This is a Self Reflection Post.

Okay the stuff that i have written about my housemates may sounded mean, lol but everything stated here about them are written through my perspective hmmm hmmm. so like, let's say that i don't live in the same house as them. they wouldn't be my housemates and therefore i won't be going through all this stuff lol aihh ehh i was trying to make a point but then it's okay la i forgot how to twist my sentences to make sense of things hmmm.

okay maybe saya tulis yang saya tak suka living in the same house as them. but maybe, like, of course, they don't like to stay in the same house as me jugak. BUT THAT IS EXACTLY WHY I'M TRYING TO MINIMIZE CONTACT OTL OTL all the stuff i'm doing up until now is just to make sure that i am not hated. but diorang pedulik ke? tak. >___>;;

anyhow, i don't hate my housemates personally. i generally dislike people who are my housemates sobs. see? there's something wrong with me la D: tchh social recluse social recluse. i should be a full time zashiki warashi dekat BSL ni. i don't like people living so close to me D; yelp yelp. a single room won't make much difference at this rate tbqh. i should just pitch a tent here at Forgan Smith lol and make friends with the ibis. here is a picture of an ibis.

ibis ni kawan saya. selalu temankan saya bila saya picnic sorang sorang kat Great Court.

ini pula 'the garden-gnome bird'. saya dah google, tapi nama yang keluar 'the long-legged bird' lol. reincarnation of Pak Cik Kaki Panjang kah?

tapi burung ni sangat pelik dan ada attitude problem. selalu temankan saya balik rumah pukul 2 - 3 pagi. they would stand really still like a garden gnome, and then tetiba je bergerak >__>;; terkejut la saya. yes. tengok lah mata dia. penuh dengan kebencian. burung ini species emo jugak ni.

okay dah saya dah penat merapu.

anyway anyhow everything anything is awkward.

but i shall continue write stuff about my housemates since they amuse/torture me so.

Stuff that I want to Write about.

it's 1 am on a Tuesday (Monday night lol) and i'm sitting ALONE (since Wheen left me sobs) comfortably in my awesome spot in BSL. with a fresh hot chicken kebab that i bought from Hawken. it's pretty chilly tonight. and it rains too. how do i feel you might ask?

like eating a hot chicken kebab on a cold rainy night la. completely blissful. lagi best kalau ada teh o panas yang nenek saya buat.

ah i can't go home since it's raining. i don't have my umbrella with me tonight so yeah. but i don't mind. i'm enjoying solitude. in fact, i'm enjoying it too much that i'm here blogging instead of studying lol why am i distracting myself >__>;;

ah gomenasai. i forgot to write about my short trip to GOLD COAST.

ye. the place yang macam famous je orang dengar bila sebut Australia, apart from Barrier Reef tu. somehow i like Moreton Bay better hmmm okay i shall apply for permanent residency dekat Brisbane ni kalau umur panjang.

hmm we're supposed to wait at the UQ bus stop at 8 am but i woke up late (after the pseudobimbo outing lol) so i had to run and reached there 10 minutes late OTL gomenasai how Malaysian of me. but but the trip is organized by all the Malaysian people pun, and so are all the participants. okay all of us kira nya Malaysian lah.

after a one and a half? hour journey, sampai lah Gold Coast. Alice, Mun Mun, Wheen and myself weren't surfing. Lina je yang took the surfing class. awesome gila pakai wetsuit *__* ceh ceh maybe next taim next taim. saya dah lama ada invisible surfing board. so while Lina was going through her surfing punya briefing something something, the rest of us attacked the sea water. it was seriously cantik ;A; it made Port Dickson looks like a miserable excuse for a beach hmmm =___= the sand was so white and clean and halus that when i ran across, there's this cute squeaky sound of cute little sand grains rubbing against each other lol. KYAAA the Australian beach sand can make kawaii sounds lol. then then the water is so clear and blue :'D aihh seriously i suck at describing things =___= kalau ada gambar OKAI FINE SAYA LETAK SATU HAIH

nak yang lain sila stalk sini.

 okai seriously we did nothing lol. just main main air. Wheen pergi tangkap this random ketam. Mun Mun got pwned by the waves. he scratched his hand on some rocks and he was bleeding lepas tu mandi lagi because he wanted to attract sharks.

Alice and I was uh, bimbo-ing la of course.

OH AND MY SUNGLASSES WERE SACRIFICED SOBS. awesome waves are too awesome.

salt-crusted and shivering, i took a quick shower and returned to my default settings lol. uhh and then we went to Surfer's Paradise. but since we were running out of time, we only had the time to eat lunch lol. ah my seniors pun sudah warned me not to buy any souvenirs in Gold Coast since it's expensive. Melbourne is cheaper katanya. hmmm then we headed home. slept tak ingat dunia in the bus lol everyone was tired hmmm. then i went home and slept some more lepas tu pergi library tido sana okai okai.

i went home after sunrise and missed the free BBQ that Sunday afternoon FML but yeah i'm content.

This is a 'Kind' Housemate Post.

i went home right after my BIOC prac. lolol DNA II belongs to a ninja. hmmm.

TODAY I AM ON LE COOKING DUTY.

got home and went straight to the kitchen. hmmmm but the kitchen sink was filled with the pots and pans from yesterday's dinner so i was like, "uhh my kind housemate, would you please wash the pots lol because you're supposed to wash them hmm >__>" BECAUSE THE SCHEDULE SAID SO.

FYI, my kind housemate was the one who made the schedule thingie.

but she said, "err aku solat kejap okai intan D:" so i was like hmmm sure. i washed to pots anyway because it'd be awkward to do stuff while the kitchen sink is in such a mess. ahh but it would be more awkward to see her washing pots and pans while wearing a telekung kan? anyhow anyway everything anything is awkward.

so afterwards, she came to the kitchen and said, "oh intan kau dah basuh? sori tau D:" hmm okai. i didn't replied lol because hmm >___> i don't know I'M LOST FOR WORDS OTL OTL. then, the conversation continues.

