Getting Through.

INTAN.

THERE ARE STILL GOOD PEOPLE LIVING IN THIS WORLD.

AREN'T YOU GLAD THAT YOU ARE STILL ALIVE TO MEET THEM?

// yes yes i am glad. i am very grateful.

anyway. i've been doing [this] for a while now. except for the don't work part. i can't really say that i hate biotech now can i? not now LOL. i'm on a scholarship, remember? eh but if i die then no one would really care about shitty scholarships. hmm. aihhh. i just wish i have enough time. i always feel like i'm running out of time nowadays.

so my kpop concert plans are basically screwed. hmmm. so there really isn't anything to look forward to. it felt like i was detached from my future plans or something. freaky. i can't see the rail road laid out in front of me. i could see a portion of it before, but now? aihh. i remembered writing something about how future plans kept me going. or something.

now i'm basically left hanging.

i hate being swept away by the current.

i miss my brother so much. i tried stalking him on facebook but i failed (again). i googled his name and i found his official gov.my email. i spent half an hour writing a short email to him while crying lol. well, i told him that i my exam is coming, and i congratulated him for his coming second baby (since i haven't done so). and, i told him i miss him so much. i sent it. and it took him only 3 minutes to reply back ehehe. he wished me the best of luck, and said that he'd give me a present afterwards. and that, he misses me too. hmm. i guess my feelings got through. and now i'm sobbing like a retard alone in this room.