Break.

DAMN IT. MY BLOG IS OOZING WITH EMONESS.

let me be happy once again. and. today i am happy. for the moment. ^^ i found my purse today. it took a lot of effort to lift up the matress, but i finally found my wallet. wallet ku sayang. eventhough there's not much money left inside of u, lesen dan my overdue IC ku is still important. i guess the thought of being a refugee in my own country gets to me. -_-||

still, i haven't found my SACE pin yet. i guess i might have to call Taylor's tomorrow. i hope the result won't come out tomorrow. i should be on Tuesday since Tuesday is my most unfortunate day. so.

dad had a heart to heart talk with me. it's not about college, but it somehow made me feel better. he said that he's frustrated with the way i act in the past few days. LOL. i couldn't blame him for not knowing WHY i acted that way. it's just my hikkikomori way. bukannye aku pegi merempit. xD i'm not such a social sim, eventhough i have lots of social networking friends. (that is if u can call them as friends.) other than that, mane de lain. -_-||. sebosan2 aku pun x de la aku berminat nk berbaik dengan ex aku yg tinggal bawah bukit tuh. ntah hape rupe die skang oun aku x tau. seram seyh memikirkannyew.

anyways, today my family and i went out together. mom bought me a new phone. nokia touchscreen amende ntah. tengok. anak mu ini mmg x reti nk bersyukur, kn? it's not that i don't appreciate it. i just feel like I DON'T DESERVE IT. it's not like my phone is in a bad shape or anything. housing buruk jew, tuka no hal. buying me stuff when i know i can't give anything in return. it's just hard to accept. WHY CAN'T U UNDERSTAND MOM? I DON'T DESERVE ANYTHING ANYMORE. I'M JUST NOT GOOD ENOUGH. to make matter worse, she asked me to make a list of stuff that i wanna buy for college. like WTH. i don't know if i can make it next year, so WHY BOTHER ASKING?. bile aku buat muke bodo aku jugak yang kene marah. so i just smiled. ^^

i bought mom a blueberry mille crepe today. i hope she eats it today cuz lame2 x sedap. ahaha. i don't know. i don't know what i'm feeling right now. i guess i'm running away for now. tengok la. blog pun dh macam rojak. i don't care.

IGNORANCE IS BLISS. for now.