~~~~~~~~

the truth is, i'm crying my eyes out right now. it's the DI. no, it's not just the DI. i downloaded tha excel document, and after asking teh the password, i opened it. it wasn't that bad, i personally think that i've done better than what i'd expected. then my mom passed by, and saw the mark sheet. i seriously didn't want her to see, but it would be pretty weird and rude if i'd closed the window at that time, you see? so she looked. and the first thing she said was 'why are there people with higher marks than you..?' then.. gosh. mom. i love you, but you're seriously driving me mad. whaddya expect? i'm stupid, i'm useless, i'm just worthless. it's even a miracle that i'm still here. now u expect me to be better than everyone? i know it's impossible mom. i realised that. when will u?

i think, i think.. i'm gonna go now.

Happyness.

it's the fifth day peeps!!!

huh~ i'm tired playing the 'fangirl'. really. it's bad for the heart, and bad for the throat. nonetheless, it is undeniable that it is good for the soul. =P but seriously, being a fan girl memang penat. one would need a lot of times imagining stuff - usually the scenario of when meeting the 'object of affection'. this includes details such as what will you do, what will u say (or not), what maybe his reaction, will he notice u, etc. all and all, haiz.. it's not easy being a fangirl.

but when i'm not acting all fangirlish, people tend to call me emo. lol. just call me an 'exhausted fangirl' then.

today, after the long wait, i went for my dental appointment. fyi, i'd oredy registered my name in the long long long list of people who wanna get braces, 3 years ago. i went to the clinic in Peringgit, but they told me that they have shifted my appointment to the clinic in Pengkalan Rama. adeyh. they really could have save me the trouble. hallo~~~ x reti calling2 ka? nk gune YM? shessh. gov.

reaching the other clinic, all was well. there wasn't much people there, and i got inside the dentist office pretty quick. seriously, i can't recall the name of the doctor. but i think i'm gonna call him Dr Fong (Sai Yuk) because damn! he looks a lot like him! XD - tinggal die x de tocang, just botak. =P

but... i'm really, really disappointed. after my long (timeless) anticipation, it looks like i'm not getting my teeth braced. uhh.. and i've waited so long too.. T__T why? i don't think i have much time.. i mean, well, kalo ade rezki nanti nk fly kan? doctor tu kate braces takes at least 3 years, and seeing where i'm studying now, susah jugak nak balik melake selalu. plus, most of the appointment will be on weekdays, which means i'm gonna have to miss some of my classes (not that i've never done that before). haiz. i hate this. hate it. hate it. sape kate aku nk gi aussie? omg i didn't just typed that. ahaha. aku nk g aussie, nk nk nk nk. warghh~~~~~~~~~~~~~

the truth is, i'm crying my eyes out right now. it's the DI. no, it's not just the DI. i downloaded tha excel document, and after asking teh the password, i opened it. it wasn't that bad, i personally think that i've done better than what i'd expected. then my mom passed by, and saw the mark sheet. i seriously didn't want her to see, but it would be pretty weird and rude if i'd closed the window at that time, you see? so she looked. and the first thing she said was 'why are there people with higher marks than you..?' then.. gosh. mom. i love you, but you're seriously driving me mad. whaddya expect? i'm stupid, i'm useless, i'm just worthless. it's even a miracle that i'm still here. now u expect me to be better than everyone? i know it's impossible mom. i realised that. when will u?

i think, i think.. i'm gonna go now.

bile nk habes cuti nie?

4th day?
....

nothing much going on today. stayed at home for the whole day. really. yayayaya. i found blood+ manga on the net, which is very hard to find. hehe. try la cari. that's pretty much it. internet, facebook, online manga, youtube. i got bored. then main PS. liberty city x habis lagi. guitar hero pun dh lame x main. ceh. hilang dh semua skill.

maybe controller tu je yang x best kowt? =P

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UPDATED:

weyh. emo nye post nie. ahaha. reading it back, i realised that it's the 4th post i made during this hols. =P aku suke no 4. no 4. no 4. suke. suke. suke. suki. i need to sleep early. esok nk g jumpe dentist!

gigi laptop ku jua perlu pemulihan. papa~~~~~~~~~~~~~

bile nk habes cuti nie?

4th day?
....

