VACATION!!!

the lack of it, actually. the only places that i've been to were : kampung mama, kampung papa, tampin, putrajaya, KLCC, jalan TAR.. haizz.. teringin betul nk makan angin jauh cket.

i miss the old days.

back when my bro was single. XD

Next week.

i've thought of lots of things. important things, as well as the unnescessary. and i mean, really, unnescessary stuff. let's keep that to myself.

i was too busy catching up with the biology human awareness essay. my research title? the Domestic cat is a Tautology. as a cat lover and an environmentalist, i knew that this title will suit me best. i gotta admit, i was rather clueless when i first laid my eyes on that title. i mean, what the hell is "tautology"? at first, i thought it had something to do with tatoo, but then what's domestic cats has to do with it? a tatoo of a domestic cat that will harm the ecosystem?


but after intensive researching, googling, whatevering, i finally got the grasp of it. but still, i am not satisfied with the articles i got. some of them were weird, and i even found a site where they're selling stuff to repel cats! like a bug spray to chase cats away, or 'catspray' to be more exact. hmm.. maybe the dude had some bad childhood memories with cats. XD

have you ever heard of declawing? i think that is just inhumane. i feel sad for those kitties.
why would a so-called cat lover forces those fuzzy furball to undergo such torture?

anyway, i've put on a new blogskin since the previous one was too damn slow. hehee~

don't cry.

even if inner tears that do not run down the cheeks moistened the heart; shall this fate turn into hope someday; for sure, the day when everyone could laugh shall come.

.....

while i was massaging his legs, i told to myself, "these were the legs that had never failed to walk me to school every morning, and these were the same legs that had been walking me home from schoool every evening". my heart was breaking. my eyes were teary. but i had to hide them. i know that if he ever see it, he would cry too.

I LOVE VAMPIRES.

*sigh* it's hard to be me. i have to fall in love with every single cute/hot/romantic vampire characters in every shoujo/seinen/shonen manga i read. i mean, what's a girl to do when she sees those innocent cheeky smile of a very HOT VAMPIRE?!! i always get scolded by my brother for making these weird high-pitched sounds everytime i'm reading online manga in front of the laptop. XD

oh sweet vampire boys. they had to live a life of eternal loneliness, cursed by their immortality. they were forced to watch the day goes by, seeing their loved ones die one by one. but did i mentioned that they all are really, really HOT? HOT + CUTE + LONELY = you do the math. this is exactly why my head kicks into high gear every time i read mangas. LOL~

oh, let me talk about several shoujo mangas that i have read. i've read '13' which was so damn cool! it was about a boy, who took an interest in a withdrawn, shy girl. the problem is, that was no ordinary girl! she came from a family of assassin for goodness sake!

and then, there's 'Koi No Kami-sama', which tells about a boy who has collected data from 1001 shoujo manga, but never had the chance to utilize it, until a new girl transferred to his school. the moment the girl introduces herself, the boy jumps forward and asks the girl out, in front of the whole class. talk about an awkward moe moment! just as he thought everything was smooth sailing, he learned that God Himself was standing in between his love and the girl.

anyways, you can read these manga for yourself to find out how the story ends. these two mangas are one-shots, so you won't take too much time finishing it~ now, back to fantasy world!~

is there really a boy out there who has read 1001 shoujo manga? XD

Orange Shoes.

hmm.. i was browsing for a picture of a carrot, and somehow this thing came about. it's a slip on shoe from Rocket Dog - Kitten. Sheesh~ i want a pair of orange shoes~ i wonder when duit MARA nak masuk. XD

Make over.

since i got too much time on my hand, i decided to tune up my blog a lil bit. i was kinda inspired by the song 19 sai, which is the opening song for xxHolic the anime. there's a part of the lyric that uses the black swallowtail butterfly that pictures something graceful, elegant, dark, ya know, like miss yuuko in the anime~ i like her so much, and i came up with another name; 

✖ kuRo-aGeha ✖ which literally means "black swallowtail". the full sentence should be "kuro ageha cho", where "chou" means "butterfly", but i guess "kuro ageha" works the same way too. XD

i tried to look up some layouts from blog skin. i was looking for something dark, with dark colored  butterflies hovering around,  but no luck. they were a few of layouts close to that, but some of them were too impractical to be used. some of them even gave me major eyesore becoz the fontsize was so damn small and some of the gave me a hard time finding the right spot to click so the post would show, etc. come to think of it, maybe i'm just dumb.

so i gave up on my search, and found me a cute design which features cute cookies and sponge cakes. it was too cute that i felt like "what the hell was i thinking" and  so i went to search some more. this layout, which i'm curently using right now, is one of the layout that i found easy to tweak. it's still under some work, but i think it's good to go as it is. the one thing that annoys me so much is that the comment link keep disappearing evry time i view another section of the blog. =_="

but nothing in this world is perfect right? just click on the colorful tabs on the right to view another section of my blog. oh, and in case the comment link disappear, just refresh the page ya? thank you~

ngee~

the PLKN advertisement is very entertaining..

it feels like i'm watching a musical..

cleaning the garden seems like a well choreographed dance,

and all of the trainees were singing happlily..

hahahahahahaha.

goodluck to all who were chosen for PLKN.

could i be anymore sarcastic?

r!tzy~

you're right.