"kadang-kadang intan, aku takut nak bercakap dengan kau. kau kadang-kadang macam nak marah D:"

>__________> *tarik muka batu bata*

"kadang-kadang aku tak nak bercakap dengan kau." - omg saya tak tahu muka apa yang saya tengah buat bila saya cakap ni HAHA

"kenapa intan? D: susah la nak communicate dengan kau D:"

i shook my head. "don't. just, don't."

kau nak aku tolong apa-apa tak? D:

yes lol. help me masak nasi. i'm a bimbo yang tak tahu sukat nasi so yeah please D:

kejap eh intan aku nak makan roti dulu aku lapar *walks out of the kitchen with a slice of bread in hand*

................

FUUUUUUU.

Bimbo Unleashed.

ah this post is dedicated to my awesome pseudobimbo outing on Friday.

i felt really awesome when i woke up of Friday so i went to my 8 am class :'D i even got the 20 minutes earlier lol. BIOC is really awesome D: i love Susan Rowland. haih i should attend more lectures. okay okay next week i will try to attend ALL MY LECTURES omg omg.

i slept halfway through BIOL lecture though. bangun, pandang belakang and i saw Jon. OMG OMG =____= rasa hampeh gila sebab tido dalam lecture betul betul depan makhluk awesome tu. and that was all lol. 2 lectures and i'm done for the day. but then i didn't have any plan worked up yet. so i headed to BSL and like, went online. spamming facebooks in spaachhh enpahndahmant format and that was really it. i stayed the from 10 am to 1 pm doing absolutely nothing beneficial. oh yeah i was really bored so i put up this status lol and look look who came and comment D:

ah i dunno why but i really felt like a total bimbo that day. =___= was i always a bimbo? i don't know i don't know. so like, then i went home. i bake more chocolate massacres and put them in this little tupperware thingie and send them out lol. i was like an easter bunneh D: i gave some to senior and her housemates to say thanks for giving me her textbook D: GAVE as in FREE OF CHARGE D: then i gave some to Quia and Dazye and their housemates. no reason. i didn't want my kind housemate who is too affectionately in love with my chocolate massacre to whallap them all lol. that wouldn't be fair D:

and then i met up with Lina and Alice and headed to South Bank :'D yes yes i love ferry rides lol call me lame. we took the 6:10 pm ferry and the view was really pretty Q__Q twilight twilight. and like, we were on the ferry, and there was this train that passes above us. hmmmm Wheen wanted to take twilight pictures but i texted him earlier he said he has something to do. but when we reached there he called back asking as if he and mun mun wants to ikut. and of course i was like COME COME D: and they were like UHHH UHHH and then they said they we're coming. 30 seconds later he called back kata 'we decided not to come' lol wth =____=  mun mun said he has Luke with him so heavy la nak jalan D: and Wheen was too hungry to walk South Bank so they want to go eat ASAP or something. ah but it's a good thing they didn't come lol. Quia would be stuck in college lol. hmmm some seniors were chased by some drunkards. she tak berani balik and needed someone to escort her home. itulah saya dah ajak pergi southbank tak nak ikut =3= scary D:

eh wait. i kena kacau by drunkards too sometime in the past week. LOL OTL but we were all warned by the seniors about this when we came here so i didn't wanna make a big deal out of it sebab it's my fault pun. ah but my incident happened on a Wednesday night which is not a weekend so i just thought that it was my unlucky day lol.

BUT WHATEVER. i love south bank D: we got there quite early in the evening this time so we got to see the lifestyle market :D oh but before we went exploring, we went to eat nandos lol of course. hungry people are hungry. and then we jalan jalan. alice bought a sun hat. we wanted to get temporary tattoos sebab nak nampak cool pergi Gold Coast lol wth but segan sebab suddenly there's a couple of kids wanted to have the tattoos too. rasa lame so kitorang blah. then we went and watch The Mechanic :'D my first Australian (uncensored) movie D: we bought popcorns but it turns out to be 'garam's lol. Lina had this 'salt rush' eating those lol. POPCORN MASIN =___= oh wayang murah. student price was like 6.50$. murah la tu. jangan ah darab 3 lol. OH I LOVE THE MOVIE D: ada variety lol ehmmmm. autoeroticasphyxiation?

lepas tu konon  nak makan Max Brenner tapi malas beratur so we got ice cream instead. AND THEN. OMG. I SAW CHURROS. YA RIBBA. CHURROS. i saw those in Mucha Lucha on Cartoon Network lol. SO I BOUGHT. I ATE D=: SEDAP. LAIN KALI BELI LAGI OKAY BUT NEXT TAIM WE MUST EAT WITH CREAM AND CHOCO.

and then we sat at this random field and acted like total bimbos. HAHAHA. penat gelak gelak sampai cramp perut baru balik naik ferry hueueue.

okay the sun is up :'D i shall go home nau,

One Thursday Blues.

So whatever. gonna write a bit of recap for what happened during the week. how many times sudah saya kata yang schedule saya awesome :'D so yeah. most of my lectures would start at 8 or 9 am. SKIPPED lol. ah i am an awesome ninja. but i have lectopia (recording of the lecture) so i could still catch up with the lectures :'D at my own convenience pulak tu. lepak lepak kat padang makan tembikai dengar la lectopia hueueue.

OH I HAD MY FIRST INEDIBLE APPLE D:

mun mun sold it to me for 100 bucks. the old version punya la. did i got ripped off by that money whore >__>;; because every time i said that i got it for 100 bucks people would be like, 'mahal nye D:' wtf. but i don't mind lol i'm happy to have REN with me :'D oh REN is an iPod Touch lol. boleh la lepas ni saya tengok lectopia dekat padang depan Forgan Smith.
 
so my week went on without much of a trouble, apart from the issues that i have with my housemates la. I had my kickboxing class on Thursday and it was awesome :'D i finally get to connect my brain to my hands and legs lol. i don't feel THAT awkward while doing shadow-boxing. but Alice had to leave early after class D: so i took a shower, bought myself some cold cut watermelons and had a picnic by myself on the awesome Great Court. it was really, awesome D: then i went for my Japanese tutorial :'D it went awesomely. hmm. i should stay put in class and not attract too much attention.