nothing much going on today. stayed at home for the whole day. really. yayayaya. i found blood+ manga on the net, which is very hard to find. hehe. try la cari. that's pretty much it. internet, facebook, online manga, youtube. i got bored. then main PS. liberty city x habis lagi. guitar hero pun dh lame x main. ceh. hilang dh semua skill.

maybe controller tu je yang x best kowt? =P

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UPDATED:

weyh. emo nye post nie. ahaha. reading it back, i realised that it's the 4th post i made during this hols. =P aku suke no 4. no 4. no 4. suke. suke. suke. suki. i need to sleep early. esok nk g jumpe dentist!

gigi laptop ku jua perlu pemulihan. papa~~~~~~~~~~~~~

laconic.

3rd day of holiday! haha!
lolz. maybe blog is somewhat like my diary.
lantak la.

today, ehehe~ i overslept. mama kejutkan. she wuz sumwhat upset. =P this morning, my not-so-lil-o-bro went to Dataran Pahlawan. he kinda entered the Spell It Right challenge. so, after my mom persuaded me to go, i oso followed la my mom to Dataran to give moral support. haha. at first, the word was not so hard la. but i just can't keep myself from feeling bengang when a contestant spelled 'canary' as in 'kanary'. whutt?? what a waste of space.

my bro got to the finals. and after that, the words gets more and more unfamiliar. there was one word that caught me off guard. 'laconic'. yup. the announcer pronounced that word just like miss Param would pronounce 'le cornu'. it left me feeling 'lethargic'. then, there's more like embasilisk - imbacilic; agnius - igneous; and a few more. my bro got to the final five, and ended up fighting for the third place - and lost. too bad. he could've won a thou if he did. =P

my mom, who was unaware of the prize money until they announced it during the penyampaian hadiah, kept ungkit2 about the money all the way back to kampung. haha. kesian ayol. sampai kampung, i continued with my favourite past time - tido. lolz. there's nothing better than falling asleep in the kampung mild breeze on the 'pangkin' my atuk build. hehe. i'm a kampung girl and proud of it. bangun tido, ape lagi? makan lew. my nenek masakkan daging masak lemak cili padi and sambal udang. makan udang 6 ekor. hua~ macam mane nk capai objektive ni!

but not all is good. i heard from my granma that the old granny who used to teach me mengaji passed away 3 days ago. innalillah. i felt kinda empty. i haven't seen her since like, a long long time ago. isn't weird? you didn't even thought about the person(s) when they are still with you, and when they're really gone - they're gone. i really don't want to imagine life without those who are closed to me.

laconic.

3rd day of holiday! haha!
lolz. maybe blog is somewhat like my diary.
lantak la.

today, ehehe~ i overslept. mama kejutkan. she wuz sumwhat upset. =P this morning, my not-so-lil-o-bro went to Dataran Pahlawan. he kinda entered the Spell It Right challenge. so, after my mom persuaded me to go, i oso followed la my mom to Dataran to give moral support. haha. at first, the word was not so hard la. but i just can't keep myself from feeling bengang when a contestant spelled 'canary' as in 'kanary'. whutt?? what a waste of space.

my bro got to the finals. and after that, the words gets more and more unfamiliar. there was one word that caught me off guard. 'laconic'. yup. the announcer pronounced that word just like miss Param would pronounce 'le cornu'. it left me feeling 'lethargic'. then, there's more like embasilisk - imbacilic; agnius - igneous; and a few more. my bro got to the final five, and ended up fighting for the third place - and lost. too bad. he could've won a thou if he did. =P

my mom, who was unaware of the prize money until they announced it during the penyampaian hadiah, kept ungkit2 about the money all the way back to kampung. haha. kesian ayol. sampai kampung, i continued with my favourite past time - tido. lolz. there's nothing better than falling asleep in the kampung mild breeze on the 'pangkin' my atuk build. hehe. i'm a kampung girl and proud of it. bangun tido, ape lagi? makan lew. my nenek masakkan daging masak lemak cili padi and sambal udang. makan udang 6 ekor. hua~ macam mane nk capai objektive ni!

but not all is good. i heard from my granma that the old granny who used to teach me mengaji passed away 3 days ago. innalillah. i felt kinda empty. i haven't seen her since like, a long long time ago. isn't weird? you didn't even thought about the person(s) when they are still with you, and when they're really gone - they're gone. i really don't want to imagine life without those who are closed to me.