Ikuta Toma is actually cuter than that guy.

XD

Attachment.

no.

this isn't about any medical attachment. XD

this is about my attachment.

to be precise, it's about the attachment around me.

no.

my hands and feet are not detachable also. 

so, what am i blurbing about?

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since my siblings and i have been raised by our grandparents,

we have become very attached to them.

every single holiday, we will visit them in kampung without fail;

including the last Hari Raya Haji.

nenek will always be nenek.

atuk will always be atuk.

i have silly attachements to ordinary objects as well.

remember Alvin? the seat on LT2?

the 7th row from the front, and the 3rd from the right.

silly, isn't it?

actually, i have a special box filled with stuff that i'm attached to.

the oldest item that i have kept is a red ruby necklace that my mom bought me during her pilmigrage in 1996.

other items include anything from birthday cards to chocolate wrappers.

and the latest entry is the broken piece of plastic spoon zaty used last sem. XD

all of those things remind me of any good or bad time that i had,

and also the people that gave them to me.

and then there's necessary attachments.

friendster, facebook, myspace, well, internet to cut short, is vital for my survival.

hot shower is important too. ( it's a good thing MARA sent me to Taylor's )

a good place to shop, hmm..

another obvious attachement that i have is to anime and manga.

you can even see them on my page.

how can i resist myself from looking at those cute bad boys faces!

not to mention my certain favourite food!

famous amos, big apple, secret recipe, baskin robin, rocky, the list goes on.

what  will i ever do without them..

and now, my last attachment.

my attachment to special people.

like my friends who are nice to me.

like my friends who care about me.

like my friends who cared enough to view my blog!! XD

special people like him.

he said he likes me with long hair.

so i grew it long, although i prefer it short.

i always joke around that i'll cut my hair just to mess with him.

but that attachement is long gone,

and so, i cut my hair to remind myself.

( jadilah macam citer orihime dengan tatsuki.. XD)

and now, it seems that another attachement is gone.

might as well go bald.

XD

hoho~

ok.. this is a random post..
when i was searching through this pic of Sai,
i'd encountered an argument about how GAY Sai's clothes are..
you know, with the stomach part EXPOSED..
haha~



then i remembered that an otaku friend of mine once sent me a pic of byakuya,
which, ehemm..
brought about a lot of question among the Byakuya die hard fans..
it's actually a screen shot of the shinigami illustration segment at the end
of each bleach episode.
some may have seen it, and some may haven't.
so, here it is :



yup.
Zaraki Kenpachi and Kuchiki Byakuya.
XD

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oh, i just realised..
10 december is actually a gay day..
=_="

Hot.

guys with ear piercing are hot.

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moe attack.

Jin-kun!!
why did u make Konoha cried!!!
OMG u guys are such a great couple!!!
she is sooooo in love with yoU!!!
how could u walk past her with another girl in ur aRms??!!!
warghhh!!!
Konoha didn't mean all those stuff about playmates!!
can't u see that she was being teased by her friend???
aren't u supposed to be a superhero or something??
can't u possible understand something that simple???
and what is up with that girl Tanaka??
u just invited her to live with u!
u gave her the wrong iDea dude!!
she's different from grandpa and auntie!
she's a 19 years old GIRL!
telling a girl that u want her to be 'family' means that ur proposing to her!!
maybe grandpa died to early to teach u those stuff.. =_="
it's so sad..
all u ever wanted is for someone to be waiting for you at home so u can come home to.
u want Tanaka to be like a sibling rite?
now u got yourself into this stupid mess with Konoha..
haiz...
now go and save her from those freaky monsters.

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Zetman chapter 89 made me emo.

just for laughs.

am i blogging too much?
huhu~
i have no life.
i'm like, a stalker without her stalkiee..
this holiday is too long~
the bio essay is long also~
haiz..
the only thing i'm short at is cash and hair.
hoho..
need more comics.

Satu Musim Untuk Selamanya.

well, this is the latest comic that i have read.

When Takumi's wife suddenly returns from the grave, he can't believe his eyes. As he starts digging deeper and deeper into the mystery of her sudden reappearance, he discovers a secret that is somehow linked to the past...and the future. Is it possible to experience first love for a second time?

