TRBZ initiation.

come one and come all!! i am proud to present to you~

TRBZ GIJINKA GROUP!!!!!!!!!!! XD

ahh~ it feels so good to be this excited. lol.

check here for more details.

so far, we have 2 + 1 (unconfirmed) members. xP i'm pretty sure we'll have lotsa members later. lol. (optimistic) actually, i'm letting the members to choose on how their costume should be, as long as they have the TRBZ hat, the choker and the dressy-part of the costume. still, i haven't come up with a boys' version. haha. maybe someone can figure things out for me? xP

this is a song about teru teru bozu i found on Youtube. xP



Teru-teru-bōzu, teru bōzu
Ashita tenki ni shite o-kure
Itsuka no yume no sora no yō ni
Haretara kin no suzu ageyoTeru-teru-bōzu, teru bōzu
Ashita tenki ni shite o-kure
Watashi no negai wo kiita nara
Amai o-sake wo tanto nomasho

Teru-teru-bōzu, teru bōzu
Ashita tenki ni shite o-kure
Sore de mo kumotte naitetara
Sonata no kubi wo chon to kiru zo

Translation:
Teru-teru-bozu, teru bozu
Do make tomorrow a sunny day
Like the sky in a dream sometime
If it’s sunny I’ll give you a golden bellTeru-teru-bozu, teru bozu
Do make tomorrow a sunny day
If you make my wish come true
We’ll drink lots of sweet rice wine

Teru-teru-bozu, teru bozu
Do make tomorrow a sunny day
But if it’s cloudy and you are crying (i.e. it’s raining)
Then I shall snip your head off

me thinks the song suits my yandere part. how bout u..?

It's About Time.

finally decided to be on facebook hiatus. but just facebook, anyway. the finals is in a month, so, yeah, sacrifices. because seriously, i haven't been trying that hard. i was trying hard, but not hard enough. so.

wish me luck. ;3

Nur Kasih.

not feeling good. not at all.

today is your birthday, and i just felt that it would be too cruel to pretend like i've forgotten. how the hell did a simple wish turn out so badly. i wanted to make things clear, i stood my ground and what did i get? guilt. seems that u haven't grew up from that circle of thinking, ea? i couldn't blame you, but u should know better. hell, don't pretend to be so naive. it's totally not cute when ur trying to act. i am not who i was once before, and i can't be sure that u are too. anyways, i'm done and i want out. didn't the cold shoulder treatment i gave u suffice? why are u making me giving such lame excuses? lol. i guess u watched too much drama. mesti tengok Nur Kasih. that is just so typical you. pretending may just be the only thing that ur good at.

ur probably better off with someone else anyway. cuz i'm sure better off without you. don't fucking pretend to say that u still have 'feelings' for me, when there's already someone else. aku x pedulik la. leave me alone cuz i dun want u anymore. stop messing my mind with ur lies. ur third class drama lies. stuuuuuuuuupid. stop pulling out tricks to make me sympathize you, cuz i dun think i've done anything wrong. in fact, why the hell are u acting so sad when ur so fucked up happy? don't play innocent. all the things u said were just texts. the cheapest kind, to boot. i hate typical people. i'm so sick of people like u. ahaha. it was just a simple text. all u had to do was accept the fact that i'm no longer there, in ur fucked up 3rd class drama world. ohoho.

pretending, in order to gain my sympathy. who the hell do you think you are?

i wish u a happy birthday, though. may u continue living in that corrupt world of urs.

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on a happier note, eh, wait. there's nothing happy. my college is starting tomorrow.

owh, there is something good about tomorrow.

i can buy and drink nescafe in the cafeteria. xP

The Chronicles of Bajet.