yeye.

second day of holiday! ^^

my dad, my not-so-lil-o-bro and me went to Dataran Pahlawan to catch Night at the Museum 2! we left the house at around 9:00 am, and reached there around 9:15. owh, it turns out that the premier of the movie had something to do with charity, endorsed by something-to-do-with-my-dad's-job. ahaha. seriously, i can't give a straight answer when someone asks me about my dad's job. XP but we kinda showed up a tad early, and because we haven't had our breakfast, we went to the nearest mamak stall aka Subaidah - ala, kedai mamak yang workers die pakai uniform pink tu..

around 9:40, we entered the cinema. owh goody. orang besar yang dijemput still x kunjung tiba. lantak. i was a bit annoyed, knowing that the three of us is gonna sit at upfront, betul2 kat bawah screen. bongok. bukannye ade orang pown. right after the lighs were put off, kitorang selambe je buat free-sitting. and so does everyone else. ye la, the main tetamu x datang. buat la macam rumah sendiri. owh politicians. can they ever be punctual? come to think of it, for all the fuctions that i had been to as a gamelan performer, memang x pernah diorg datang on time. the worst? of course la ketua menteri melaka. haha. memang dah feymes to show up in the middle of the majlis.

wait. owh, the review of the movie. ehehe. sucks. the sequel can never be as good as the first one. humour? okay la. corny still. but the development, err.. bosan actually. but the ending, err.. okay la. haha. out of 5, i give it about 2.3.

after the movie, we went to see mom kat Jusco. had lunch. salmon teriyaki. then i scored two shoujos; Keajaiban Kurumi & Kelayakan Cinderella. actually, i bought another 2 yesterday; Black & White and Koleksi Bakat Baru something~ (which i regret buying) lol~ i read Kelayakan Cinderalla last sem, i just bought it for my personal collection. ^^

will insert some picture here later.

till then, ja-neyh~ ^^

yeye.

second day of holiday! ^^

my dad, my not-so-lil-o-bro and me went to Dataran Pahlawan to catch Night at the Museum 2! we left the house at around 9:00 am, and reached there around 9:15. owh, it turns out that the premier of the movie had something to do with charity, endorsed by something-to-do-with-my-dad's-job. ahaha. seriously, i can't give a straight answer when someone asks me about my dad's job. XP but we kinda showed up a tad early, and because we haven't had our breakfast, we went to the nearest mamak stall aka Subaidah - ala, kedai mamak yang workers die pakai uniform pink tu..

around 9:40, we entered the cinema. owh goody. orang besar yang dijemput still x kunjung tiba. lantak. i was a bit annoyed, knowing that the three of us is gonna sit at upfront, betul2 kat bawah screen. bongok. bukannye ade orang pown. right after the lighs were put off, kitorang selambe je buat free-sitting. and so does everyone else. ye la, the main tetamu x datang. buat la macam rumah sendiri. owh politicians. can they ever be punctual? come to think of it, for all the fuctions that i had been to as a gamelan performer, memang x pernah diorg datang on time. the worst? of course la ketua menteri melaka. haha. memang dah feymes to show up in the middle of the majlis.

wait. owh, the review of the movie. ehehe. sucks. the sequel can never be as good as the first one. humour? okay la. corny still. but the development, err.. bosan actually. but the ending, err.. okay la. haha. out of 5, i give it about 2.3.

after the movie, we went to see mom kat Jusco. had lunch. salmon teriyaki. then i scored two shoujos; Keajaiban Kurumi & Kelayakan Cinderella. actually, i bought another 2 yesterday; Black & White and Koleksi Bakat Baru something~ (which i regret buying) lol~ i read Kelayakan Cinderalla last sem, i just bought it for my personal collection. ^^

will insert some picture here later.

till then, ja-neyh~ ^^

Jittery nk Holiday.

tadaima~ hehek!
feels so good to be in melaka. ^^

my dad picked me up at casa around 5pm tadi. hehe. terharu jugak cuz dah lame papa x berbuat demikian. then, papa cakap mama nak makan crispy popiah. fyi, bende tu x de kat melaka. so, papa kate nk stop by Alamanda Putrajaya. "ala, kat Sunway pun ade jugak," ujarku nk mengumpan papa ke Sunway Pyramid. obviously, my proposal was rejected. jalan banyak jem wor. suddenly teringat tajuk letter for ESL; Re: Congestion in Subang Jaya.