Without question, the answer is yes!

this is the synopsis i found by goggling, and i felt a bit annoyed by it.
the cover illustration is a bit different (very different)
and other synopsis made the story so-not-dramatic.

to me, the story goes kinda deep, and i cried a bit at the end.
how the lonely father and son lived through hardship without a wife and mom,
how the dad loses his job,
how the son cared for his father during his ill time,
how the father handles the pressure given of by his mother-in-law who wants to take away his beloved son..
and that's all before the mother's reapperrance! T__T
most of the dramatic stuff happens when the mother's came by the way..
( don't mind me, i cried for the slightest reason while reading comics )
and it's not a shoujo manga, but a seinen.

i also found a beautiful poem regarding reincarnation..

"I died from the mineral and became a plant;
I died from the plant, and reappeared in an animal;
I died from the animal and became a man;
Wherefore the should I fear?
When did I grow less by dying?
Next time I shall die from a man,
That I may grow the wings of angels.
From the angel, too, must I seek advance;
All things shall perish save His face
Once more shall I wing my way above the angels;
I shall become that which entereth not the imaginations.
Then let me become naught, naught, for the harp string crieth unto me,
Verily unto Him do we return.."

- Jalal-Uddin Rumi

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who says u can't learn poetry from comics?

yup. melaka is too small.

to official end my solitary confinement for the last two weeks,
my family; me, mom, dad, and boyot went out.
we went to dataran pahlawan, then mahkota parade,
and stop by jaya jusco on the way home.

when i stepped inside jaya jusco, i realised something.
it's the holidays, and peeps from highschool are bound to be part-time working there.
GAH!! NO!!! i dislike them with great intensity. =_="
i saw a few of my former school,
and a dude who had a crush on me like 5 years ago and never let it go.
he scares the Crêpe out of me, but thankfully he was too busy entertaining the customers to notice me. phew~ (the new hair helped too~ XD)

we went to the grocery section.
i wondered around and remembered how hungry the cats were when we left the house,
so i grabbed a bag of cat food.
i was looking for my mom again, when i bumped into my older classmate.
"oh great.."
he took sometime to remember my name, but then all sort of question came about.

"weyh, ko study kat ne skang?"
"aku dengar ko amik ausmat, betul ke?"
" sam x same ngan ausmat ke?"

" blablablablabla?"

"sory, tapi aku nk cepat nie~ chow.." *with a fake grin*
i wasn't the only person annoyed him.
my schoolmate had practically shun him for the rest of the school term.

i finally got to my mom, and grabbeb a few things when i'm with her.
another good thing when on holidays : we don't pay for the things we want XD
so i grabbed a yoghurt drink, a tin of love letters and some ice-cream!
(i can't afford those along with my other groceries while i'm in casa =_=")

while i was waiting at the cashier, the worse became worst.
i was yawning from exhaustion, when the corner of my eye detected something..
it was him.
he was walking with the dude from the class next door.
and i believe this was the expression on my face when i saw him

he was grinning.

i was annoyed.

the last person i ever want to see here in melaka.
my first action; switched of my hand phone.
i knew he was gonna send me some tacky, kinky, corny messages.
and i just can't ruin my mood tonight.
i bought a new luvvy duvvy comic to enjoy, and let my fantasy run wild afterwards~

 

i got back home, unpacked the groceries and fell into fantasy world.
i'll post something about the comic later.
after finished reading the comic, i got curious and switched on my handphone again.

i new message.
opening..
"tak sangke dapat jumpe awak kat JJ nie..
kecik jgk mlake nie ea?"

these are the reply that i'll never send.
bodo. dh melake nie state yg 2nd terkecik kat malaysia.
memang la ko jumpe aku kat melake, kan holiday ni, ngok!
abis tu kat mane lagi yg ko bleh jumpe aku..

i switched off my phone and threw it on the bed.

but if i were serious of sending him a reply, this will be it.
"same ade nasib ko baek, atau nasib aku yg betul, betul suwey.."


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The origins of Ulquiorra

i found the pictures on deviant art, and then animated it.
kawaii, neh?

comic version

Gero~

woah~
freaky.
i dreamt that he goes to the same college as me.
i dun want!!!
the dude with the white cap.
have to watch out for him next year.
creepy.

on the other hand,
hehee~

*stalker mark*

FreedoM~

hehe~
i looks like Kak Dewi's family is going to putrajaya.
which means,
i'm free~~
i'm going out this evening~
weeheee~

love gangsta.

kyaa!!~♥♥♥

from my favourite deviant artist!