Excuse me for the random camwhore pictures. XD

i went to Taylor's Asaban Fest (once known as Taylor's Anime Fest aka TAF) with Nikki, Halim, & Ridhuan today. it was awesome! please quote me. (Ai Houseki) the bands really made the fest so much special, because to be honest, the booths there was boring me to death. =A=

cosplay cafe was cute. Nikki, keep fantasizing about Kira. XD

there were a few cosplayers that attended the fest, i spotted Wen, Beatbox, and a few others.. lol. they are crasie. they made the fest extra fun. extra, extra fun. me? i was sitting away from the stage, and occasionally blessed the fest with my super fangirl screetch~ ohoho~

owh, i met Mamoru-(sama). xP gave the kuih raya he wanted. Nikki was saying stuff like "is that his real hair..?" XD after that, i did a small open house. i placed the kuih on the table and in a blink of an eye, it disappeared. lol. there's this one random guy who asked for the kuih raya, too. FYI, it was just some over-sweetened Cornflake Madu. XD

ZEOLITE OWNS. i'm so a fan. too bad they're breaking. =="

after the band performance, we took a taxi home. returned to Taylor's around 9 for the matsuri. haha. lucky we didn't miss the final band. the matsuri was great! although, there wasn't any candy apples.. T_T but i got to drink my chocopepermint bubble tea! yay! i got a bread HP strap from the mystery box no 24, and a whole lot of snacks from the ring toss game. i was suprising good at throwing stuff. but i didn't get the grand prize, though. ^^;; the curry rice was delish! so gonna eat that stuff more, if i get the chance. Nikki scored a bread HP strap too, with two fishes from the fish booth. lol~

we reached casa at about 10.40~ Nikki was holding a plastic of fish. and i saw a cat playing cheekily at the carpark. i catnapped the cat and brought it to my unit. because of her cheeky-playful-mengade2, we unanimously named her 'Bajet'. xP

now, i've uploaded the piccies, Bajet is sound asleep on the couch, and i'm dead sleepy.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz~

Good Business, No?

ngyaha~ i'm here. in casa. early, no? nilah buang tebiat namenye. XD

today, i forced myself to wake up at 10 am (bajet awal la). after pulling an all-nighter last night, i consider it to be quite early for me to wake up. i wished i studied all the way thru, but i didn't. i end up playing Sims on my lappy until the dawn breaks. ahaha.

owh, i did get the ingredients to make the ambrosia. i used the ghost of my dead sim (Elysee Erushi)to fish out the death fish from the cemetary at 2.00 am (after fishing skill reached lvl 10) and my living sim (Sam Erushi) to seek out the Life seed using the Collector Helper (bought from lifetime happiness), train his gardening skill up to lvl 10, plant the seed, waited for 4 to 5 days for the tree to bear fruit. then, Sam, who is already a lvl 10 cook, finally whipped up a batch of ambrosia for his dead fiancee, Elysee to eat. after that, Elysee was resurrected to life! still old, but she's no longer a watery ghost. i thought the ambrosia was supposed to make sims immortal, but when i feed it to Sam, he still ages. he is now a withered old dude.

NOW. WHO SAID GAMES ARE JUST SIMPLE AND FUN?

by the way, the son of the Erushi family, Gavin Erushi done well at school, managed to get in the honour roll and grew up to be a fine young adult. however, he faces a grave conflict. His mom wants him to be a criminal mastermind, while the father wants him to be a scientist. wow. good luck Gavin. sucks to be you.

at least someone out there is suffering thru life choices. ^^

i'm writing about the life of my sims because honestly, i didn't do anything much for the day. owh, Nikki stopped by my unit, fed me some cookies and stayed a while reading shoujo. after she went home, i continued cleaning my room, and i had this sudden urge to go to Sunway. so i stooped by her unit and kidnapped her. spent rm15 for taxi, got there and stopped at Guardian, bought some stuff, and headed to X-cut. (because budget doesn't allow for A-cut Above.) waited for 1/2 an hour, and the barber told me the shop closed ady. WTF. went to another shop, lucky they still open. it cost me rm 45, but it was worth it. (actually, the barber cut it wrongly due to my lack of description, but WTH, i really didn't care as long as he cut away my anoying Juon fringe) now i look like a budak scene. WTF x 3

due to the time wasted, i didn't have time to shop. i hope business will all be well for X-cut.