my tutorial finished at 6 pm. i left class and i was like, hmmm. i didn't want to go home. i want to go somewhere. eat something. and then i remembered that i need to buy a whisk. so yes i need to go hawken. and eat too. hmm. i called and texted Wheen but he was busy sleeping. so i sat at this random bench near UQ Union and stare at people while waiting for him to reply my text or something. i sat. i stare. people were passing by. i must have looked like a real social recluse or something lol. 6 pm here is quite dark already. orang pun makin la makin sikit. i was starting to think about stuff, reminiscing. i don't know why but i was really sad D; i was close to be teary eyed. but then, i saw a dude D: he was sitting in a bench right across me, about 20 meters away? ceh ceh. he was definitely an asian, with bleached hair. ohoho oppa looks so cool. and i was staring lol. but dia jauh so he couldn't have seen me staring. and somehow i got the feeling that he was staring back lol. because at the time, we were the only one sitting by ourselves lol. he looked like he was waiting for someone. i kept staring at him for no reason at all. it was almost 8 pm when i realized that Wheen isn't gonna reply my text lol. so i had to make up another plan up in my head. i should head down to Acai (a newly re-opened supermarket closer to home) and buy the whisk, go home and bake stuff to calm my soul. i really wanted to give my awesome chocolate massacres to the seniors who i stayed with in my first two weeks in Brisbane.

hmmmmm. there's actually a very funny story behind that lol. so it turns out that when we were moving out, my housemate gave 50 dollars to the seniors, which in my opinion were a real sucky amount of money to give lol because ya lah, we stayed there for free, spam electricity, lepas tu korang hari-hari basuh baju, makan free, they even cooked for us. haih. but in the end, the seniors returned the money with this sweet card saying that they are happy to have us here. awww D; sho sweeet. so my housemate made this 'card' and wrote their thanks and gave it to them lol. funny funny. i saw the card. my name was written there, signature-ish looking, but i didn't wrote it. i didn't even know about the card until i saw it lol. so yeah at least let me give them the awesome joy that my little chocolate massacre could bring :'D

so after the bleached hair oppa left, i left uni too. headed for acai and bought the whisk. i'm a little sad because i wanted to go Hawken and eat =3= but it's okay. Wheen kata dia tido sakit kepala. ajak datang uni malam nanti 'study' but i told him i had Thursday blues. i went home (finally) gulped down ROCKSTAR and got to work :'D then saya pergi hantar kat rumah seniors and rasa awesome sebab rasa accomplished. hueue. okay that was my random Thursday story =3=

This is a 'Housemates' Post.

so like, my housemates got this 'schedule' thing worked up. i'm supposed to be cooking on Mondays and clean on Thursdays. fuck la. i told them i can't cook. and they know how i hate staying home, (i mean isn't it obvious lol that is why i hike to BSL every single day and get home pukul 2 3 pagi only after everyone is asleep) so why do you push these commitments on to me. YOU KNOW I HATE THEM. i mean, i could help out around the house, like seriously, i can clean. i'll scrub down the pots and pans that they'll leave laying around the kitchen. but jangan la melampau. pinggan sendiri pun lepas makan tak boleh basuh terus ke. kenapa nak tunggu sampai esok pagi baru basuh? BERLALAT OKAY RUMAH TU. and the waste management lol aih fail. i was the one that took out the trash quite a few times in the last week when it was starting to reek rotten smell of blarghh. i got kinda fed up lol so i left the garbage unattended for like, a couple of days, just to check whether my housemates have this thing called COMMON SENSE, and it turns out that they were really lacking lol.

maggots were crawling out of the waste bin, AND THEN THEY HAD TO TAKE EM OUT.

lucky i wasn't home >:D

but a couple of days afterwards, the garbage got icky again. so i took the securing band thingie and tied up the garbage bag. but i was rushing to class and i kinda forgotten about it. but it's okay my housemate should have some COMMON SENSE right? ah lol i forgot. they don't lol. i came home later that evening just to find that the garbage bag was taken out from the bin, placed beside the bin BUT NOT TAKEN OUT OF THE HOUSE. like seriously, what the fuck. i mean, they were all like lying all over the couch when i got home. SO WHY. WHY CAN'T YOU JUST TAKE THE FUCKING GARBAGE OUT D:

sebab leceh ke nak sarung tudung lepas tu keluar rumah? takpe. saya kan free hair, so dosa tu memang saya already tanggung, so agaknye korang fikir convenient la untuk korang bila saya yang buang sampah kan? >:D

ye lah korang kan pure. bebas dosa. sape lah aku ni.

yih. so i cooked on Monday. and i left the kitchen sink filled with dirty pots and stuff BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT IS WHAT THE 'CLEANING' SCHEDULE WAS FOR. AND SINCE I HAVE COOKED, SOMEONE ELSE PULAK LA SHOULD CLEAN. I MEAN, IT'S STATED ON THE SCHEDULE WHAT.

but i came home later that day and the stuff that i cooked was untouched. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK KORANG NAK THIS DAILY COOKING DUTY KE TAKNAK? KALAU DAH BUAT COOKING DUTY THEN WHY THE HELL KORANG TAK MAKAN? i mean lol yes that mystery broth i cooked up maybe nasty but I FRIED SOME CHICKEN TOO SO THERE'S NO FUCKING EXCUSE NOT TO EAT D; oh so the mess i left was all cleaned up. but not the untouched food that was on the kitchen top. I LEFT IT THERE BECAUSE IT WASN'T MY DUTY TO CLEAN D; the next day, my other housemate cooked but i didn't eat lol i rarely eat at home since I AM RARELY HOME D; and i warned them too, 'don't fucking cook for me D:'. on Wednesday i said something about making my awesome chocolate massacres and give it to the seniors and my wise housemate said, "bila kau buat nanti, kemas okay?" terbakar tak hati kau dengar. it turns out that they are holding a grudge against me for the mess i left on Monday. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK PEOPLE. i really can't stand people telling me what to do. IT IS IN MY NATURE TO REBEL. I AM REBELLIOUS D: fuck you lol i wanted to show her the finger lol. hmmm but it's okay. i am a very patient and kind person and therefore i can overlook their lack in common sense.

