False and Fakers.

saw an ad on facebook, and due to its cuteness, i can't help myself but to click. so clicko i did. >< now, i have entered to a new world. the world of chibiland, where everything is like a social networking site, only in chibi version. click the link below to join.

http://www.tinierme.com

search for me plz. Genji1134

but one thing that annoys me the most, is that i can't find a decent friend over there. i mean, with everyone is too busy role-playing,how the hell am i suppose to know who's real and who's ain't? ><

who's bright idea is it to mix role play and networking. -_-||

Closure.

orait, okies~ i'll update my blog for u stalkers.. :P

SAM has ended. had tons of laugh, shed lotsa tears. overall, life has been good for the past one an a half years. i can say how grateful i am to be a part of J2. i just love you guys so much. i can say that i have indeed lived. before this? idk. lol~

i'll write whatever i feel like writing, so this post will be so fucked up inorganized. so, lol~

i checked out of casa last friday. i was packing up my things, when i saw how much stuff i have in my room. junks, but are treasures to me, and only me apparently. while SOME of us cast away books without a second though, i dare not. (though, i actually prefer those who throw them away than leaving them lying around the house, waiting for yours truly to decide what to do with them. -_-|| )

anyways, i did not throw any of the books, i just had to bring them home.

cleaning my drawers, i found some stuff that reminds me of things. lol. i found Razi's bookmark, Zaty's broken spoon, straw from the Sukaneka thing, and a few other things. i really can't throw 'junks' away. xP so, i'll make a shrine for those stuff later, like what i did before for my primary school days. since i can't throw anything away, i ended up having to make three trips up and down the elevator (with a Mydin trolley) just to send my stuff to the car. imagine how much stuff there wuz. -_-|| (damnit. bad english.)

owh. might as well mention th PD trip with J2. saiko desu!. 3 days and 2 nights, seaside view and 24 hours of to-get-her-ness. xD mafia wars. i nominate helma as the best actress. i can believe how different people would act when they're lying. it's certainly amusing to watch. certainly good info when i'm analysing my next specimen. lol don't mind what i just said. here's a pic of my Karya Agung. :D



more than 50 sandballs bebeh.

owh. prom. yeah. prom wuz a blast. too bad the person i really want to see in a tux wasn't there. TT3TT things left unsaid, winangali left unsigned. will there be hope? like i said, prom was everything i thought it would be. the shark fin soup is delish. bishies in tux were delish too. pictures? not here. :P

and i won a red sony mp3 walkman at casa farewell party. i was overly-excited because it was my first time winning anything over sheer luck. lol. i don't have good lucks that often, after i was cursed by 'that' person. so, i''m cosnsidering of giving it to my little bro, but then again, i heard that giving stuff that u won on luck means that ur giving ur good luck away. since i dun have much of a good luck, idk maybe i'll get killed in a freak accident. then again, i just made the theory up myself. according to karma, what goes around comes around, and it would mean i'm just making some space for other good things to happen. idk, since BROTHER said that he'd buy me an I-touch. still, idk.. the again, there's no harm if i wanna hold on to it until i can actually get my hands on the promised item. then again, the word 'IF' still lingers. ohohoho~

so, here i am now. stuck in melaka. there is no other place i rather be, honestly. if i were a Sim, the 'stir crazy' moodlet has sure to appear. i can stand being locked up in the house, but not with other people around. wish me luck with finding a job. other than that, my days will be filled with anime, manga, youtubing, facebooking, trolling, fangirling, etc. it's the only way i know how to live. :D

and with that, i declare this week: BL's week. dedicated to shonen ai, with a little bit of forbidden love to spice things up a little. :P

for those who do not understand wth i'll rambling about, google it up.

