Happyness.

it's the fifth day peeps!!!

huh~ i'm tired playing the 'fangirl'. really. it's bad for the heart, and bad for the throat. nonetheless, it is undeniable that it is good for the soul. =P but seriously, being a fan girl memang penat. one would need a lot of times imagining stuff - usually the scenario of when meeting the 'object of affection'. this includes details such as what will you do, what will u say (or not), what maybe his reaction, will he notice u, etc. all and all, haiz.. it's not easy being a fangirl.

but when i'm not acting all fangirlish, people tend to call me emo. lol. just call me an 'exhausted fangirl' then.

today, after the long wait, i went for my dental appointment. fyi, i'd oredy registered my name in the long long long list of people who wanna get braces, 3 years ago. i went to the clinic in Peringgit, but they told me that they have shifted my appointment to the clinic in Pengkalan Rama. adeyh. they really could have save me the trouble. hallo~~~ x reti calling2 ka? nk gune YM? shessh. gov.

reaching the other clinic, all was well. there wasn't much people there, and i got inside the dentist office pretty quick. seriously, i can't recall the name of the doctor. but i think i'm gonna call him Dr Fong (Sai Yuk) because damn! he looks a lot like him! XD - tinggal die x de tocang, just botak. =P

but... i'm really, really disappointed. after my long (timeless) anticipation, it looks like i'm not getting my teeth braced. uhh.. and i've waited so long too.. T__T why? i don't think i have much time.. i mean, well, kalo ade rezki nanti nk fly kan? doctor tu kate braces takes at least 3 years, and seeing where i'm studying now, susah jugak nak balik melake selalu. plus, most of the appointment will be on weekdays, which means i'm gonna have to miss some of my classes (not that i've never done that before). haiz. i hate this. hate it. hate it. sape kate aku nk gi aussie? omg i didn't just typed that. ahaha. aku nk g aussie, nk nk nk nk. warghh~~~~~~~~~~~~~

the truth is, i'm crying my eyes out right now. it's the DI. no, it's not just the DI. i downloaded tha excel document, and after asking teh the password, i opened it. it wasn't that bad, i personally think that i've done better than what i'd expected. then my mom passed by, and saw the mark sheet. i seriously didn't want her to see, but it would be pretty weird and rude if i'd closed the window at that time, you see? so she looked. and the first thing she said was 'why are there people with higher marks than you..?' then.. gosh. mom. i love you, but you're seriously driving me mad. whaddya expect? i'm stupid, i'm useless, i'm just worthless. it's even a miracle that i'm still here. now u expect me to be better than everyone? i know it's impossible mom. i realised that. when will u?

i think, i think.. i'm gonna go now.