so come Thursday, i cleaned the kitchen awesomely. and this one kind housemate were like, OMG SO CLEANNN D: why intan why are you so dedicated? IT'S ON THE FUCKING SCHEDULE LA BABI I'M SUPPOSED TO CLEAN TODAY D: and she was like oh hari isnin haritu memang teruk la. lauk semua tak simpan D: THEN WHO THE FUCK WAS SUPPOSED TO CLEAN ON MONDAY and she was like 'oh that would be me D:' like whoah a revelation sial.

ah i know i curse a lot in this post tapi sila paham hati tengah terbakar walaupun this happen a few days ago lol.

ah and there was this one night hmmmm. my housemates are quite close to my seniors. i mean, I LOVE MAI SENIORS TOO D: they are nice, kind people. but it's in my nature jugak to decline too many kindness that people throw at me. so i distanced myself D: BUT MAI HOUSEMATES AIHHH OTL saya rasa segan tengok diorang. but they bonded quite well with the seniors and my seniors likes to come to my house for sleepovers. HMMMM. which means i won't get the living room all to myself D: lol no hmm i admit i do have a problem with people lol. i am not comfortable living too close with someone and that is why i dislike my housemates lol. and now, there are like, other people in the house. at night. I CAN'T FUCKING RUN AWAY. i'd prefer it if diorang sleep in my bed and i'd sleep in the living room ALONE D: seriously, I REALLY DON'T MIND MY SENIORS COMING TO THE HOUSE. I LOVE THEM D; but it's just that i have this issue with personal space D; so at least let me be somewhere where i can be out of sight D; go go and do bonding activities in my room i wont mind just let me be in the living room bai mai self D; lol. hmmmm

i should really utilize the balcony.

and again, usually i would buy stuff for the house. and not claim back lol. it's like, a payment to them, SO THAT THEY WOULD LEAVE ME ALONE TO DO WHATEVER I WANT D; like, i don't hang around much in the house, so i don't use much of my share of electricity lol. hmm so there was this one night where i finally got the living room for myself, and i was sitting down, MINDING MY OWN BUSINESS and i was really happy at that particular moment D; because because hmmm i shall write that in the next post lol but really D; i actually had time to sit down and not do anything and i was starting to reflect upon the good things that had happen and then i heard my wise house mate's voice coming from the room; "intan, tidur tutup lampu okay?" AND THAT REALLY KILLED ME LOL I WAS READY TO GO ON RAMPAGE D; hmmm malam tu ada la my good senior datang she was sleeping on my bed instead and yes of course i don't mind because i'm happy to be in the living room :'D so it's like, i don't kacau you in the room, so why the fuck can't you let me be alone in the living room. aku tak kacau tido kan? i mean my other housemates in the next room pun tak tutup lampu jugak.

EH SAYA SENSITIVE BETUL LAH BILA ORANG SURUH SAYA TIDO TUTUP LAMPU.

like seriously, leave meeeeee aloneeeeee. let me do what i wantttt. i'm trying my best to co-exist with you people by minimizing contact lol D; CAN'T YOU SEEEEE. okay lepas tu ada la kan satu hari ni. I WAS ACTUALLY HOME ALONE ON A FRIDAY D: so i put my iTunes on full blast playing well, songs. and yes there were like some heavy things in my playlist. I WAS ENJOYING SOLITUDE D: but then a kind housemate returned home sobs so no more solitude. but i kept my iTunes running. AND LIKE, IT WAS A METAL SONG WITH AWESOME SCREAMS AND GROWLS D; yes Lamb of God and Alesana and some other stuff hmm lol but then my kind housemate (hmmm this 'kind housemate' suka bagi saya sakit mental. the 'wise housemate' suka bagi saya hati terbakar lol) sang this:



PERLU KE OMG. AKU PASANG LAGU DEATH METAL SO KAU PUN NAK HARDCORE NYANYI LAGU PASAL MATI JUGAK KE SERIOUSLY GAHHHH

and there was this retarded 'sidai kain' duty lol. I MEAN SERIOUSLY. PERLU KAH D: SENDIRI BASUH SENDIRI SIDAI LA. IT IS REALLY RETARDED GAHHHH.

i've been trying to hint things to them. i'm trying to let them know that i don't wanna be a part of whatever retarded house-sisterhood they're making. seriously. do not want. i don't wanna be responsible for anything except for the coming internet. i don't wanna cook and i don't expect them to cook for me. i will pay whatever bills. i will also buy more food the house. look just fucking leave me alone. let me do whatever i want. let me be the ninja of the house D; please please please

// i really miss my kleptomaniac housemate D; she steals my food but at least she leaves me alone.

RoadBlock.

lolol wae i got blanked out bila this create post page loads OTL

hmm i really had a lot to say.

oh well. i'm in the library, supposedly studying. but i will. right now, i just have a lot on my mind. well not that much. i do have a lot of random thoughts going through my head from time to time, but ugh whatever.

confessional blog post lol.

hmm i'm losing myself. i thought i would be okay doing the stuff that i've done. and now the guilt is crushing on me. i'm grateful for my awesome conscience lol. it'd be bad if i just ignore the guilt and keep doing the things that i've done. BUT BUT. lol there are no 'but's. bila sedar diri dah sesat, sila lah kembali ke pangkal jalan.

i'm... taking a bit of a detour .___. *gets bricked*

Invisible Me.

have you ever hear people whine about how invisible they are in front of others? well i used to be kinda invisible back then, i mean really. haih okay let's just make a quick trip to the past.

back then, when i was in SBPIS, there was this one incident la with my dorm mates. it happened sometime during the orientation week i guess. we were like, grouped together for an ice-breaking session. so we did this ice-breaking activity. and then we got back to the dorm, and my fellow group mates (who were also my dorm mates) told my other dorm mates about how funny the ice breaking session was. and this girl was like, "oh budak A, Budak B, me and sape tah lagi sorang tu". the eff. the "sape tah lagi sorang tu" was ME. HER OWN DORM MATE. AND I WAS SITTING LESS THAT A METRE FROM HERE AT THAT MOMENT. that particular incident really left my self-confidence all crumpled up, thrown down on the floor .___. so yeah.