let your imagination run wild.
WARNING: MAJOR NOSEBLEED COMING UP.





~~~ROMAJI LYRICS~~~

kabosoi higa kokoro no hashini tomoru
itsuno manika moehirogaru netsujou
watashino chou fukisokuni tobimawari
anatano teni rinpun wo tsuketa

karamiau yubi hodoite kuchibiru kara shitaeto
yurusarenai kotonaraba naosara moeagaruno

dakiyosete hoshii tashikamete hoshii
machigai nado naindato omowasete
Kiss wo shite nurikaete hoshii
miwakuno tokini yoishire oborete itaino

sokubaku shite motto hitsuyouto shite
itoshiinara shuuchakuwo misetsukete
"okashii" noga tamaranaku sukini naru
ikeru tokomade ikeba iiyo

mayoikonda kokoro nara kantanni tokete yuku
yasashisa nante kanjiru himanado nai kuraini

kurikaeshitano wa ano yume janakute
magiremo nai genjitsuno watashitachi
furetekara modorenaito shiru sorede iino...
dareyorimo taisetsuna anata

yoakega kuruto fuande naite shimau watashini
"daijoubu" to sasayaita anatamo naite itano?

dakiyosete hoshii tashikamete hoshii
machigai nado naindato omowasete
Kiss wo shite nurikaete hoshii
miwakuno tokini yoishire oboretai

hikiyosete Magnet no youni
tatoe itsuka hanaretemo meguriau
fureteite modorenakute ii
sorede iino dareyorimo taisetsuna anata


~~~ENGLISH LYRICS~~~

A slender flame burns at the edge of my heart
Without warning, it spreads into a burning passion
My butterfly, flitting around it chaotically
Scales dropping into your hand

I am wrapped around your finger from the lips to the tongue
Even if this is something that cannot be allowed the flames jump higher still

I want to embrace you, I want you to tell me
That you don't think this is a mistake
I want you to kiss me, I want you to remake me
I want to drown in this moment of captivation

Every moment, it's harder to restrain myself
If this is love, I want to wear it on my sleeve
The "strange feeling" turns into an unbearable longing
I would follow you to the end of forever

If my heart goes astray I will be easily relieved
I feel the tenderness

That dream has never come again
There is no chance in our reality
If we touch, I know we can never go back and that's just fine...
You are everything in the world to me

Anxiety arrives with the dawn to find me still crying
When you whispered "it's all right" did I hear tears in your voice, too?

I want to embrace you, I want you to tell me
That you don't think this is a mistake
I want you to kiss me, I want you to remake me
I want to drown in this moment of captivation

I am drawn to you like a magnet
Even if I left, we would find each other again
I've touched you, I can never go back and that's just fine.
You are everything in the world to me

p/s i'll try to stay away from yaoi. promise.

and owh. this is my favourite smileyh from now on.


fuck.

(￣□￣*)凸

Demons and Me.

wow. wacky dreams. haven't got one since the finals.
hah. and u know me. always obessesing about my dreams.

i can remember the details, but for a certain purpose, i made a deal with the devil. me and others were somehow caught in a game, and each of the players were required to accept a demon of some sort as a companion. there were catalogues, or more accurately profiles of the demon who will be sent to us. i had a look at others, and everyone seems to get a nice, kind looking demons. (idk i'm just describing whatisee)

when i looked at my demon's profile, i realised that i will be getting not one demon, but two. and they look as creepy as hell. lol. i was so nervous that i started crying my eyes out. everyone tried to comfort me, but none worked. then, it is time for the accepting ritual. lol. the two demons suddenly emerges from this green glow of light, standing two by two, and i cowardly stand before them.

Me: "hye."

Demons: "hye."

Me: "erm, hye."

and the atmosphere turns awkward. then, both of them looked at one another and gave the 'wth is wrong with this girl' and giggled. and at that moment, i just glomped them. OMG u guys are so cute!!! i chased them everywhere, and they were actually running away from me. ahaha. i'm in love with my demons. fyi, my demons are actually Jasdebi from Dr. Grayman. it took me a while to realise that. xDDD

then. we became best friends. later, things so weird when they had this weird fetish about football, but i didn't care. i followed them everywhere they went, and they did the same.

the feeling of getting two best friends who will follow u to the ends of the world. (even if they had two be demons/Noahs) i hope i can experience it IRL. :)

Stops.

everything stops here. :)

i just realised i haven't posted anything on how glad i am that SAM is finally over. for some of us that is. :P i've gotta admit, waking up late in the morning and just laze around for the whole day definitely is the best activity after all the stress yadayadayada. i'm free. i'm happy. i'm scared. lol. i'm hopeful, but i seriously doubt that i'll make can make it through. i've tried. and i'm good at trying. controlling whatever happens next is something dat i'm not capable of. no one is.

nenek. i mish u. i'll be a good kampung girl again. i wanna spend as much time as i can with u. ^^

the end.

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sekian.