Revival.

i stayed back at the library until 18:00 yesterday. i downloaded all the lecture notes and lectopias. i hope i'll manage to get the time to sit and stare at all those things. i was feeling crappy then. i was all teary eyed in the solitary corner of the library, ( 4th floor. haha. on a good or a bad day, u can always find me there :3 ) but i'm not really sure what made me all teary eyed. i guess my left contact lens was on backwards. =_=

i took the bus home, and all the time when i was on the bus, i had this feeling that i just have to do something on impulse. i was so upset about my brother leaving later that night. so i thought to myself, why the heck am i feeling so angry for? so i got down by the KTM station, took a train, took the ERL, and headed straight for KLIA. i reached there and called my parents. i got a little scolding for doing thing on impulse (and for the fact that they haven't plan how to send me back to subang xD) but then my good uncle volunteered to send me back and it was all good. anyhow i felt like an awesome YANDERE for doing things out of my pure brother complexities.

i am seriously happy last night. it's been awhile when we had a whole family reunion.

my brother brought me a crepe, 200 grams of famous amos and an ice-cream. (which i had been craving for since last week actually x3) i had fun fooling around with my siblings. it was awesome. when the time came for my brother to depart, we all said our goodbyes and he left. i teared up so hard because i had pent up so much emotion within me for the last month. i also regretted that i actually was mad at my brother for not calling me to say goodbye. in the end, all was good. i had a good cry, and all my worries took off along with the plane, it seemed.

you guys are so lucky for not having to see me in my full emo mode for the rest of the week ^^

// ye saye dah x emo dah nikki loliritz xD