BUT THAT WAS THEN. A LONG. LONG. TIME AGO.

nowadays, i want to be invisible. i want to be available only to people who really needs me at my convenience lol. really. DONT LOOK FOR ME D; don't try to be caring. don't tell me how to live D;


I DO THINGS. WHATEVER I WANT. WHEN THE FUCK I WANT.

aihhhhh.

please. take my food. just let me live.

// lol i miss my kleptomaniac roommate sobs.

Imaginary Lasagna.

Ohai.

Mah hausemets hates me. Sobs.

LOL okay not that I really care. Aih. So I woke up today with one of them talking in my face. “Intan, kitorang nak pergi pasar ni. Kau nak ikut tak?” err. Selama ni mak saya pergi pasar pun saya jarang ikut. So I passed the offer. I don’t know when I’ll be coming back home if I follow them, because I have another outing lol.

“Then kau duduk rumah okay? Ada plumber nak datang nanti.”

Aih these people. Why are yous making me feel like this.

“But I’m going out later.”

“Oh okay.”

They left .The plumber was supposed to come at 9:30 am so I will leave the house before that lol just because AI DON’T FEEL LIKE SUBMITTING DOWN TO A COMMITMENT THAT WAS PUSHED TO ME SO CASUALLY MACAM YESTERDAY’S PUNYA LEFTOVER LASAGNA.


Anyway i was gonna meet up with Wheen and MunMun at 11 am but I wanted to go lepak at BSL so yeah I really wanted to leave early. But I took too long to get ready lol. So it was 9 am, and I was contemplating myself. Should I leave? I mean, I could just wait for the plumber. Then my hausemet called and asked me whether I left ke belum. So I said I haven’t left, I’m waiting for them lol. Then they suruh me to go blah since the plumber tak jadi datang today so yeahhhhhhhhhh.

I left home and headed to BSL. Tak seronok sebenarnya tengok berita kat TV pasal tsunami yang melanda kampung semalam. So I snooped around twitter to find some prime first hand sources. Hell no I don’t trust TV =3= then at 10:45 am, I left BSL to go topup my Go Card. I bought a Mars bar for breakfast :’D then I headed to the bus stop. budak 2 ekor tu belum show up. I sat down, ate breakfast, and swallowed a Clarinase punya sedara. Yadayadayada they came at 11:45 am lol.

So we’re heading to (Indroophily? I dunno how to spell =3=) to get Wheen’s Aoi.

I ATE MCD. WITH SUNDAE CHOCO D:

I had a chat with my brother yesterday’s night. He asked me how I get halal food here. Then he said, “from a person who had stayed abroad for almost 3 years, this is my advice; WHALLAP EVERYTHING.” LOL. He told me not to think about stuff too much. Just avoid mc babi and whallap mc chicken. Haih. But mc chicken here is non halal TTwTT kalau tak sembelih memang la tak halal. Isn’t that just like eating pork jugak?  D:

So I ate Filet O Fish .___.

and my sister sent me some random text message =3= she must be really missing me hueueue.

And then we went shopping :’D Aoi is very pretteh. I bought random stuff from Woolsworth. 3 orang bujang pergi grocery shopping pushing one trolley lol. IT WAS FUN SHOPPING SHOPPING WAS FUN EHEHEHE D:

then we took the train back to Toowong :'D oh and then mom called. she said she bought me a camera and an MP3 player :'D lol what a random thing to do. but it's okay i can live with random. the camera shall be Ryu and the MP3 could be Meia D: lolol.

oh and then i went home to an empty house. and i slept. and slept until my hausemets baliks. and then they slept and i stayed awake lol. saya tengok Metalocalypse 5 episodes OTL gomenasai i should have studied.

okay sekarang saya nak siapkan BIOC.

Friday Night Blues.

YADONGHOLIC FLOODS MAH YAHOO INBOX.

ah what an awesome, unplanned, Friday night. but then again, i still don't have a giraffe so it's not that awesome punya awesome. but it's awesome jugak lah D:

my class ended quite early, 10 am lol. i stuck around campus a bit but i wasn't feeling so good so i schlepped home. did some laundry and sleep like a log. woke up around 3 pm? my housemates were missing. it's good to have the whole house to myself. i got hungry and there was some leftover rice from yesterday so i thought, "okay i should really cook something for myself." then i looked at my injured finger. ouch. oh but i had to toughen up. i picked up a knife and started to slice random edible stuff. and before you know it, an awesome omelet appeared in front of me D: lolol i fear cooking so yeah this is a big personal event lol.

let it be known to the world, that yesterday, 11 March 2011, was the day I cooked for myself.

and i did it with two injured fingers ohoho.

oh yeah. then Lina texted me. we planned to eat at this Fish & Chips place in Hawken Drive, but in order to get the banquet meal, we need a minimum of 6 people. hmmm. so Lina, Alice and I were desperately recruiting people lol. then Lina got a hold of Chen. so we need two more people. then i texted Quia (because i kinda knew that she would be available lol) so we got 5 people weee~ then i texted France + Dazye but France said they can't make it. so i texted Wheen and asked him to come socialize but really, the crowd that we gathered for the sake of getting cheap food are outrageously awkward lol. at least that is what i felt =3= so i was kinda like, contemplating of whether i should ask Wheen to come D: but but it's for food so of course he would come D: but then he said he had something to do so OTL i need to recruit someone else. but Lina said she got a hold on Tiffany so yay i can haz calamari rings! :D

Wheen said he might still got and get a drink. i  told him that it's okay if he can't come because he'll be rushing D: i didn't tell him that we recruited enough people already so he really didn't have to come lol aihh gomenasai i didn't mean to sound so selfish and mean OTL

so i met up with Quia and headed for the campus punya bus stop and met with Lina and Alice and Chen and Tiff :D but but hmmm i called Wheen and told him that he really really really didn't have to come. like seriously, don't come D: akjsdklajsl.

and so we ate. yumm yummm nomnomnom.

then Chen and Tiff went home and teh rest of us headed to BSL, because saya nak online for a bit. so i did and MunMun was already there and to cut the story short, somehow Quia, Alice, Lina, MunMun, Wheen and I went to South Bank and get ourselves some ice cream lol.