so, we decided take an alternative route. rasenye, bro used that route once before. but being the helpless hopeless no-sense-of-direction person i am, memang x dapat nk recall la jalan mane. then again, today must be my lucky day. naseb baek x sesat. bangga diri dengan kebolehan instinct ku. takowt jugak kalo jadi macam Ryoga dalam Ranma 1/2.

upon arriving at Alamanda, my not-so-lil-o-brother mengadu perutnyer berochestra. dakara, we headed for the food court. he ordered a tenpanyakki set, while my dad went for le feymes popiah. honestly, i don't get what so special about le popiah. obviously because i'n not a fan of veggie. or nuts. or sengkuang. but i do love carrots - i ordered a giant glass of carrot susu.

makan makan makan, bungkus popiah for mom, and suddenly my dad said this; "ape lagi ea yang best/menarique/special kat alamanda nie ea?" my ans: kedai kasut, big apple, famous amos, baskin robin.. my dad: "jom la pegi beli famous amos," - like euphoric music of heaven to my ears. bought 400 grams of them. never bought that much since le skaterboy incident. then, my dad pusing2 and saw le ice cream section. heks. my dad tetibe nak ice cream. die suh pilih sowang satu, but i prefer to share it with my bro. haha~ we picked the weird baby blue flavour. XP

then, we headed to melaka~ wee.. my dad kate esok nk gi jalan2.. he scored 3 tickets for le premier of Night at le Museum 2. too bad mom can't come with. she's having this Nurses Day celebr8ion tomorrow.

can't shake the feeling that we're drifting apart. T_T

these are le objectives that are to be completed by le hols :

• complete le gothermal physic assignment
• be ready for le ESL presentation
• make my mom a tad happy
• finish at least 5 mangas
• to be skinnier that awek die
• drive around melaka

geh. seeing how much i whallaped those cookies, i don't think the 2nd last objective is easy to achieve. =_="

thinks chocolate chip cookies are over-rated. prefers oatmeal raisins now.

Jittery nk Holiday.

tadaima~ hehek!
feels so good to be in melaka. ^^

my dad picked me up at casa around 5pm tadi. hehe. terharu jugak cuz dah lame papa x berbuat demikian. then, papa cakap mama nak makan crispy popiah. fyi, bende tu x de kat melaka. so, papa kate nk stop by Alamanda Putrajaya. "ala, kat Sunway pun ade jugak," ujarku nk mengumpan papa ke Sunway Pyramid. obviously, my proposal was rejected. jalan banyak jem wor. suddenly teringat tajuk letter for ESL; Re: Congestion in Subang Jaya.

so, we decided take an alternative route. rasenye, bro used that route once before. but being the helpless hopeless no-sense-of-direction person i am, memang x dapat nk recall la jalan mane. then again, today must be my lucky day. naseb baek x sesat. bangga diri dengan kebolehan instinct ku. takowt jugak kalo jadi macam Ryoga dalam Ranma 1/2.

upon arriving at Alamanda, my not-so-lil-o-brother mengadu perutnyer berochestra. dakara, we headed for the food court. he ordered a tenpanyakki set, while my dad went for le feymes popiah. honestly, i don't get what so special about le popiah. obviously because i'n not a fan of veggie. or nuts. or sengkuang. but i do love carrots - i ordered a giant glass of carrot susu.

makan makan makan, bungkus popiah for mom, and suddenly my dad said this; "ape lagi ea yang best/menarique/special kat alamanda nie ea?" my ans: kedai kasut, big apple, famous amos, baskin robin.. my dad: "jom la pegi beli famous amos," - like euphoric music of heaven to my ears. bought 400 grams of them. never bought that much since le skaterboy incident. then, my dad pusing2 and saw le ice cream section. heks. my dad tetibe nak ice cream. die suh pilih sowang satu, but i prefer to share it with my bro. haha~ we picked the weird baby blue flavour. XP

then, we headed to melaka~ wee.. my dad kate esok nk gi jalan2.. he scored 3 tickets for le premier of Night at le Museum 2. too bad mom can't come with. she's having this Nurses Day celebr8ion tomorrow.