It was totally. Corny.

this is what i get for being a coward. =="

yesterday was the official 'beraya'ing day for my family, and strictly for family members only. actually, i dun really care because i dun have much friends around here XD

(that is obviously a lie. actually none of them actually invited me to go to their houses.
i wonder why..)

so, there i was, stuck inside the family car. i dun really like visiting people, so i was kinda 'emo'ish. yup. fake smiles all the way to Kuala Pilah. owh, and for those who don't know, Kuala Pilah is somewhere in Negeri 9. it's not too far a way from Melaka, but the road, OMG the road along the way is fucking murderous! it's like a drift junky paradise! i get carsick quite easily, and the funky new car smell do not help at all.

on the way back, i just can't put up with the winding road of Kuala Pilah, so i went zzzz. the car smell, the insanely strong ac gave me weird dreams. zzzz.

it was raining. i was inside the house doing nothing. i was craving for JJ's baked sweet potatoes. i heard the bell ring. went outside and i saw him, holding a bag of baked sweet potatoes right outside my house. i couldn't see his face, but i was sure it was him. who else could have worn that white cap? XD

yup. it was a corny dream. i woke up and thought, "what the hell did it ate just now?" i wanted to hit my head hard on the car window to forget about the dream, but then my dad would ask too many question, and i dun feel like answering, so i didn't. owh, my mum would call the psychiatric ward too if i did. in the end, i just sat in the backseat, forced to remember my past sins. lol.

then, it happen. the radio was playing that song. on that particular day, on that particular moment, the damn DJ decided to play that song. that song is so fucking corny! what the hell~ what the hell~ what the hell~ i wanted to get out of the car!!! XD thank god that i've reached home ady. i ran inside and hid my head somewhere inside the comforter on my bed. i guling2 for a while; thinking about how i should've come clean with him. then i went outside (forced) because some inconsiderate people just don't have enuff common sense to know the appropriate time to come beraya. haiz~ =="

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i woke up the next morning, and there was a missed call on my phone.
guess who? =P

but i didn't do anything though. i was too lazy to get myself mixed up with that shit again. :3

It Will.

once again, i threw myself in a deep confusion. haiz~

first time raye x de abang. T3T

my brother left for Brussels early this year. owh, with his wife and my little niece, which i would careless about. serious. brother complex much? maybe. i was the little girl who would wait patiently for her brother to come home from boarding school. yup. i was the girl who would have shouted "Oniichan! oniichan~!" back then. lolz. no matter how tired he would be, he would still find sometime to play with me. hoho. actually, i would pester him until he plays with me, but i dun think such details matter.

"iya rindu kat boonat."

yesterday, my brother called kampung and all of us (his siblings + mama + papa) got to talk to him. it was awfully sad. my eyes were tearing up like crazy. i didn't have anything much to say to him (like always) and he ended up giving me lame advices that i heard a thousand times. probably gonna hear it a thousand times more. after all the drama had ended, i crawled my way up to my secret spot were my nenek always put all the matresses. there, i cried my heart out. sengal kan?

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i've noticed for a while now that i'm quite possessive. i hold dearly many things in life, and i hate changes. at first, i thought that i was only kidding myself, but it turns out that i truly am, and obsessive person. which is weird because i dun look like it. kan? =_="

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i hated when my brother got married. hated it. hating it. kirai. i want things to be as what it used to be. no outsiders. just us. one family. a family that i hold dear. and i wish my sister would never get married too. lolz. i know. this sounds childish. but i don't want things to change. peterpan complex much? maybe. i wish for time to stop. i wish tomorrow would never come. the future is scary. it is uncertain. insecurity. i'm falling apart.

i keep lotsa junk. i keep it in a special box to remind myself of the past memories. the memories which i hold so dearly. i keep stuff on my laptop, too. things such as screenshots, pictures, songs.. pictures.. ahaha.. pictures are fun. pictures are funny. somehow, today, i deleted all of those precious memories from my laptop without any second thought. i got bored of them. i kept a few. and those few pictures, i wonder, how long am i gonna keep them?