BUT THERE WASN'T A GIRAFFE D: FML

Australian Cold.

i haz australian cold D: woke up today feeling like shit. rasa macam the guy in the Strepsils punya iklan. IT HURTS. it's like my tonsils are super swollen, and i can't even swallow my own saliva. but when i checked, it's not that swollen pun. i drank some warm water and it got better so i went to class.

ah class today was awesome by the way. I had fun staining real human liver cells eye cell etc. lol i hope we didn't messed up so bad. like, we had to keep the slides 'moist', but we kinda rendam the slides in water. well moist jugak kan? aihh.

so like, i went home. i took out my water bottle because i want to refill. i didn't drink enough water that is why i got like this lol. aihh i know, i know. but then i got so tired and i fell asleep on the couch without replacing my body fluids lol. i wrapped myself in this super awesome comforter, and when i woke up, aihh. saya rasa macam shrivelled daikon. so i schlepped into the kitchen, refilled my water bottle and spam water. LOTS AND LOTS OF WATER. then i gargled with some salt water but my throat still feels sucky. ahh what do you know? you don't have a body part that hates you lol.

MAI TONSILS. Y U NO BE FRIENDS WITH ME?

and so the whining continues. lol. so just now, when i was leaving for the library, i saw my roommate setting up her laptop and books and stuff in the living room. i was liek, aihhhhh. Y U NO STUDY ON STUDY TABLE? but i asked her, "sayang~~ are u gonna study in teh living room? because if you do, then can i have the study table for myself?" then she said like, "sure, kalau aku nak study pun maybe aku study atas katil je." AIHHH. why wont anyone understand me. I JUST WANT A SPACE THAT I CAN CALL MY OWN ASKDLASJDKS. can please lock myself up somewhere D: it's just that i feel like i'll lost myself if i spend too much time with people. ai dun want that. and as spoiled as it may sound, i don't like people telling me what to do. LIKE SERIOUSLY. saya tak kacau hidup awak so please jangan kacau hidup saya.

okay i whined enough.

oh i sent my mom an email yesterday but she still haven't replied lol. might hafta call her nanti =3=

Continues Whining.

OKAY. so i don't have a single room. fine. haih.

bukan takat single room, single bed pun tak dapat. and that is just depressing weyh. seriously. i wasn't really seriously about sleeping in the living room but now yeah i guess i have no choice. i'm not gonna share a bed with another girl. secretly, she snores too haha. dammit.

so yeah, i claimed the living room as mine. BUT THAT TOO WAS INVADED. well i can't actually keep people off the living room since well, it's a living room. WHICH IS MINE D: aihh but can i at least be the only one who sleeps in the living room? i mean, i didn't get to claim anything for myself BUT that place in the couch in the living room. my other housemates gets one single bed each, and my roommie gets a QUEEN-SIZED BED with a study table wtf? well i don't need a study table since i'll study in the living room but i'll indeed get piss if everyone else studies in the living room jugak. what's the fucking point =__= PEOPLE. LEAVE ME ALONE. I WILL COME FIND YOU WHEN I NEED SOMETHING SO UNTIL THEN JUST FUCKING DON'T LOOK FOR ME D:

lolol. that is the truth.

ah one of my housemate is kind of a weak-hearted person. she cries and tells her mother about how hard things are coming down on her. ah remember that one time when i was freaking on on facebook about how stressful i was? yup she was the cause of it. she'll cry if she reads this but well, i really think you should toughen up. we're almost 21 lol. isn't that like the awesome age when we're supposed to be awesome? well i'm far from awesome but i'm trying to be awesome D: tskk actually bila orang nangis nangis mengadu kat mak about how hard life is saya rasa tergugat jugak a bit. kalau saya nangis jugak sapa nak pujuk sobs. so please. at least pretend to be strong when you're near me lol.

but no. i'm not that homesick yet. i know my parents miss me and i miss them too but I MOVE ON D: i can skype. i can call them anytime but usually i don't have anything to talk about alksjdlksa and i was never the type of person who talks about stuff to my parents hehh. come come please buy for me a camera and post it to me so i can upload piccas D: maybe i won't feel so guilty then.

why can't a be a good daughter like Suzy sobs. i want to buy my parents a coffee shop juga.

but i'm miskin. i'm not a Kpop Star juga. aihh

oh our washing machine broke. which is awesome since we've only been using it like, 3 days ago? well i used it yesterday and washed all of my clothes lol so i don't feel that pissed off. apparently the washing machine here is so foreign and alien-ish to my housemates. aihh tak tahu la apa nak cakap. common sense please. i know i'm weird and freaky and all but my common sense works fineee. it's just that i usually choose NOT to follow my common sense. but my judgement works fine lol trust me.

so like, yesterday i went home (early?) since i want to know how my days would be like if i go back home everyday after class. i ned to know stuff like will there be people cooking lunch etc etc lol. i mean, i can't exactly say thati'll be home for lunch and dinner and not get involve with anything else that has to do with the house lol. i wanted to. but i can't. so i have to secure a niche in the house. i need to know when i'll be cooking, cleaning, etc. so i went home and take a look la. hmm. then i wanted to go back to college at 5:30 pm. but one of my housemate wants to tag along but she asked me to wait until 6:30 pm since she needs to pray. i would like to point out that aihh there's this place in the library where you can pray too. hmm so yeah i waited. then they cooked dinner. i waited. and i ate too lol. of course. then we waited some more since there would be people visiting. and in the end, i reached the library around 9:30 pm lol. ahh my precious time. i don't like people kacau kacau my schedule. I DO WHAT I LIEK. WHEN I LIKE. and that is why i'm a social recluse. I AM A SOCIAL RECLUSE. but i had to live in a house with other people in it SO I CAN'T BE A COMPLETE SOCIAL RECLUSE. but in my heart, i'll always be a hikkikomori. a romantic hikkikomori sobs.

i don't like people that are too caring. i need people that i can whine to but not care lol. those kinds of people are awesome.

this is why i talk to cats.