can't shake the feeling that we're drifting apart. T_T

these are le objectives that are to be completed by le hols :

• complete le gothermal physic assignment
• be ready for le ESL presentation
• make my mom a tad happy
• finish at least 5 mangas
• to be skinnier that awek die
• drive around melaka

geh. seeing how much i whallaped those cookies, i don't think the 2nd last objective is easy to achieve. =_="

thinks chocolate chip cookies are over-rated. prefers oatmeal raisins now.

an update - of the past.

yay! today, i'm officially freed from my 2nd sem exam. but i can't really say i did my best. but somehow, i don't think it's gonna get any better than that. wahaha. i wish i had bigger brains. more neurons, more geeky - i don't personally think that my brain size is the cause of my lame grades though. =P

satrting tomorrow, i get to sleep as much as i want. wherever, whenever. best, best. sleeping is indeed my hobby. 2 weeks of holiday are gonna be spend just for that. oopps. Is Geothermal Energy a Viable Energy Source? assignment physics jangan dilupakan. tapi rasenye akan dilupekan juga la ondeway. mama, jadi x nk pegi langkawi nie? XD

other than sleeping, i think i'll be catching up with my long lost friends. reunion? possibly. truthfully, i haven't been seeing most of them since the day SPM result came out. social networking tu adew la. face to face? erk.

teringat la zaman mude2 dulu..

SMK bukit baru. sekarang dh x wujud sebab dh tukar nama. SMK bukit beruang. the only reason i stayed in this school is because there weren't any other school that is closer to home and for the fact that i simply can't stand living in the asrama. wahaha~ both of the reason mentioned is kinda like the 'pushing factors'. the 'pulling factors'? owh,my totally hot senior is there too - not. sesungguh-nyer the music club of that school yang kick-ass made me stayed. for real.

i miss le gamelan team. i miss polishing those caklempong bonangs with you guys. i miss lifting all of those equipment for the shows. wahhhh~~~~~~~

kalau betul la nk buat reunion. err. i miss you guys.


p/s tu bukan baju gamelan kitorang. itu baju tido. ahaha~

an update - of the past.

yay! today, i'm officially freed from my 2nd sem exam. but i can't really say i did my best. but somehow, i don't think it's gonna get any better than that. wahaha. i wish i had bigger brains. more neurons, more geeky - i don't personally think that my brain size is the cause of my lame grades though. =P

satrting tomorrow, i get to sleep as much as i want. wherever, whenever. best, best. sleeping is indeed my hobby. 2 weeks of holiday are gonna be spend just for that. oopps. Is Geothermal Energy a Viable Energy Source? assignment physics jangan dilupakan. tapi rasenye akan dilupekan juga la ondeway. mama, jadi x nk pegi langkawi nie? XD

other than sleeping, i think i'll be catching up with my long lost friends. reunion? possibly. truthfully, i haven't been seeing most of them since the day SPM result came out. social networking tu adew la. face to face? erk.

teringat la zaman mude2 dulu..

SMK bukit baru. sekarang dh x wujud sebab dh tukar nama. SMK bukit beruang. the only reason i stayed in this school is because there weren't any other school that is closer to home and for the fact that i simply can't stand living in the asrama. wahaha~ both of the reason mentioned is kinda like the 'pushing factors'. the 'pulling factors'? owh,my totally hot senior is there too - not. sesungguh-nyer the music club of that school yang kick-ass made me stayed. for real.

i miss le gamelan team. i miss polishing those caklempong bonangs with you guys. i miss lifting all of those equipment for the shows. wahhhh~~~~~~~

kalau betul la nk buat reunion. err. i miss you guys.


p/s tu bukan baju gamelan kitorang. itu baju tido. ahaha~

onegai?

creep. :P
aku ade terbace alkisah hidup ku ini dalam sebuah shoujo manga.
tapi sayang, hidup nie bukannye sebuah shoujo manga kan?

just when i thought my highschool life has ended.

can someone send him a memo?

cepat sebelum aku beli patung vodoo.

dah. esl x siap lagi.

onegai?

creep. :P
aku ade terbace alkisah hidup ku ini dalam sebuah shoujo manga.
tapi sayang, hidup nie bukannye sebuah shoujo manga kan?

just when i thought my highschool life has ended.

