Spirited Away.

ah yes =w= i should be leaving soon. today it's Monday, the 7th. clicked the calender thing at the bottom right of the desktop then goes into panic mode. 18th is like, the next week punya Friday. *continues panicking* i haven't packed. seriously. i haven't gone out to an all out shopping trip. i've sorted out my clothes and all but i don't know which one should i bring @__@ will it be hot over there? will it be cold? liek, freezing cold? no it won't. it would be pretty much the same as Malaysia, i know. it should be a bit cold and dry because of the lack of humidity, and the occasional cold wind, or something. but i wouldn't know for sure. i haven't been there before lol. i'm trying to be calm. M*** had put me through a lot of uncertainties. so seriously, i've come to a point where just don't care anymore. don't ask me when is my flight, because things could still change. don't ask me where i'll be staying, because things could still change. nothing is fixed. nothing is confirmed. it sucks to have your fate in the hands of God knows who OTL

i'm all good. i'm still somewhat sane. i'm not too sure i could say the same for my parents. i'm sure that in their eyes, i'm taking things too lightly. but what can i do lol. i'm trying my best hanging on to all the uncertainties thrown at me. i'm fine with uncertainties dammit. i shall look at them as adventures (=w=)b ah yes my parents are awesome. they would whine about all the uncertainties is and stuff that i have to go through to all my relatives; from the miscommunication with my sponsors to the flood situation in Queensland. it's all true, of course. but i'm sure when all of those phail stories fall on another ear, the one listening would go liek, "ah, susahnye nak fly. belajar dalam negara lagi senang." //stabs self.

i've managed to organize my timetable awesomely. so far i've managed to sign on to all of the lecture streams i wanted. seriously, some days i would feel fail. and some days i would feel lucky. awesomely lucky. i was supposed to sign on for a lecture and tutorial for PSYC1020 at 8 am Australian time. being the failure that i am, i thought 8 am Australian is 9 am Malaysian when it's actually 6 am haha. so i set my alarm for 8:30 am and went to sleep at 6:15 am. but somehow, i woke up at 7:30 am and got the last spot in the L1 stream; the awesome last spot. i know it's a simple thing but i'm so happy lol. the feeling is comparable to when i won a SONY MP3 player in a lucky draw last year haha.

ahhh i can't wait to leave for Aussie. the thought of leaving the things that you have since you were born sounds, exciting. somewhat like Nomiya shedding of his suit of adolescence and turning to a full fledge adult in Honey and Clover the anime series season 2 lol. ahh i've never attained the thing you guys called 'independence' for as long as i was staying in Subang - for a period of 2.5 years. lets face it, i've never been financially independent from my parents, even when i have my monthly allowance from M***. i am a spoiled. i spent too much. my parents loved me, showered me with so much luxury until i've become like this lol. ahh don't get me wrong, i'm not blaming them for spoiling me. but i'm hoping when i get Aussie i can be more independent? lol no choice no choice. i work better under stress, under the lack of resource. so for sure i will impose better self control on myself yes ZETTAI NI (=w=)v i can do this i can do this. ah on a completely different note, i don't work well with limits. i can do stuff more that required so 'limit' is no good for me haha.

Spirited Away. good movie is good. the black soot spirits are cute. i want to fall in love with a river spirit. ah nanti saya duduk sebelah sungai Brisbane so a Caucasian river spirit pun jadilah.

'Promised Reunion' by arriku

 Haku-sama TTwTT kimi ga daisuki!