Fusion.

why do people try so hard to define themselves? for some, it's their purpose in life. i tried hard to find a definition for myself, or a stereotype, if you wanna call it. but i can't. well, 'random' is kind of a stereotype i guess. but the thing is, i've just stop caring about all of these 'labelling' stuff, you know =3=

but dammit. i'm in love with so many things that every single one of those things can define me in a way. i have a few friends who would stick to just one thing. when you view their page, u can instantly tell that they are otakus or whatever, because their page just SCREAMS ANIME. some of my other friends would stick to loving ONE BAND; and their page would scream 'INSERT BAND NAME HERE'. and the rest would be like KPOP, PHOTOGRAPHY, SPORTS, etc. AND I THINK THEY ARE COOL. why? they are cool because they stick to one thing; and that one thing in particular can pretty much define them.

what do you get when you view my page? this blog? my twitter? my facebook even? NONE.

i look like one of those boring lifeless people OMG D;

it is not cool to not stick to one thing? i think i'm cool D; BECAUSE I LIEK LOTS OF STUFF.
HAHA. so fuck you. you can't label me D;;

ah you can almost call me a 'fusionist'. oppa tottemo kyeopta desu? hueue xD

some anime guy told me that it's okay if you don't find that particular something in life, what matter most is that you have searched for it to your heart's content. some people IRL told me that's bullshit. those are just words to comfort you losers out there. my take? i'll search for that one thing (dammit it could be lots of things la) to my heart's content and if i fail to make myself happy in the end, then i'll just have to comfort myself with the words of the anime guy.

some people are deemed successful in life when they contribute something to the world. the other day i saw one of my prof walking at the side of the road. he looked so nerdy with his cargo pants and shirt and beard with an almost bald head carrying a huge back pack. i think he's awesome because he contributed something. his research papers must be awesome. you gotta have curiosity and a strong drive to find out stuff and do research and write awesome journals yeah? i lack drive. i lack curiosity. i used to care about the world but all i can think about now is to get anything i can put of this world and die without contributing D: what happened OTL something must have happened to me. WHY AM I LIEK THIS.

insecure is definitely not a word to describe me. i know what i'm doing. i just don't care much.

wtf am i rambling about at 4 am zzzz