10 Things I like (For Now)

fuckkkk this place is awesome.

i'm doing very awesome and well here. well not academically lol. i skipped a few lectures here and there >__> but there's always lectopia. well i'd like to list down a few things that i like ever since i've gotten to this place.

1) The Library is Immortal.

BSL; Bio Science Library or whatever. heh. it opens 24/7 so i can come and camp here everyday. it's too bad that i can't download stuff awesomely due to this thing called 'DOWNLOAD QUOTA' D: it is some very evil and menacing that what invented by the UQ people to kill ninja pirates like myself. it is very sad.

2) The Night Sky.

Pretty okay. too bad i don't have an awesome camera. i should i ask my parents to buy me one and post it here hueueu. i enjoy the lonesome near midnights walks. sometimes i take the long way home just so i cold spend more time alone. haih it's hard to be a romantic hikkikomori when you're living with another 3 humans. i shall make another post lol.

3) Safe Place is the Awesome Place to be.

Okay i might get scolded by my parents if they know i'm walking home alone at night. but IT'S SAFE D: well i can give a full guarantee that no possums would jump out of the bushes and attack me, but seriously, this place isn't Malaysia. the people are nice. ah i know i don't sound convincing but hmm who cares about what you think lol.

4) The Uber Healthy People.

you can see most of the people here jog over here. ANYWHERE. AT ANYTIME. i walked home once and it was almost 12 am but i can see people jogging. well i know he's jogging since he was wearing this jogger-looking outfit lol. hmm okay i am convinced that he was jogging so who cares even if he's not jogging pun. anyway i love walking to campus since the hilly-ish landscape is good for my thighs. saya nak kaki Yoona please.

5) FRIENDLEH AND CUTE PEOPLE.

the people is nais. the people here talks exactly like what was shown in our primary school punya Malaysian English Textbooks lol. "Hi, how are you?" lol i'm having a hard time responding to that greeting honestly. well i don't want to lie every time people ask me how i'm doing, but i don't want them to feel bad either lol. aihh a template answer like "fine, thank you :D" would be kinda dull and unawesome. whatever. oh oh there was this one night when i was walking home with MunMun and and a cyclists passed by and he was liek, "Hey Guys!" and we're liek "O HAI." MunMun said that if he's in Malaysia and people were like tegur him like that, he would most probably run away with all his might. good point.

6) The Energy Drinks.

lol it is know to the world that i am a caffeine junkie. i lost count of how many Mother have i chugged down. (honestly i think it's 6). oh i drank 2 Rockstars and 1 Wicked. oh but i haven't drunk Wicked =___= left it at the seniors. takut nak pergi ambil. people used to tell me that Mother would keep them awake for 3 days but hmmm it's not working for me lol. anyway my favourite is Rockstar Cola.

7) New Place New Beginnings.

okay officially i've join 4 clubs in UQ. well there's this MQSA something that ALL MALAYSIAN MUSLIM STUDENTS are required to join so yeah i joined for the sake of joining. hmm i shall not add further comment about that. but yeah i join WASABI and SMACK, both are Japanese Culture related, which is awesome D: WASABI is more to a japanese speaking club while SMACK is exclusively for OTAKUS. lolol my kind of people? and i joined KICKBOXING weyh D: can't wait to kick arse awesomely.

8) Fuck la this Place is Pretty.

i love the scenery. i went to Stradbroke island last weekend. Port Dickson feels like a joke lol. seriously. i was like, appreciating life all over again. the place is so pretty ;A; POINT LOOKOUT WEYH. GO GOOGLE. memang cantik ;A; and the beach is so clean and awesome. the water is kinda salty compared to the normal salt water saltyness but it's AUSTRALIAN PUNYA SALT ;A; you can't get australian salt water anywhere else but australia. and and the wave is awesome. i got KO-ed by one of the wave aih there's no use describing this to you.

9) EVERYWHERE I LOOK IS A SCENE FROM A SHOUJO MANGA.

which i find very sucky since my virtual boyfriend is liek, virtual =w= just now i was sitting alone on the staircase in Forgan Smith Building while waiting for my Japanese Class, and i was like, omg bestnya dating kat sini. kalau nak gaduh dengan boyfriend dekat tangga pun nampak sangat romantik lol. and and we can sleep on the awesome grass here, under the awesome tree. macam Morita dari Honey and Clover. and and OMG there's a Ferris Wheel here too. and a ferry. which i shall ride again nearing to winter and go find myself a giraffe. fuckkk there's no giraffe D:

10) This place is not Malaysia.

Start.

okay my class was supposed to start at 9 am but i'm pretending that i'm in the second lecture stream, so my pretend lecture would be tomorrow at 8 am. and so today, my first class would be at 11 am, the only class for today.

awesome.

i'm bored so let me just write about stuff that i've done for the past weeks. well i can't recall much actually, and i tend to get the dates mixed up yo. ah maybe i should just write about the stuff i've done in the last two days. hmmm. why am i pressuring myself to write lol aih. am i talking to myself again? ;A; omg help me i need help.

i stayed back until 10:30 pm on the first day of class, which was on Monday? lol first class. remember when i usually bitched about being left out? yeah it is still happening. it turns out that when i was freaking out during the lecture/prac/contacts sign on week, most of my coursemates exchanges, like, EXCHANGES their timetable so all of them can go to the same lecture at the same time etc etc. how come i wasn't included =___= well i'm supposed to be in the same lecture as Wheen and Mun Mun because i consulted them for mostly everything but well they were kinda late for the sign on session and their time tables got fucked up. well my timetable is pretty but i are alone D: sobs sobs. actually i'm fine with being alone. I GET TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS :D

so so, how did my first class went you might ask. lol. i entered the lecture theater from the back door, 'the cool door'  i saw Chen Chen, but he was sitting in the middle chair of some rows of chair and i can't get to him so i walk past and headed to the back of the class, where the cool people sit lol. i sat next to an Asian girl D: i said hi and she said hi and i introduced myself and she said her name was Valerie if i remember correctly lol. yeah she's from Singapore okay okay taking marine biology science hmmmm. awesome. then there was a guy, he sat next to me. i could straight away tell that he's from Indonesian but he didn't say hi so i didn't say hi because i was shy D: from my seat, i could see some of my friends sitting near the front of the class. Dazye was with France, Choty was with Yen Kai and THEN I SAW JON D: he was sitting alone at the same seating row as mine D: I KNEW MY SEAT WAS COOL. then i saw Mun Mun but he came in late so he had to sit at some place random i don't know where. and then class started. BLABLABLA.

