jaga jaga. penulis sedang melalui fasa melankolik yang sangat kronik.
i want to cut my hair. i want something really short. kononnya bajet simpan rambut panjang nak nampak comel. tak payah. nak comel konon. nak comel comel untuk sapa? kononnya berangan nak jadi Sadako dalam Kimi Ni Todoke, satu hari nanti boleh jumpa Kazehaya. tapi cerita tu setting highschool, so agak terlambat. okay fine. Ayumi dalam Honey and Clover pun rambut panjang ada fringe jugak. tapi dia kena reject dengan Mayama sobs sedih but in the end dia ada Nomiya zzzz aku ade sape? takde manenye. might as well chop it off. saya nak pixie crop macam ni
pendek kan? my mom would totally freak. tapi saya kan memang rebel. and hair will always grow back. but masalah nya muka saya ni sangat bulat haih saya taknak la nampak macam kuih pau. ehehe. so maybe kalau macam ni tak pendek sangat kot
eh tapi sape pedulik pun kalau muka aku macam kuih pau? zzzz i really want short hair. masuk lab nanti tak payah kecoh kecoh nak ikat rambut. dan aku memang fail ikat rambut. my head shape is too weird la. it's like a square yang takde bucu. it's not round though. or maybe my head is just a fat square. but who cares. ah aku ni cakap nak potong rambut macam dah hardcore gila tapi i am very very insecure about my looks so if anything goes wrong i would probably cry my eyes out. tapi kalau teruk sangat boleh je cover dengan beanie kale merah idk why but saya nak beanie kale merah. winter dah dekat dah ni. pakai tudung je la intan kan senang haha hmm. saya nak Ryota potongkan rambut. charge dia mahal so mesti dia boleh potong secara awesome. i trust Asians. i trust hot Asians with my life. i trust very hot Asians with my hair. paham tak magnitude hotness Ryota yang aku cuba sampaikan? very hot.
let me break this down for you.
- I have 3 more papers to sit. i haven't done
revising studying and i'm panicking.
- My hair is a real mess. Pimples are going viral probably due to the stress.
- I am tired of being nice to these ignorant ungrateful bitches.
- Why am I still single?
i want a real boyfie :'(
the four things mentioned about maybe ada kaitan antara satu sama lain. one could be the cause of another. like, i am still single because my hair is a real mess and i have so many pimples because i am stressed out by my housemates and the finals. or it could be that i haven't done studying because i am too worried about how big of a mess that my hair is and i kept getting distracted by my ugly pimples. urgghhh the humongous mirror right next to my bed / study table isn't helping, seriously.
in general, i am very insecure, and i am all stressed out. problem common crisis is common. and they make me wanna shave my head bald.
why don't i have a boyfie? because i'm bald. hehehe. kan senang nak jawab?
i'll find one soon. a boyfie. blargh. it's not like i'm desperate or anything. i am a possessive person, and not having something to be possessive over is kinda irritating grrr. or is it just me who feels that way? anyway i will make one obsessive, masochistic and possessive girlfriend. i feel sorry for the poor soul who'll fall victim to my twisted charms. haih let him roam free for a while more. once i find you, i promise that you won't be leaving me. ehehe.
baby don't take too long. or else i'll turn gay.