can someone send him a memo?

cepat sebelum aku beli patung vodoo.

dah. esl x siap lagi.

anda. saya. di bawah payung yang sama.

alah. biarla aku dengan 'kebahagiaan' palsu ku.
padahal baru je tadi aku mengarut kat blog nie.
cute kn video tu?
kalo rajin tengok la.
tapi rasenye x de yg rajin kowt. :p

wah. nk berangan lagi. nk berangan lagi.
rindu pulak kat microwave casa.

"mana cool kalo laki jalan bawak payung!~"

anda. saya. di bawah payung yang sama.

alah. biarla aku dengan 'kebahagiaan' palsu ku.
padahal baru je tadi aku mengarut kat blog nie.
cute kn video tu?
kalo rajin tengok la.
tapi rasenye x de yg rajin kowt. :p

wah. nk berangan lagi. nk berangan lagi.
rindu pulak kat microwave casa.

"mana cool kalo laki jalan bawak payung!~"

Mengarut. Seriously.

hyper! hyper! hyper!
suke! suke! suke!
weeeee~~~~~

kenape?
no specific reason..
honest!

currently searching for a new blogskin.
but still, mencari blogskin yg bertepatan dengan jiwa adalah susah.

today, i bought a new shoujo.
"secangkir teh karamel".
seronok melayani perasaan moe.
rupe-rupenye banyak juga koleksi Usami Maki yang dh dibeli.
semuanya comel-comel belaka.

tadi sempat berangan juga.
how would lyfe be if i'm with a rockstar?
---------> ARASHI; PARADISE KISS
arashi, kissu-shite?
KYaa!~~~ ♥o♥

intan is feeling like she's gonna blow a fuse.
but not into a fire of rage,
but into the fire of moe.
pelik.
i thought fuses burn, not blow.
but the fact that i'm referring to myself as a third person is way weirder.

i love my blog.
rambling without a point is fun.
rasenye 'die' x de blog.
kalo ade pun, mesti penuh dengan bende2 mengarut.
like my blog jugak la kire.

i pity 'him' sometimes.
x pasal2.
it's like my whole world revolves around 'him'
without 'him' having a clue about anything.
i'm such a typical fangirl. (pointing out the obvious)

i have 2 birthmarks.
one is on my back, one is on my right knee.
on top of that, i have 3 tahi lalat on my right foot.
oleh kerane itu, saye suke sepak orang.

mengarut-nyer.
tapi x la se'mengarut' kuiz facebook.
ye ke? rase-nye nie lagi mengarut.
maafkan intan kerane kamu terpaksa membaca benda mengarut di sini.

Mengarut. Seriously.

hyper! hyper! hyper!
suke! suke! suke!
weeeee~~~~~

kenape?
no specific reason..
honest!

currently searching for a new blogskin.
but still, mencari blogskin yg bertepatan dengan jiwa adalah susah.

today, i bought a new shoujo.
"secangkir teh karamel".
seronok melayani perasaan moe.
rupe-rupenye banyak juga koleksi Usami Maki yang dh dibeli.
semuanya comel-comel belaka.

tadi sempat berangan juga.
how would lyfe be if i'm with a rockstar?
---------> ARASHI; PARADISE KISS
arashi, kissu-shite?
KYaa!~~~ ♥o♥

intan is feeling like she's gonna blow a fuse.
but not into a fire of rage,
but into the fire of moe.
pelik.
i thought fuses burn, not blow.
but the fact that i'm referring to myself as a third person is way weirder.

i love my blog.
rambling without a point is fun.
rasenye 'die' x de blog.
kalo ade pun, mesti penuh dengan bende2 mengarut.
like my blog jugak la kire.

i pity 'him' sometimes.
x pasal2.
it's like my whole world revolves around 'him'
without 'him' having a clue about anything.
i'm such a typical fangirl. (pointing out the obvious)

i have 2 birthmarks.
one is on my back, one is on my right knee.
on top of that, i have 3 tahi lalat on my right foot.
oleh kerane itu, saye suke sepak orang.

mengarut-nyer.
tapi x la se'mengarut' kuiz facebook.
ye ke? rase-nye nie lagi mengarut.
maafkan intan kerane kamu terpaksa membaca benda mengarut di sini.