"am i a liar? am i a hypocrite?"

although those are a part of me, i erased them without hesitate. not just computer files. i erased people, too. my past friends. to be honest, i dun really wanna see them again. when i walked out of a place, i want to carry only the memories. i dun want to be talked about. let me leave. forget me. until today, i dun really have a clue of why i must do that. i talk about preserving memories, but at the same time, i am also the one who threw them away. my memories are mine to keep, and u can't have them. i dunno what i should do. it frustrates me even more when i realised that my life can end at anytime, and all of those memories, won't mean a thing. cruel.

the life that i hold dear. it will be alright.

the Haunting.

my past sins have come to get me. XD

i'm ignoring my facebook friend requests. i know ur reading this. haha. i'm sorry, but can u just leave me alone? i really don't wanna have anything to do with you. no. i don't even wanna be friends. the thought of you browsing through my pictures freaks me out even more. so, like i said.

LEAVE ME ALONE>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

i hate my birthday. t'was lame. lame. lame. lame. i didn't even get myself a cake. which is more pathetic because i'm not suppose to be getting a cake for myself. i hate those birthday wishes just i dun want to grow up. i hate it with all my heart. and, i hate the fact that all of my past sins have come to wish me a happy birthday.

my 19th birthday is the worst. XD

lol. my past sins. leave me alone. there's a reason for me to ignore you for the last 2 years. i just don't want to have anything to do with u anymore. in fact, i hate all who tries to get close to me. don't come near me. haha. i'll bite ur head off. dun chase after me. ngyaaa~

damn stalkers. stalk properly. dun give me shame. jangan menconteng arang ke muka saye.

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~

Disregarded.

i'm sorry my blog. i've been neglecting you since August.

but it goes to show that i dun really have much time to blog, as i'm spending more time, erm, "studying"? ngyaha~ but sometime, i do feel that i dun really put much effort in my studies - partly due to the fact that i'm already tired. i'm sick of studying as i always end up getting useless results. ahaha.

"blaja x blaja same jew."

owh, i hate that phrase. work harder, intan! do it for the money. do it for the love. do it for all the things that you love in the world. honestly, i can't imagine how life would be if i flunk this one out. hmm. maybe it'll b the end of me. maybe i'll go insane. ahaha. emo depressed me locking herself in her room and talks to no one. haha. strangely enough, i can imagine myself in that situation without any problem. =P

"life's too hard. i wish i'd just die."

really? but i'm enjoying life so much. why would i want it to end? i'm happy to be with my family, eventhough i dun show much affection. haha. that's weird. a fan girl who doesn't show much affection to her own family. i love them, but i just dun show it so much. i dun really have to buy all expensive stuff to show that i love u, rite? but u always gimme the feeling that i should do so.

"i'm sorry that i'm not perfect. leave me if my existence bother u so much."

nobody's perfect. lol. but how come all those people around me seem to have it better than me? better grades, better looks, better lives. come on intan, be happy with what u already have. i know, i know. but it's just frustrating. then ignore them, ignore them. smile, even if it's a fake smile. dun we all love fake smiles? ^^

"come and take me away."

ngyaa~ kuih raya belum buat. how come there are less and less home made kuih every raya morning? hmm. i remember back then, when we had 4 types of kuih made for raya. plus 2 cakes. tahun nie? ntah2 sejenis pun x sempat buat. i wish things dun change. i want them to stay the same. lol. i do have peterpan syndrome. come peter. hurry and take me away.

"heart as efficient as a quantum computer."

i'm crying, but i'm smiling. i'm angry, but i'm happy. my brain holds too much thought at one time. if i dun act they way that i do, i'll break. macam mane nk tau kalau kau dh gila? people who think they're crazy ain't crazy. i remembered that theory. in my case, i know that i'm not crazy, so does it mean i am crazy? haha. slowly. slowly i'll be.

esok last trial paper. wish me luck. pastu raye! yay! ^^

Stalking. (duh~)

i'm stalking these actually.





almost there. damnit. hurry reply. =P

Kasut Raya.

this blog is dying. lol.
i guess i'm just busy/lazy to update.

it was my birthday.
to ease ur guilt for forgetting my insignificant bday,

me wants this.
me wants this for raya.
me wants this.
this is kewl.






bank in the money please.
i'll manage with 300.