My Wonderland..

i watched H & C again today.
as usual, that story makes me feel..
something.
the feeling that makes you wanna scream.
the feeling that makes you wanna cry.
a few of my friends watch it too.
but none of them experienced the same side effects as me.
i may be over reacting, but..
i don't no.
the story just reminds me of something.
but in the end, a story is just a story.

i'm the one who ended up crying. =_="

Hot.

guys with wet hair are hot.

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past midnight.

i have nothing better to do.
since the last two weeks,
i have never slept before 2 am.
insomniac?
i prefer to call it 'holiday induced insomnia'.
strangely enough, i still had enough time to have very weird dreams.

last night, i had a dream about me participating in a bizarre survial game.
everyone was out to get me.
everyone had special ( weird ) powers.
i had my powers too, but i used it up while i was running for my life.
to recharge my powers, i met zetsubou sensei from 'sayonara zetsubou sensei'.
he looked a lot cuter in my dreams.
but then, i ended up being a part of his twisted class.
before i even knew it, i was dragged into a nightmare.

i was back in Taylor's, and everyone was talking about SSABSA.
at first i didn't really catch what the other's were talking about,
but then a horrific monster came.
that is SSABSA. ( the version in my dream )
the monster chased me, and shot me with a 9mm pistol but misses.
( i think i got that from playing too much GTA )

i remembered that they were 3 SSABSA monsters,
and, this is the part where my naruto obsession kicks in.
the three monsters reminded me of Orochimaru's, Jiraiya's and Tsunade's pet.
you know; a slug, a frog and a snake.
the snake was simply referred to as 'sukbanun' ( snake in arabic )

the snake was freaking huge, and i was so small and cute.
the snake kept saying that he'll keep me inside a cage, (i think it's a he)
so he chased me towards a construction site.
in attempt to lose the snake, i hid behind large steel rods,
but somehow, the snake tricked me and i fell inside a steel cage,
similar to a mouse trap ( the kind my nenek used to trap mondok tikus )

i tried to turn the table around and trap the snake inside the cage,
but it was far too late.
the snake rammed the cage, and i fell into a large, dirty, smelly drain.
i was thrown out of the cage when it hits the water,
where i met a watery grave.
then, i switched to a third person point of view.

i am now lingering over a dude, searching through the drain.
he was so desperate to find 'me'.
sadly, he found 'me' already dead.
but 'me' that he found turned into a cute chibi doll, with pink hair.
he needed that doll for an occasion. ( althogh i'm not sure what )
he brought 'me' with him, and told everyone that i could still be alive somewhere,
because he only found the 'me' doll, not me.

my spirit that was lingering him became very confused,
and thought really hard.
"if it wasn't me who died, then where is the real me?"

then i woke up.

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"right, i'm still here.."

p/s, SSABSA. i fear you.

5th.

hmm.
i think i've totally lost it.
the feeling i have is not the same before.
although, i suffered a minor injury on my head.

i did something stupid spontaneously
when my head wonders around thinking about him.
and somehow, it involves me bumping my head on the TV.
go figure.

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p/s, the TV's fine.

December?

december.
once upon a time, this particular month means a lot to me.
december is the official holiday month.
regardless of age, everyone put on happy faces.
the december that i knew brought me joy.

december.
this month is ridiculous.
i'm not seeing any of my friends this month.
most of them are still having classes;
but some of them, well,
prefer not to see me anymore.

december.
a lot of strange messages have been popping in my inbox.
and i mean, strange.
just the other day, a weird guy just called
and offered me to go to a pertanian convention.
my juniors who finished SPM are bugging me.

december.
my guilt is killing me.
should i call him?
probably not.
he probably wouldn't want to hear anything from me anymore.
i just wish he could return me those comics i lend him.

december.
the so called abang "**l" is at it again.
the guy who has no capability of being single.
somehow i feel sorry for him.
but not as much that i'm irritated by him.

december.
the particular month that once brought me joy,
now has left me in despair.

dyed my hair pink.

that is what i dreamed about last night.
maybe the boredom of staying at home
is getting to my head.

my mom is taking care of my sister in law for her 'pantang'.
since someone must be at home to watch over little umair,
i hardly got the chance to go out.
in fact, nobody did.

it has been a whole week since this solitary confinement started.
and it's gonna continue for another week,
for kak dewi's family from sabah is coming here.
great~~

well, let's look at the bright side.
i get to unleash my inner demon self by playing GTA most of the day.
throwing grenades and torching innocent civilians with a flame thrower
sure makes me feel good.

not to mention that i get to kick my bro's butt every time we play guitar hero.
the dude never learns. i gave him plenty of time to practice, but he still suck at it.

oh, did it mention that you can stalk people more efficiently via streamyx?

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p/s, no, i will not dye my hair completely pink.