CLASS ENDED. i was still sitting at my place because i have another class right after that. then Wheen came and sat next to JON D: and i was still alone, with that Indonesian dude. he seemed bored, so I SAID HI FIRST D: then he said hi. i asked him where he's from and he said INDONESIA and i said i'm from MALAYSIA and then things got reaalll quiet. and then he got up and sat some place else. he hates me. and then Izzan, Afiqah and Kak Atiqah came and sat all around me. there goes my socializing opportunity. ceh ceh. then class finished and i caught up to Mun Mun and Wheen and went for our BIOM class. laksjdlskas.i dropped BIOM after that. please refer to the awesome post entitled 'I DROPPED'. hmmm then i had a prac session in the evening. i had Lina and Dazye as my lab partner. OMG THE PRAC WAS SO SIMPLE BUT I DON'T KNOW WHY I FELT SO NOOBISH HAHAHA. i was intimidated by the foreign AUSTRALIAN pipettes? D: and then i was hungry and i went to eat at Subway with Lina and Alice and then i don't feel like going home so i went to the library and stayed back until 10:30 pm. lol actually i wasn't planning on staying that long. but at 6:30 pm things got so dark that i was kinda like, scared to go home alone OTL gomenasai nak jadi independent konon blah la intan.

so i continued facebooking and doing random things AS WELL AS DOWNLOADING AND READING LECTURE NOTES and then Mun Mun came online and i kinda like, asked him to walk me home whenever he wants to go home and he said he's going back at 10:30 pm and SO I SHALL GO BACK AT 10:30 PM TOO D: lol i downloaded some random stuff to finish my download quota, and when it's 10:30 pm we walked home under the pretteh starry sky hueueueue.

okay it's time to go to class D:

Fred Responded.

Fred said he loves me too.

i have a house now. fully furnished. awesomely, fully furnished. lol i never got to see it with my own eyes, but i know Fred is a good guy. lol wtf. even forks and spoons are included. i guess i'll have to walk to UQ by Fred Schonell Drive, and go home by Carmody. lol why do i still feel attached to Carmody OTL sobs yes Fred should be really awesome.

moving in tomorrow; since i don't have any prac sessions in the evening.

oh i went to my first club meeting in UQ. SMACK D: lol. i made friends. okay maybe not friends. BUT I HAVE SOME CAUCASIAN ACQUAINTANCES D: lol. but no Korean acquaintances so far sobs. and yes my JAPANESE CLASS IS SO CUTE D: but my writing sucks =3= but i will manage. OF COURSE I WILL. oh i told my mom that i switched back to plant biotech and she was like, "do whatever you feel comfortable of doing." lol. yes yes i should really get piercings then lol. aih i know she wasn't happy. and stupid sucky (stolen) internet kept disconnecting me, so i can skype properly. mampus kena marah lol.

i should skype more with my parents when i get stable awesome internet.

I AM IN CHARGE OF THE INTERNET AT FRED. I AM THE WCM D:

web connection master. lol yes i made that up.

NOW I SHALL SLEEP BECAUSE I HAVE CLASS AT 9 AM. LOL I'M CAPSLOCKING BECAUSE I'M JUST HAPPY

WHERE IS MY GIRAFEEEEE

Next are my Social Concerns.

i am betraying my love towards Carmody.

no i still don't have a haus .___. masih merempat di rumah seniors. terima kasih my seniors. seriously i am very grateful to have you guys D: makan free. tidur free. spam air panas time mandi. kjsalkdjasl.

terima kasih.

i wanted that awesome house at Carmody Road. but then my future housemates found another house along Fred Schonell. so yeah. complete with a fridge, plasma TV, and a strategic placement near UQ, what more can i ask. for the weekly rent of what lol i can't remember, it's really cheap la. AND TEH LIVING ROOM IS BIG. yeah i can't get my own room so i'll make the living room my own. IT'S STILL A ROOM. A LIVING ROOM AKLSJSDKLAS. with the help of some room dividers, i shall make the best out of the living room lol.

i still want a giraffe.

fuck shouldnt have eaten that leftover subway from yesterday ~__~ stomach ache *guling guling*

I DROPPED.

ah my class starts at 2 pm so i have like some awesome time. i was supposed to have a lecture at 8 am today, followed by a 5 hours gap and go for a practical later in the evening. but i don't have to do any of that. you know why?

BECAUSE I DROPPED BIOM2011 D:

i went to the first lecture yesterday. yeah the lecturer is nais. and there was a short briefing about pracs. yeah. and then the lecturer flashes some slides. neurons. axons. dendrites. soma. =_____= no. i am planning to stick with PLANTS. but i do have the awesome impulse to switch back to MICROBIOLOGY. either way, i don't think i need BIOM2011. I DON'T WANT ANOTHER LAB REPORT TTwTT

so yeah i dropped .__.

AND I TOOK JAPN1013 D:

the class starts at 2 pm though. which is what i'm waiting for now. it feels so nice not to have that extra lab report that you u know you're gonna mess up. and my timetable looks so clean D: the 3 - one hour lectures and 1 - three hour contact session are replaced with 1 -2 hour contact and 1 - 2 hour tutorial. i am happy D: but now i'm contemplating a bit about my second sem's elective. should i take up Evolution or Microbiology? obviously Evolution is kinda more relevant to plant studies, but nghhh I WANT MICROBIOLOGY FOR SOME AWESOME REASON D:

and with that i shall wrap up my ramblings about my academic concerns.

it's not like i don't know what i want in life. i'm just too greedy to choose only one D: